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movie

2007-07-14T09:10:00.000-07:00

sudden urge to blog.. anyway, thanks to everyone who gave me birthday gifts! really appreciate it! :D

today, went to watch harry potter movie, with, my cousins, ten of us. plus, yapseng, terence tay, shixiang, weirong.. yes. it was a relatively fun event.. with surprise lucky draw, my cousin won an awesome looking notebook with 3D image of the poster.. cool... haha... the guys actualli had seats at the back.. good la.. my mum told me all front seats all front seats.. then all back seats.. lol! movie was ok i guess? from the negative comments from my friends, and i actually told one of them to shut up, so ya sorry man... didn't mean to.. but it is really rude when u tell someone that the movie sucks when they are gg to watch it in another 10mins.. it will make the viewer have a bad impression of the movie and make her not have a gd time watching it... so like stop it..

movies to watch,
1)the condemmed
2)the simpsons
3)ratoulie or how-u-spell-it
4)die hard 4.0

but i doubt we have to watch at all.. i shld just go to a video shop and rent the movies.. the simpsons is a must watch though.. :D emma watson rocked the movie..

2007-07-02T00:15:00.000-07:00

2007-06-16T08:11:00.000-07:00

ok.. hereby announce that today's the best birthday-eve-day of my life! LOL! okok.. so wat actuallii happened today? haha! ONE BAND: RED RAIN! shixiang invited me to this concert and i don regret agreeing to come for it.. first met him and his church friends such as michelle, her two friends, stefanie and regina and then eugene and his friend at paya lebar mrt station.. mich was really a great person to talk to! haha! so we headed to the kopitiam at the post office before gg to the 12th storey for the concert at the church itself... chicken rice there wasn't good.. lol! so anyway.. it was raining but well, red rain is in town so yeah.. double rain.. how abt rain from korea? reached the audi and there i met leon oh, melson, weide wait.. wei de was at the mrt station too.. haha! and yeah.. sec 2 justin.. and chiwen.. oh ya! jennifer performed a dance and it was totally cool.. haha! the songs by switchfoot performed by pheonomenon(right spelling?) was totally good! the whole audi was filled with teens la.. just great atmosphere.. haha! soon red rain came out.. lights effect was superb! songs were great too! i like the song summer.. haha! literally jumped during the chorus.. haha! i jumped the whole night.. sx was in front of me and jennifer and rod, beside me.. so ya.. bumped into rod several times.. haha! but it was totally rocking! the floor was shaking when everyone jumped.. i guess this is the onli time i got so high.. haha! the other time will be during games carnival.. haha! although i don know much songs and not familiar with red rain at all, but after a short period of immersing myself in their songs, the concert wasn't a stranger to me.. haha! besides there were lyrics on the screen.. so no harm.. haha! i sang to the lyrics.. everyone did! so.. overall... GREAT CONCERT!! must invite me agn ok sx or rod? :D till nex year i will go crazy agn.. haha!

2007-06-14T08:56:00.000-07:00

i am in love with this song: xin fu de ju li, liu geng hong. nice nice song.. great recommendation by sx.. and yea.. it is truely a romantic song.. and it speaks a lot in a relationship.. haha! good love song.. wouldn't it be nice if someone sings this song to you.. LOL! ok.. fanasty agn.. so erm.. had electronics course today.. joined class with some of 4C girls and 4E girls.. lessons were a breeze and they were enjoyable too... but i cant imagine myself gg through this course interminably.. lol. new word.. :D so tea breaks were cool.. the chicken wing was tasty..the red bean pancake is super nice.. i just love red bean.. YUM! haha! oh ya.. the tea was also good.. the place was huge.. they have white leaves at the bus stop.. they have lifts that move reali realli slowly.. we must have made a fool of ourselves today.. the west is realli a new place to us.. lol.. it seems like we are in a different world but we are all singaporeans... weird.. haha! and u suddenly have a feeling of deja vu.. like u've been here.. but it was not singapore.. weird? ok.. that was how i felt.. but still the west shall wait till the day i familiarise myself with the place.. yeah.. so lunch.. canteen food was great.. :D western food was good.. library had everything.. cool cool place.. students researching, playing diner dash, drinking bubbletea.. fools interrupting others.. ok.. anyway.. gave my belated gifts to yq and sarah.. whose b'dae i've forgotten agn.. LOL! jkjk... so got presents from aiyan, sihui and jasmine.. great cards! and i must conclude that aiyan is good. she can totally relate.. with the songs and the card. smart la aiyan.. :D i laughed when i revealed aiyan's gift.. it speaks a lot right aiyan.. lol! small secret... haha! so anyway, happy birthday rachel!

d&t later and nex day.. i don know.. whether to go for red rain's concert... erm.. i might need to stay hm.. try as hard as i can... i promised u right? sun family's chalet.. guitar practice with cousin.. cool... i need the bean's holidays asap pls... :D i cant find the song.. but realli highly recommended.. xin fu de ju li...

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i've always assumed that u would be there,
but from time to time,
i was proven wrong.
can you get me out of this crime?

seeing you with her,
makes my insides tingle,
and my mind, narrows.
can i not see her linger?

we had great times,
but it was always cut short.
can we have more time,
and make my smile broad?

the crossing of this river,
was never easy.
i was tortured with waves of jealously.
could u make my ride less queasy?

i've suppressed the hatred for a long time,
and today it had not muffled.
instead it had made me more defiant,
my feathers ruffled.

i shld just give up on you
and not bother abt saturday.
i cant get pass myself,
i have to find another way.
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cliche? haha!

bad ppl do exist.. don take it too hard.. it was a great thing to talk abt it though...

2007-06-12T08:15:00.000-07:00

oo... ok.. i've not been blogging since.. last last saturday? well.. lots of things have happened during this long long period and here i am today blogging abt them.. haha!

so truncated.. i cant remember much abt that last week just that sarah thomas pon-ed school for the last two days.. well, at least i can concentrate better in class.. haha! and limpon couldn't come for EL and chinese because of her trip to indonesia.. so back then, we discussed abt class chalet. so yeah.. it was confirmed we are gg to have it.

last saturday. woke up early in the morning to prepare myself for the 2days 1 night batam trip at KTM resort. before leaving for harbourfront, went online to order the food for the bbq yesterday, monday. so it was ezb and the food was delicious.. the class cleaned the chicken satay in a matter of mins and stingray was also on the large.. LOL! it was wanted badly.. reward? haha! tasty sambal stingray? so anyway, batam trip. overall an ok experience.. the uncles on the trip will super hilarious.. they joked abt spa, money, food, practically everything la.. was really fun hanging out with the different uncles and aunties.. yeah.. and also! it is kinda funny when u meet a teacher's aunt on the trip.. LOL! my mum wore TKPSG's shirt on the last day. she was the organiser for the whole trip so ya everyone noticed her and her shirt so this lady talked to her abt TK and she was ms koh's aunt.. whoa. haha! wat are the chances? LOL! ms koh come better? haha! ok.. so ya mrs koh i presume, she asked how was ms koh as a teacher and talked abt ms koh and her daughter who was from tk too.. from band? yeah.. so ya.. i don know who but her daughter has left tk last year.. so ya.. band seniors.. anyway, got pictures from the trip.. just the place.. yeah.. it was really a plesant place.. except, u can totally hear frogs croaking at night.. and they are just outside your room.. haha! but overall. totally cool place.. the tour guide said that many indonesians will book rooms on new year eve, so they can watch our fireworks.. LOL! pro.. they actualli saved boat ride fair.. and u cant imagine how close the resort was from singapore.. i managed to contact ruiwen from the resort.. so ya.. rest assured and stay there, u will be away from singapore at all.. except when u get out from the resort for shopping and stuff..

so the pictures..

this is the resort's name. KTM RESORT.BATAM

they had go-kart? at the resort.. 20 sing for 40 mins.. so ya.. track is super small if that was the designated track.. they have many pool tables there.. and to me, the tables are huge.. it was situated at the dining area.. the background is the dining area.. breakfast was horrible.. seafood shld be just fine. since they are just beside the sea.. LOL! this are some rooms beside the lobby.. they are i guess smaller than my resort hse.. yeah.. it faces singapore directly though.. haha!
this is a rock which u can see clearly.. which means the sea is quite shallow? well, this is near the shore.. quite clear waters? nah.. haha!
ooo.. the resorts room, tents for the swimming pool from dining area.. u can see several huts at the background.. those are the resorts house..

the guan yin statue.. it is 21 m or feet tall? there was another small statue, erm.. one-third of this statues height.. the smaller one was made small cause the indonesia govt didn't allow a tall statue of guanyin.. but the owners decided to build a taller one facing singapore so that indonesia's govt cant see it.. haha!
ooo... this was taken from my resort which was up on a hill.. the red roof is the dinning area.. background? SINGAPORE! the tall bulidings and all that.. that is marina south? yeah.. oh ya! u can totally conclude singapore is a bright city.. from my resort room, u can literally see how bright the sky was above singapore and how dark the sky was at my resort.. u can see the stars at batam but not at singapore.. looks like we are too bright.. haha!
the back of one resort.. look at the length..
closer view.. they have a balcony for us too.. total coolness. the fishing area behind the dining area.. a lot of ikan billis..
the left view of the fishing area.. quite a cool pic cool place.. haha!
same left side.. my purpose while taking this pic was a desktop pic.. so ya.. the cliff is on the left so the right, can be filled with the icons.. haha!
fishing stand? LOL! it is a ledge for fishermen to stand on and fish..

a salt water millipede? this is half of the body from previous night's fishing..

three pics show the seawater-filled pool and a small pond beside it.. the red board i think states the prices to use the pool? i don know.. but if it was so, then it would be lame to pay and enter the dirty pool.. u shld see how yellow the water was.. the dining area.. fully air-conditioned by the sea breeze...
this is way to my resort room.. the one on the left is my room.. no. 2.. yeah.. they have a log built bridge to connect from the room to the rooms.. realli realli cool..
closer look at the bridge? the pond below it.. looks green too..
see? haha!

my resort.. no. 2..

the balcony?

overall view of the room from the side

i will update with more pictures after this week.. maybe never?

2007-06-02T07:34:00.000-07:00

today's a great day i guess.. erm.. went out early morning to katong mall to register for a tuition class.. the teacher, mr lawrence is such a cool teacher. he has this english acsent and he told me what's my major prob. lol! so i think i would be gg for his lessons from this wed onwards? i shall decide later. so anyway, went for a long walk with my mum from katong mall, to katong shopping centre. so went into kim choo shop, and bought a wrist band there. it is so so cool! haha! i believe it is made out of rattan? it was on sale for 3 bucks. ex?

yea.. think so.. after buying, we headed for katong shopping centre and we had lunch there. chicken rice and we bought the freshly baked banana pies from the famous cake shop there. it was realli delicious! cant wait to have more. but now i need to seriously lose weight. i am not getting thin.. LOL! kk.. so that was about it.

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i guess you only know me when you need me.
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2007-06-01T03:36:00.000-07:00

this song's for everyone out there. there's always someone around you.
Ni Ting Jian Le Ma- Sun Ho Yao Shan

2007-05-31T09:30:00.000-07:00

vesak day.. lol.. slacky day.. didn't do much.. still confused with my choice.. but i think i shld ask mrs koh instead.. ask teng to join me.. haha.. so anyway, woke up at 1pm today and ate roti prata for breakfast. then headed down to TM for dinner. met haniel there.. he went to buy a bleach weapon from the cosplay shop there.. they are having a clearance sale and the things i believe, are kinda inexpensive yet exquiste. i intend to get a gift for my bro there.. soon.. not now.. so ya.. that's abt it? i don know wat to talk abt now.. haiz..

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to noname,
i don know wat to say to you. i am also irritated by wat you told me and i find that he is really annoying too.. he's just seeking the attention.. and i fear he might do smth silly with all his words, smses.. he has certainly changed a lot after that year rite? wat has actualli caused that change? someone near him? a disturbing event? or he just wants to be like that for all the attention he will get by being sucidal? honestly, i find it dumb on his part. he's contradicting himself.
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2007-05-30T10:42:00.000-07:00

lol.. technically, today's vesak day... so happy vesak day! yesterday(?) sch was ok.. supposed to meet mrs tan (SS) and when i call her i don know wat the other party said.. cant hear at all so i just said thank you and hung up the phone. man... after that i told ms seah i would be going for dnt. and she said ok.. the nex thing we knew was that she told weihao, she didn't want to see anyone of us.. so ya.. i didn't go.. feel guilty now. anyway, bonvoyage to all dnt teachers going to europe tmrw.. they are so lucky la! europe leh! haha! so after truncated, we had a chem test.. relatively do-able.. i just sped through the paper.. writing i-don-know-what.. haha! don know la.. so sian now..

after sch went out with grandma and dajie to temple to pray for vesak day and we saw chen liping and rayson tan and their son.. their son is a big boy now.. and chen liping is super thin now.. haha! so that's abt it.. waited for the bus for a very long time to go to chinatown.. reached there, queue at fo ya shi is super long so didn't queue and looked at the display cars.. or hua che or smth.. don know.. so ya.. walked to a busstop so far away.. :( and i just got home.. time: 2am.. sian...

i don know wat to type now.. just that XX and paula draw nice pictures.. yeah.. just for XX, must edit 'smth'.. haha! otherwise the picture is just nice.. :D ciao.. so sian.. :(

2007-05-29T03:52:00.000-07:00

today's a fine day. overall. haha! first period, EL. had a Paper 1 test. used up some vocab phrases that i picked up from a book yesterday. i am so hardworking. LOL! jkjk. now i am slacking before doing my chemistry hmk which i must do for 1hr and 45 mins straight. wish me luck. haha! and i haven do 2004 paper. maybe i have touched it when studying for MYE, but i don know where are the works. so EL was kinda ok? i don know. i really have no feelings for EL. i find it an outlet like blogging, that can be express in EL instead of chinese that needs all that strokes and stuff. so ya. did question 1. i think my compo has no link to the question at all.

next up is amath. class was noisy and couldn't settle down on time and mrs tan scolded us and she told mrs neo and mrs neo told us off. lol. so amath. the rev ex was do-able. haha! was kinda proud of myself. LOL! and MS SARAH THOMAS provoked me. haha! was quite angry for a moment but soon we just talk normally. haha! we are like so cool. haha! so amath lecture tomorrow and i so love mrs tan PL. she's the best math teacher i ever had. second fav teacher is my primary 6 math teacher. she's like mr TKH. that teacher literally slapped my classmate for not doing well for a test, and that guy didn't want to heed her advice to drop to em3 for easy math? i think it was smth like this. i cant rmb. so ya. but the guy didn't wan to drop to em3 and my teacher slapped him. and he started crying. soon, he dropped to em3 and he did well there. at least his weak subject didn't bring his score down. so yeah. second best teacher. haha!

so after amath, was physics. radioactivity is so so so dangerous. don play play. haha! miss PCK althought i seldom watch his shows. lesson was ok. didn't understand some part of the topic and asked mrs neo and she explained to a grp of us. yq, sx, tf, teng, wr and myself. and finally everything's clear. cool! oh ya! thanks haniel for the yummy wheat bar! it was so nice! praise the chef! haha!

quoted this verse from a song for you. song: i don love you by my chemical romance
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When you go
Don't ever think I'll make you try to stay
And maybe when you get back
I'll be off to find another way
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I don't love you
Like I loved you
Yesterday
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it's over.

2007-05-28T06:34:00.000-07:00

WORST DAY OF MY LIFE! DON ASK WHY AND DON TELL THEM WHY! thanks. onli a few close friends know and i don wanna recall abt it no more and talk abt it no more.

chinese paper. conclusion: lost 4marks for close passage. comprehension: no time to finish lost 8marks. compo: fortunately exercises i done in close passage book have contents that are similarly close to the question i chose. heng. haha. overall: praying hard and do my best for oral and listening. the stress experienced for today's o lvl was immense. wonder how i can survive the nex few exams.

anyway, had dnt today. had great fun with the guys and also mr juffri, ms seah. so ya. k class girls are a great joy to be with. shrek ears are hilarious. haha! no lunch for the whole day till i reached home. mum came back early from batam with pizza and lots of donuts. donuts are too sweet. pizza was great. cant wait for my turn next next sat. yeah! haha! gonna buy lots of stuff there.

i don know wat to blog today just that today's one sucky day. crap you man.
don understand why when i tell certain guys, and they started laughing. you guys don even care. watever.

i won't regret no more.

2007-05-26T07:09:00.000-07:00

ooo... today was a pleasant day. went out at 11am to tampines library to meet haniel for chinese revision. honestly, the revision did help a bit. just by gauging myself for the various test papers i have done. but it is still not enough. currently, i have the mindset of killing the paper on that day and after which don regret for doing that paper and getting the results. i am afraid that i would just suddenly black out and hence not know anything abt chinese.. i rmb my experience during PSLE. i psyched myself into a this-is-an-ordinary-school-test-but-must-give-all-you-have mindset. but eventually, throughout the paper, i kept looking out of the window(was sitting beside window) and kept staring at this particular bird which always stands on the same tree and faced towards my direction. 4 days(?) passed by quickly and that bird didn't abandon the tree but instead came back everyday. haha! it was my companion, my 'guardian' during that time. i believe the invigilators noticed that i kept looking out the window but it beats looking at the table beside me. so ya, they didn't say anything to me. i just carried on looking outside. the bird managed to calm me down and allowed me to have a clear mind before tackling the 'hard' math questions.

often, people tend to get complacent. yes, they achieved high marks for their exams, such as PSLE, O LVL, A LVL and the list goes on. they get posted into the good schools and they start telling themselves, "aiyah, in such a good school and high _____(exam) marks, why should i worry?". from that point of time, their results drop and they still take it slightly and think to themselves the teachers never teach well, and start blaming everyone. last friday, my mum complained to mrs chee abt this teacher. i was quite angry with the complain cause it is not entirely that teacher's fault and it was in the past. why rake it up? i just stood embarrassed in front of mrs chee and kept quiet. anyway, back to present. O LVLS are coming and chinese is our first paper, this monday. on one hand, i want to get it over and done with. but i still want to it be delayed so i wont face it that early.

for this few days, i have been telling myself to do my very best for o lvls. but there's always the sense of fear that holds me back. presently, my subjects are arnd Bs and they are close to As. but there are subjects like english and comb. hum that makes me scared. so wat i am getting Bs now? i must put in more effort to achieve my As for that 75 mark but it is never enough. who knows how easy the papers will be? to be in peace with myself, i must reach the point of extreme revision and confidence. basically to be extremely good for the papers so i can get my marks and hence get my As and a bright future will be waiting for me. can you imagine ruining your future while in secondary 4? at this moment of time, if i ever fail english for O lvls, i will literally die. seriously. i don think i can face the reality then. to not allow such a thing to happen to me, i swear that i am going to improve my english. by prelims, if i don get a B4 and above, i might go crazy. but i will do my very best to improve it again then. will it be too late? i hope not. 2 weeks ain't much. grammar is my weakness now and i really want to fix this weak foundation of mine. some of you may be laughing now, "she's just bullshitting, she won't even get a B4!".however, i don really care abt it. laugh for i care and so what? life still goes on. it is not as if you are controlling my life and by laughing at me ruining my life. if you have that kind of mindset, i am sorry, you are being plain childish and well, have fun doing it since you are wasting your time. so ya, thanks for wasting time on me. i feel honoured.

anyway, after letting off my steam, my grandma and mum insist on me having english tuition. before typing this post, i wasn't ready for tuition. now, i am prepared and all set. i am going to tell my mum to quickly get me a good teacher. any recommendations? nearby is best. near school is ok too. school's vicinity has a lot of tuition centers. most probably will be around school.

to sum it all up, revision was great today and i must admit some papers in the assessment book are hard and that's another reason for being afraid. now i am going to do close passages from the book haniel gave today. going to do at least 10 today in such a short period of time. but to not regret, i am not going to take my revision for granted and cry when getting my results. i must do myself proud. till then, i am not coming online tmrw to revise chinese till i finish the close passage book, until i feel that that's enough, i am all geared up and ready to kill the paper, will i sleep. tmrw's bedtime: 9.30pm sharp. rise and shine? 7.30am. the sun will have rose from the horizon by then, the start of a new day. good luck to all. give all you got. finish the paper once and for all without regretting in the future. think about the future and not the present. be forward-looking. whoa. SS.

i regretted once back in primary 4 when i was streamed into the worst class for primary 5. but i took things in my hands and into the best EM2 class in primary 6. i want it to be the same again this year, and get into MJC. my choice for my future. here i come.

thanks for revision today haniel. tell him to shut up btw. what a friend you have.

i agree with mr lee, i must put everything aside now. till we finish our o lvls. see you soon.

2007-05-25T02:23:00.000-07:00

midnight train to georgia.. nice song.. :D by gladys knight..

today went to school to collect report book.. my bro's cher was mrs chee and she commented that both my bro and i are poles apart.. both extremes.. haha! it is good? anyway.. failed english.. comments as i said was funny.. haha! shall add in later.. mrs neo said my EL is poor cause as commented, it is entirely due to my grammar.. so ya.. i am gg to do smth abt this.. i really cant afford to ruin my future cause of my grammar... shoot to all my lessons for grammar in primary school and kindergarten.. i must have not listened then.. so now.. the price to pay.. chiong all the way.. help is very much needed here.. haha! gonna see mrs koh? mdm yeo? for my english.. before i die.. :( so ya.. and then comments for comb hum. subject is affected by language.. AH!!!! EL!! ok.. MUST MUST DO SMTH ABT IT!! ok.. so that was abt it.. took report book and went to meet haniel for chinese revision.. he's quite ok bah... didn't finish one paper though.. ended with him having a headache after like.. 1hr of chinese.. i was mean.. haha! so we went to makan ba chor mee.. nice stall. we always go there for lunch... well.. at least twice? haha! then came back to school and played scrabble.. quite ok bah.. lost to haniel by 30+ points.. haha! soon we left to go home.. was arnd 1+pm.. dad came and fetched me back.. so yeah... overall, did learn a bit but still not much.. chinese paper in 2 days time.. i am neutral yet i sometimes do have the urgency to do smth for the paper.. my parents sort of don realli think much of the paper and keep asking whether i can go out.. and yada yada.. got pissed off too la... explained so many times but still there were repeated questions... sian... GOOD LUCK TO ALL FOR MONDAY'S MT O LVL PAPER!

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why don't people admit how they feel?
for me, i think that they are just fearful of rejection.
but how would we know whether it is going to be a rejection,
when we don't ever try?

however, it is never too easy to muster that courage.
i really need an answer.
i don wanna waste too much time on thinking,
and getting pissed off for i-don-know-why.

if this goes on,
as my friend said,
things won't be the same again.
and i do fear that. man...

the cold war i started,
should end.
i doubt you don even care that a cold war is on,
since i would always apologise first, and it would end.

i don expect you to say sorry,
at least understand why i am pissed off.
i doubt you know i am angry with you.
i think there's smth realli wrong here..

i think i am wrong from the very start.
i've been fanatizing for a long period.
should i end it now before it is too late?
or should i let it carry on?
give me the word and i know what to do.
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2007-05-24T07:31:00.000-07:00

ooo.. today was supposed to be the last day of term 2, semester 1. haha! but realli, i don feel the sense of holidays at all and i shldn't have it at all until after o lvls.. today was an ok day bah... erm.. activities period.. nth much just some admin stuff for the charity program for the younger students.. we are old liao.. haha! so it was a survey and a grp of us just answered the questions based on our knowledge, especially huan wen's.. haha! so ya.. then we had english was kinda plain.. just did compre exercise.. i don know why.. suddenly so sian.. :(

then we had geo elec... gg through papers.. and ya.. me and xuan started scribbling on teng's table... haha! just teasing each other.. then was... erm.. recess... makan spaghetti and my whole blouse kena tomato sauce.. but nevertheless, the spag is still nice.. :D thanks auntie! haha! then went back to class.. studied physics.. quite ok la.. the test was nex and the question wasn't specific.. which rebound and one more.. cant rmb.. so luckily changed my answer at the end..

had dnt later.. was not too productive than yesterday.. basically finished most parts alreadi.. but i believe i still have a long way to go.. haha! must do dnt during hols too.. :( haha! nvm la.. finish it all, i happy liao... so tired now.. after dnt went back to class to do report book.. i am amused la.. my comments were kinda weird? i must admit the comments aren't true at all.. sarah can prove it all.. :D haha!! tmrw then i say.. today don say.. not fair to those who haven take yet.. :) so went back with julia.. bought subway for lunch.. no more daily special meal!!!! SAD!! :(:( it is the onli meal i wld buy la! it is , i believe the most reasonable meal? LOL! yea.. watched CSI miami.. ok episode.. then it was AI!! finale! it was a good show with fantastic songs sang by various singers and yeah.. the songs were good.. :D glad that jordin won! haha! she was good la.. don understand paula.. she cant decide... but i think it is diffiult to be the bad guy.. and i totally understand that.. it applies to my life now.. i think u know it.. :(

so yeah.. that's abt it.. comments in report book is kinda a joke to me bah.. the teachers don believe.. haha! ok... shall be good from now on.. this sat there's a POC show price is cheap want to go but cant.. O lvls.. tmrw gg to sch at 7.30 for report book and after that, staying back to study chinese... must do well for chinese!

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i wan to be able to communicate with u like before..
how i treated u were just to see how much u care..
i guess i am wrong..
i think someone, whom i reject knows who are u.
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2007-05-23T08:10:00.000-07:00

i feel so troubled now... need to talk to someone.. :( ur phone's confiscated, u r busy, u r not replying.. i have no idea who to talk to.. i don know how u are now and u don reply my messages when u asked me to message u.. hope everything will be alright tmrw..

look at the yellow bear k? stay happy always... :)

i am having a big headache and feel super tired now.. at this condition, i will just blurt out all my unhappiness..

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we sat down with our friends,
with an empty seat beside ourselves.
we are far away,
but are we thinking alike?

i may have just left the seat empty,
as there was just too many seats.
i may have just left the seat empty,
hoping u will come fill that seat.

but i think to myself.
'i am just dreaming,
i am just fanatizing,"
all this cant come true.

i am just asking too much.
we aren't that close as before.
or are we just too shy?
i don know...

can we do something abt it?
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2007-05-23T07:03:00.000-07:00

today.. haiz.. kinda emo day? i was super tired in class and hence didn't talk to sarah much and she was also kinda stress.. so ya.. math lesson was kinda cool.. i actualli learnt smth! LOL! ok.. then we had.. erm.. recess.. smth funny happened between yongjie and weihao.. ya.. and julia was sick so had to leave early.. accompanied her to get a cab.. mrs lee is just great la.. haha! hope julia's alright now.. believe she's coming to school tmrw.. chinese was quite quiet today.. i think i am realli tired today.. no energy to talk or anything.. haiz.. even in chinese remedial got big headache and ya.. dnt remedial didn't have the energy to communicate with others.. just wanted to be alone.. haiz.. wonder wat's wrong with me.. :( so had that pep talk.. yeah.. english must be my first priority now.. but not until after my chinese paper.. after chinese paper i am gg to chiong and start revising like everyday.. hope sarah's alright now..

reached hm super late.. stayed back for dnt.. managed to do a lot la.. quite pleased.. :D then watch AMERICAN IDOL!! ok.. performance from blake is just ok for me.. i prefer jordin's more than his.. i love love love the last song they sang!! THIS IS MY NOW! it is super nice to listen to la.. now it is repeating on my music player.. haha! go hear ppl! the lyrics are realli meaningful that's most probably the reason why jordin cried.. i think the line "so i looked around, i cant believe the love i see," it is really meaningful.. i think it is abt looking forward to ur future and don be held back by ur past, ur friends, family are arnd u to help.. i think it is like this? LOL! overall, nice song..

tmrw is our SPA exam and ya.. haven study yet.. LOL! intend to do it tmrw instead.. now do homework first then study for chinese.. basically reading format and newspapers agn.. i am kinda afraid yet confident for chinese paper.. the rev ex does help.. so yea.. good luck to all this coming monday!
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THIS IS MY NOW
http://www.americanidol.com/songwriter/index.xhtml
go listen to the song now!
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i dont know wat to do now...
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2007-05-22T02:41:00.000-07:00

ooo.. today... interesting day.. smth major happened in sch and we shldn't talk anymore abt it.. the female teacher, mrs jasmawati rite? anyway, she's a funny teacher but she manages to put her point across.. yeah.. i don know why could some juniors can actualli laugh while mr koh talked abt it.. so ya.. i almost slept when mrs khairul talked abt the girl's thingy.. lol.. was so so tired.. yesterday slept late.. for some special reason.. :D but i slept later after you... haha.. was reading newspapers.. chinese.. haiz.. so ya.. then.. we had chinese.. lesson wasnt bad.. aiyan just same old same old.. kaypo and just funny.. haha! ok.. she's very funny la.. fullstop.. :D yeah.. macs lunch was supposed to be today but mrs lee not free so better not.. haha.. after o lvl perhaps?

yesterday at night had a long talk with shi xiang.. abt his religion.. realli interesting to know more abt his religion.. christianity btw.. haha! red rain.. see how first? so ya.. sarah said she's gg to be baptised this sun.. she's gg to be committed to christianity.. that's realli cool la.. congrats! haha! that's was abt it last night.. so back to today...

had great fun with sarah, paula and julia... haha! very lame la.. ask sarah and she will tell u how the annual meteor shower look like... LOL! baseball.. best game ever.. LOL! a lot of bloopers u can say.. haha! terence tay is a great bat-er.. pro.. i don know what's the rite word.. so ya.. he can hit the ball to the far end and everyone will be like run, run, run, homerun! lol!! one word: FUN! haha!

went back to class.. everyone stood by the window and started talking.. plainly teasing each other but still, had great fun! the wind was exceptionally cooling.. :D sx complained halfway said we blocked his wind.. LOL! then it started raining and the whole weirong, my table got ants.. like everywhere... yinmei, evonne and myself, we started finding the source and it was the along the window.. the ants were crawling everywhere la.. and my whole body started to feel itchy.. lol... but fortunately sch ended.. then we had the test.. quite do-able.. mdm goh was tearing the name tags or smth? for our o lvls.. and the noise was so so so so IRRITATING! i went crazy for a moment of time.. julia was there she told me to chill.. LOL! so overall was a great day.. went home with sarah... talked a lot.. :D

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things has finally changed.
and ya, i am glad. :)
hope it will stay the same always,
and even better. till then...
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2007-05-21T03:30:00.000-07:00

today is a monday which means double periods for the whole day.. LOL! started off with the GCE O LVL briefing in the audi.. followed by mr lee's, and mr koh's talk.. two great talks actualli... mr koh as usual, his talk is always enjoyable and mr lee's always motivational.. like always.. haha! so ya.. it did motivate me la.. i need to realli do up a plan for the hols to study.. after chi o lvl, i am so gg to chiong... mrs neo talked to teng and myself today.. she told us we shld buck up for our english, don throw away all ur other subjects because of english.. yeah.. i am gg to do smth abt it.. i realli don wan to die under the hands of english... it is realli horrible for my future to be ruined because of english.. so ya.. the pingpong balls we used today, 5 were missing and mrs neo wans to collect 50cents per ball if no one returns.. ya.. and currently onli one got back.. which means i need to take out like 2 dollars from the class fund.. :( haha!

after which was chemistry.. had practical.. the two guys on my left were having a distilled water match and smth funny happened.. lol.. and weirong had to run.. it was realli bad.. haha! then we had to deal with alkali, acids.. super unlucky la both biondi and myself.. the beaker spout broke, and the alkali didn't pour out properly and it ended up on our hands... and soon, our hands started to turn red.. and the feeling was realli stingy.. painful.. now can still feel the pain.. so after washing our hands it was much better.. so note, don play with alkali.. wonder wat the concentration of the alkali was.. must be quite high? so ya.. that's abt it for chem.. then chinese... lol.. funny la.. mrs lee keeps ignoring aiyan... and aiyan got fed up.. then onli when aiyan got fed up, mrs lee turn to her.. then aiyan tried asking her smth but the moment she started talking, mrs lee turn away agn and talk to someone else.. LOL! aiyan's face was priceless.. haha! aiyan is just funny la.. :D so tmrw we are having a macdonald lunch? sponsored by mrs lee.. she's RICH la.. aiyan totalled price mrs lee needs to fork out for the lunch (>$186) and she said ok! LOL! that's super rich! two hundred dollars just fork out.. and she somemore say she poor.. so ya... so tmrw, macs meal.. cool.. :D

we had amath after chinese.. amath was ok.. i understand the concept but realli need to revise a lot.. i am weak in calculus must work hard.. so yea.. had chinese mock test after that and i was so tired.. ppl talking, very irritating.. but ok paper... then walked to bus stop with julia and aiyan and then went hm with brenda and mich.. know a lot of things.. *snigger* :D so that's abt it...

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we aren't like before.
we cant talk like before.
we cant look into each other's eyes like before.
we cant continue our conversations like before.

my friend asked me,
"is it confirmed?"
i replied,
"i am having doubts now,
although it is,"

so are we or are we not?
i agreed the first,
but denied the second.
soon, mr three came along.

we agreed in the end.
but is it going to be the same later?
i am having my doubts,
but i hope it is the prior.

i guess i am just sensitive,
or am i just right?
enlighten me,
for i am dying in this fight.
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2007-05-20T03:28:00.000-07:00

today was a boring day.. woke up early in the morning.. had breakfast went to cut hair.. looks kinda horrible.. ok.. just wish it grows back quickly.. :D so erm.. just got back from praying.. and yeah.. just that... the dog at the temple was fierce to my sis when she approached it and after which the dog started breathing heavily and nex thing i saw was the dog lying on the floor, unconscious.. hope it is ok now.. haha! so that's abt it la..

*edited- sorry dave!
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If we were a movie
You'd be the right guy
And I'd be the best friend
That you've fall in love with
In the end we'd be laughing
Watching the sunset
Fade to black
Show the names
Play the happy song
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how will u react if i quoted this song and sent it to u?

2007-05-19T03:18:00.000-07:00

i shld edit my previous post.. delete the hating part.. not worth wasting my feelings over her.. ppl don believe that i could actualli dislike her... i feel like a dummy now.. i get mocked by her and i cant freaking do anything abt it.. blame myself for hating you..

today was a good day basically... haniel smsed me in the morning assuming i was in sch too.. but nah. saturday leh.. unless got school work then i wld go to sch otherwise nope.. haha! so woke up at 10, watch tv till 11.. went out with mum and grandma to metro sale at expo.. realli cool since i bought lots of stuff.. clothes, bermudas, shoes... yeah.. not bad.. will be getting more from batam trip this coming june.. i got a pair of sandals and it looks darn cool la... maybe i would wear for my trip.. suit the whole exotic getaway? with a shopping centre beside it.. LOL! nex nex week is our chi o lvl.. very fast and i am doing my studying now. wat a late bloomer.. haha! wrong word i know.. ok.. that's abt wat happened today..

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i don know wat's gg on now.

i messaged you yesterday, the day before,

and you didn't reply.

i don understand why.

i wish your phone's keypad has broken down,

or you are just not replying because of your phone bill.

but a part of me think that you are just ignoring me.

which one is the exact situation?

give me an answer,

give me a clue,

either stop wat's gg on now,

or let it continue on.

i am being misled by you,

i am being misled by my feelings.

i wish i could stop this,

but i still believe in you and me.

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2007-05-18T07:28:00.000-07:00

today.. lol! started off with principal mr lee talking abt happy slapping.. mr juffri commented abt it to me after sch when i went in for dnt.. he said all these actions are started by the british.. i think americans but still it is the wrong behavior for educated ppl to act that way.. who in the right mind wld do such a thing? i find it realli unbelievable for students in singapore to actualli be culprits of such crimes.. so after a short intro to happy slapping and taopok.. ok.. still both are realli silly actions.. so after which we took back our health booklets and ya i am healthy.. so went back to class form teacher showed us our marks.. did realli badly.. deproved.. especially chemistry.. damn demoralising.. haiz... so L1R5 is 25 i guess.. shld be la.. stupid la!! i am so gg to do smth with english and geo elec.. overall 2A2s.. for dnt and emath.. emath is sort of lucky.. but hope to maintain.. need to secure as much As as possible.. now i am left with hopefulli chem, english, comb humans, chinese.. chinese B3.. haiz.. wasted.. going to chiong now.. as in after blogging.. must be serious liao.. after results.. SS.. oh shoot! i need to see mrs tan! OMG! i am so dead! my SBQ la.. haiz.. must do smth abt SS too.. most importantly english then humans, then chem.. so after marks... which was SS lesson, 3periods of math.. and it was basically doing corrections.. mrs tan gave us somehow a free period.. but she still wan us to finish corrections.. so ok.. i think i might have disappointed mrs tan.. :( maybe i did not but i do somehow feel gulity.. ok.. so after math was recess and then chinese.. watched i not stupid2 agn.. boring episode.. lame too.. so after that was english.. i forgot wat we did but i was talking to evonne and yin mei for the first period when mdm yeo asked us to do corrections.. LOL! basically one free period.. so ya.. three of us discussed abt the language of modern day ah-lians? LOL! those words like 'lorve', 'worz' yada yada.. they shld have a dictionary for this..ya.. after that was a grammar exercise.. my grammar sucks big time.. need to do a lot of work now.. partner? must help me k? so ya.. that was it for today and we had chinese mock paper which i slept during the first half.. was so tired.. but managed to have some time to check answers which i copied or wrote the wrong no. wrongly.. luckily got check..

lots of hmw to be handed up nex week.. dnt is sort of put into a standstill.. but i need to do up a sketch of the new part of my product.. anyway, after mock test went for dnt.. asked mr juffri whether i could do this design but helped him with the souvenir for the prefect investiture. i must say that they are realli disorganised and lack of time by the improvements they want to do on the product.. i helped for like 3hrs and ya.. jiahao was there so i wasn't alone.. haha! mr juffri and i talked abt the upcoming chinese o lvls, my results, and also one impt thing.. two ex-seniors came back to sch and went into dnt workshop.. there were two girls.. one will be A and the other B.. so A is a girl whom mr juffri had helped since the start of her project and B, his help onli came in at the end.. so both entered the room, i was there with 4 counsellors who came in late.. ok.. anyway.. so B went in and said hi to mr juffri and talked to mr juffri.. but A didn't.. after they left, mr juffri said, 'sometimes it doesn't pay to be helpful, u won't be appreciated,' and he told me abt the two girls.. and ya i feel that it is really ungrateful of A to be like that after all mr jurri did for her folio.. haiz.. so ya.. note to ppl, must be appreciative to ur teachers and to those whom have helped u.. so back to helping, the new sec 3 counsellor came in later and both of us started talking.. she wanted to give me a really cool CG toy.. but i said nvm la.. cause i thought she needed it for the ceremony.. ok.. i have major english probs.. haiz.. anyway.. so i didn't take it.. i soon went home with jiahao.. he waited in sch for i don know how long for a tablet.. LOL! so he finally got it and went home..

edited*

2007-05-17T06:32:00.000-07:00

today.. haiz.. kinda an ok day? smth happened in class and sort of affected me.. anyway don wanna talk abt it.. so erm.. ama, xiang didn't come today.. haiz.. xiang still have fever.. ama i don know.. results are bad la.. below my expectations.. mrs yeo told me i could get there but cldn't so ya.. she suggests study grps and also revision timetable.. so ya.. i will be doing it this week.. starting nex week.. JIAYOU!!!! ok.. results.. i think a very low L1R5.. as in.. high la.. ok.. watever.. haha! so erm.. i would give a range of 30 to 20 la.. that range which is realli realli bad liao..

read yq's blog, julia's and Lp's blog.. all commented on the showing us our results across the board.. and i must say.. it is indeed disturbing.. with classes walking by lookin at our results and stuff.. it is embarrassing but.. for me, maybe onli me... it is sort of a motivation to push me on and ya.. we shld see it this way.. for physics.. i realli don understand why we shld rejoice when we won E class by a margin.. ok.. fine we can rejoice for a moment, but we cant get complacent thinking that there's one other class below us and stuff.. we must do better than this and ya.. not onli beat E class but also D, A, and eventually B.. u think aiyah it isn't possible to win B class la.. compare with them for wat? but u never know till u try.. and by comparing with someone of lower standard than u, one will never improve.. onli with a better opponent, will u grow.. just as wat mr singh said i think.. ok.. anyway, ya.. we may have beaten E class.. so nex step D class, then A and finally B.. we can do that! we realli can.. have confidence in urself and ur answer.. reali everything is in your head.. understanding a concept is realli impt.. that's most probably the key to mastering the topic.. yes.. after many times of showing the results ya we do get sick though.. haiz.. but that's the way the teachers intend to motivate us.. the win over E class is also a good boost for all of us.. so ya.. C class can do physics! :D gonna do better!

next up.. lol.. i think i wld call him Dave.. don ask me who and why i call him that. just saw the name on my story book.. dave is a realli cute dude.. he's willing to do things most guys won't do for this girl and i realli respect him for that.. i must say that that girl is realli fortunate.. hope she says yes. :D he's my neighbour whom i have grown up with closely.. so don bother guessing anyone from sch... lol.. so ya.. all the best for him!

no offence to my classmates in the last thrid para.. but JIAYOU! NENG ZUO DAO DE!

2007-05-15T06:46:00.000-07:00

tues. worst day of my life.. i almost had depression.. luckily for two great friends who were there for me.. sarah and haniel.. haha... anyway.. got back results agn.. got back.. chem MCQ, EL compre and Emath P2... i am kinda surprised with my emath results.. i thought i screwed that paper but i scraped a decent B3.. phew.. haha... EL.. needless to say screwed the whole paper agn... i realli realli wanna give up.. but hopefulli i can improve during the hols.. most depressing results.. chem.. a stupid C5... way below my expectations... i really need to have a one-to-one talk with the chem paper and myself.. i need to direct my attention to the weakest topic and solve the prob.. my chem is gg downhill now.. haiz... sometimes when u console a friend, it is a form of love don get any form of reciprocation.. heard great news? lol! kinda good actualli highest for dnt 86.5 out of 100.. very good la.. possible winners? anyone.. haha! it is unexpected la.. wait till tmrw and we shall know.. hope i can get an A and then i shall be consoled.. went home today reading through my papers.. wondering where i have gone wrong.. and sickeningly most mistakes are careless.. haiz... WASTED! called my mum on the way home.. and then told her i did badly.. and she started asking is it because my studyin method wrong or not.. and told me to buck up for the nex papers.. so ya.. i cried after that.. i felt a sense of stress on myself.. from myself.. reached home changed into a comfortable shirt and went to the park to exercise.. just ran arnd the park... sat at the swing and just emo-ed and just thought abt a lot of stuff.. just wanna breathe... so carried running and went hm after 30mins...

reached home. ate mantou.. and ya.. nice.. and just slacked in front of tv watching drama serial and soon bro came home.. hate him.. find trouble immediately he come home.. just wanna watch tv also cannot..

i was there for you yesterday but are u there for me today? i think i am heading towards the wrong direction... maybe u are not the one.. maybe i am asking too much... maybe i am reading too much into it.. why must there be 'maybes'? maybe i am just finding excuses.. it is not the time now.. can i let go? i shall.. i realli hate this feeling...

2007-05-14T07:17:00.000-07:00

monday... haiz.. got back a lot of papers.. namely EL summary, Physics MCQ, Chem Section A & B, all chinese and amath P1... overall.. erm.. disappointing? english is confirm i-wanna-die-liao feeling.. i think i might just break down from the freaking poor el results.. the feeling of tearing the paper into half has occurred to me twice and it happened agn today.. it is sort of a feeling that u just wanna take the nightmare away from u.. ya.. so tearing the paper.. haha! i failed la obviously.. heard compre highest onli 19.5 lynette 4E so ya.. most will be arnd the 10+ range? me? fail agn i tell u... haiz.. compo i really have no confidence.. heard that the whole lvl disappointed the marker, ms puja.. haiz.. i am so screwed for EL la..

physics.. i don know whether it is good or not.. MCQ got 27? ya.. i think it is kinda bad liao.. haiz.. B3 i think.. hope the other sections can pull up the marks... have a bit of faith on this paper.. so ya.. hopefulli la.. Chem.. lecture was kinda stressing.. mr tan gg through the paper and u having the feeling of 'oh no! i think i do wrong liao!' and all that mixed feelings.. ya.. kinda disturbing.. haha! the last iron statue qn i was kinda surprised... got the answers rite and i rmb that time when i was abt to write the answer i asked myself why the question so vague so i wrote everything i know abt the process and heng the points are there.. phew.. haha! got 30 for tat section A and B did badly la.. 11.. sad.. haiz.. now MCQ left.. wonder how it can salvage my marks.. kinda depressing day for some friends.. haiz.. they were literally whinning the whole way home.. haha!! just listened to them and just tell them to chill and there's like other parts too so don worry too much yet.. i wonder how he is feeling now.. haiz... maybe i am just too sensitive... anyway... amath.. 52.. kinda sad too.. everyone getting 60plus and pro ms chow aiyan haha.. got 74.5.. power i must admit.. haha! chinese.. quite ok results.. can do better.. got 68.. okok? mr ziheng got 80 plus.. there's like extreme good and extreme poor ppl in my chinese class.. haha.. but i think overall average shld be quite ok i guess...

tmrw.. papers that i might get back.. lol.. erm.. section A and B for physics? hopefulli.. then.. eh.. english.. haiz. plus. chem MCQ and lastly emath or amath? emath P2 confirm die.. P1 hopefulli la.. chem MCQ i realli hope to do well.. at least a B bah...

so ya.. that;s abt the first day back to sch after a three days break... kinda used to the hols.. after chinese o lvl gg to chiong math.. weakest subject now other than EL.. i need help for EL too.. major help.. well great job to those who did well for exams and ya for o lvls, let's work harder! haha! ciao.. so tired.. haiz.. i just wan to be knocked out black when the sun sets without worries..

28may Chinese O levels P1 and P2..
9-10june Batam trip.. haha! fishing 'aka' shopping trip.. gg to get lots of things there la. cant wait actualli..
13june Electronics course.. cool course i hope?
17-19june Family chalet

2007-05-13T02:20:00.001-07:00

yesterday was a great day went to downtown east for the mayday carnival and my nephew's first birthday... had subway agn, subway melt, but it is in a wrap very very nice.. yum.. haha! met up with my mum's friends and won a lot of toys? actually onli three.. haha! plus one more from my mum's friend... so ya.. then they went for a bath while i wandered arnd the whole place to find entertainment.. was so boring la.. boring to the extent that i could sleep.. haha! then went for jackpot and i have no idea whether they won any money or not.. oh ya.. don bother playing the arcade games that u need to move the clutch to grab the toy when the clutches are those weak and feeble type.. saw this i think sec 2 or 1 guy.. realli arrogant and he lost a lot of money.. lol! he was showing off in front of his female classmates and his guy friends... and the clutch keep missing the toy and ya.. he got pissed off and shouted loudly.. all the vulgarities just came out.. i just stood there and like laughed at him? lol.. no la.. just find him silly...

after mt mum's jackpot game, went to my nephew's birthday party.. his name is jayden and his elder bro is brayden.. lol.. guess their sister's name will be megan? lol! sang birthday song and went to downtown's arcade to play with my same age cousin.. lol.. had great fun with the bball machine, nascar game and time crisis.. haha! went back to the chalet and my cousins playing mahjong.. watched the ghost show and soon left.. the two brothers jay- and bray- followed too.. held on the one hand of brayden and and my cousin, edel held the other so my nephew he thought both edel and i are a couple and pulled our hands together and then kissed it.. lol! my cousin and i just laughed at each other... jayden was exceptionally adorable.. lol.. i am crazy over my nephews.. jayden extinguished his candle with his hand.. just swiped it and gone.. and he didn't feel the pain until much later and there was wax on his hand.. but didn't cry.. pro... haha!

today mummy's day.. my god ma came and yeah i wished my mum and my god ma.. ate a lot of stuff? i am so going to gain weight la.. i am gg to skate later..

ever experience the feeling of missing that very shot and then regretting it all? i am so hating this experience now..it was as what i wanted now last year but it is different now.. i was the slow one.. but to think of it.. i am asking too much from you.. sorry for that treatment then.. haiz...

i don know how to put this across to u.. i think i am just not prepared yet... the irony...

2007-05-11T07:40:00.000-07:00

today was a great day!! haha! considering the fact that it rained in the morning, cancelling the jog-exercise outing with haniel.. LOL! 2hrs of pure jogging... ok la.. just too tired after a long long talk with yq and teng.. haha! i just realised smth.. but i must say it is a bad thing? and yq, i am worse.. haha! jiayou! and to teng and sx, sorry for being so direct.. just at the heat of the moment, i just asked.. lol! i think i might have scared you guys.. sorry! i know my eyes were filled with water cause of my yawns.. ya.. very tired.. haha! luckily today don need to wake up early and exercise.. LOL! haniel must be cursing now.. some other time k? i think i am gg to talk abt that thing to some close friends.. realli it is a bad thing la.. if it is so, how do i make myself known to that guy? ok.. fullstop..

woke up early in the morning at 10.30 which is not early.. went to the station and agreed to wait for ruiwen so ya.. met on the train and i caused her to run for the train so ya.. zhen bu hao yi si.. :D and i am realli realli slow.. haha! my cousin boarded the train too at the same cabin at the same time but i didn't see her and onli when i let her friend take the seat then i realised and she said i was slow.. LOL!! ok.. then we met with yap on the train too.. childish.. LOL!!!! both rw and i had the same idea so ya.. don even know whether u even come here.. :D met up with the guys and we left for the arcade.. guys were namely, yongjie, weihao, jiahao, weirong, teng, rw, yap, myself, biondi, mingjie i think that's all.. ya.. cant rmb. the whole arcade was dark.. :D after a while we left for the theatre and all of them were there.. total i think arnd 15 to 20 ppl? plus, yq, three PPG, terence tay and foo, zhiyi, shixiang, and somemore? lol! cant rmb.. just a lot of ppl.. spiderman 3 movie was touching.. cried during the ending.. for sandman.. goblin jr. a bit bah? haha! nice story but too much effects? the camera was shaking badly but story was great.. cast was better.. harry looks good when he smiles.. haha! sweet.. after movie, with pop corn on the floor and everyone going to toilet, the guys left for ecp.. went to get smth from my mum and went and bought lots of fastfood.. LOL!!! binging.. bought subway and long john silver.. my fav. is.. erm.. for fries, long john's and food, erm.. subway.. healthy la.. their sub-meal(?) are good. i am so gg to have one during family chalet.. yeah! haha! cant wait.. maybe tmrw? gg to escape tmrw.. for some carnival.. mayday carnival.. free entry to WWW and escape.. go win their toys.. haha... wu liao rite? nephew's birthday tmrw.. sun cousins coming.. haha! great! monday, results.. fast? ok.. i cant wait for it too?

tasks to fulfil:
1. prepare myself for the upcoming D&T requirements..
2. help haniel with blog
3. talk to sarah
4. get back my bear
5. know more between us
6. complete jog with haniel
7. get on with my life.. LOL!
8. watch harry potter OOP
9. POC III
10. SIMPSONS MOVIE. will be one hella lame show.. haha! cant wait!
11. wild hogs? kinda too late
12. family chalet!! haha! will be a different one this year.. :D

that's all.. and ya.. thanks for letting me know yq! :D
ppl go hear girls aloud: i'll stand by you.. maybe u guys have heard of it.. LOL!

2007-05-06T07:36:00.000-07:00

my lips are so torn now.. ARH!! it realli hurts.. haiz.. haven finish studying and i am here blogging.. i gotta get out.. haha!

2007-05-04T05:34:00.000-07:00

back after one jam packed week.. jam packed with tests of course.. we've finally finished all humans, pure chem and all languages! and half of each math which is super super good.. the tests are like hard la... haiz.. today's emath was a killer.. i did qn 3 and spent like 30 mins on it? and eventually didn;t write anything.. that pathethic.. haha! then i just flipped the page and realise i have no mood to do any more.. realli realli sian.. and suay suay, RUNNY NOSE! haha! sinus rite? lol.. must be because of this morning.. grandma on the fan claiming that my room is very stuffy when it is super cold.. and then, here i am now, attacked with flu.. why oh why.. haha! chem was ok.. MCQ did it very carefully.. no room for mistakes.. but some questions i have doubts.. like realli tikam tikam.. haha! but onli for two to three questions.. the others realli focused on solving.. 1hr then passed by..

paper 2.. haiz. i was so sick la.. now my nose is like red.. so i placed my head on my arm and continued writing... then mr tan walked passed me and looked at me.. lol.. i am in deep trouble.. haha! so i just continued writing.. i was realli awake and writing.. cldn't sleep anyway.. haha! then i 'woke' up and like speed through the paper like crazy.. still not enough time for some questions.. lost 14 marks.. and counting.. haiz... sad... nex paper physics.. hope to do well! :D nex week is kinda a slow week which is better.. phew.. haha! with onli physics on monday, no test on tues, amath on wed and emath plus dnt on thurs.. it is kinda fast.. :D cant wait for thurs!!! watch spidey! yeah!!! cant wait la!!! haha!

went out with yong jie and yap after sch... went to get glow-in-the-dark guitar picks.. thanks rod for the good recommendation! haha! 50cent for one pick.. and yongjie bought me two. haha! gg to learn from him.. :P after which went to the hawker centre to eat curry rice.. yap recommended.. was so full after that.. cldn't finish.. ya.. then yongjie left and we went to PP walked arnd.. bought beans... nice broad beans.. :D and yeah.. went to his tuition centre.. 7th storey.. super high.. haha! now just wanna sleep.. so tired!!! :( good luck to all for the last week!! NOTE! LAST WEEK! haha! thurs watch spidey... yeah! how cool will that be!?!? :-P cant wait!

P.S. HAPPY BIRTHDAY to my COUSINS, vanessa and natsha and also haniel's sis... LOL! ok.. yeah... yesterday was myeong wen and wei hao aka ah hao's birthday! so ya.. then sit just beside each other in the hall.. as in beside natasha.. haha! ~ciao...

so in love with songs of bon jovi! idol rocked this week! this ain't a love song by lakisha is great, blake's version is superb and bonjovi's new song making the memories are super super nice.. good check them out!

2007-04-29T22:13:00.000-07:00

back for a short short while before hitting the books again.. anyway, today's chinese was ok.. do-able.. must be the onli chinese paper 1 i've ever put a lot of effort in since sec 1.. haha! sad huh? lol! anyway, bumped into this and just wanted to post it.. LOL! cant wait!! oh ya.. they even have an IMAX poster for it.. so does that mean there's gg to be an IMAX screening of the show????? OMG! that wld be so cool.. yet so far from the east.. lol!!

2007-04-27T07:22:00.000-07:00

today's the start of MYE... english paper was hard.. the compo.. i think i totally wrote out of point.. for compre have a little confidence if i managed to apply the skills learnt properly... SPA... both sciences were ok... now watching spider man 2 on AXN and whoa.. it is so cool... cant wait for the thrid instalment.. :D haiz.. cant wait for MYE to be over!!!! ARH!! why!! haha!! ok.. i am like breaking down on the first day of the exams... good luck to everyone again.. i don know wat to talk abt now.. haiz...

2007-04-25T08:38:00.000-07:00

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everything's looking good for both of us
and we are talking again...

however, i am falling for another person,
whom i fell for before...

i don know wat to do,
and i don know wat to say.

i onli know that he looks adorable,
and i must resists the temptation to look into his eyes...

i've nvr experienced it before.
but i think u wld find it obvious that i cant look into ur eyes when we talk

and then u wld know it is u i am refering to..
why of all times now... haiz....
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note to self and readers.. lol! i am not gg to post from today till the end of MYEs... unless i come on under different circumstances.. yeah.. anyway, my mum, under personal instructions, is responsible in confiscating my com.. so ya.. i am proud of myself but i end up blogging now.. it was confiscated since yesterday.. but well.. mum wanted to use but didn;t know how to use it so here i am.. she's watching tv now... cant wait for the end of MYE!! :D i love the english enrichment course!! haha! mrs benjamin is just a great lady and teacher.. i will never get bored in her lessons.. haha!

to everyone in tk, good luck for MYEs!!!! it is stressful but it is certainly a good benchmark for our Os...

my dislike for her is getting deeper... <:-<

2007-04-22T07:13:00.000-07:00

BIG F.Y.I TO YOU!

you don know wat actualli happened so just keep ur mouth to yourself! u r responsible for stirring up and causing this problem and you can still go arnd insulting others.. wat's the problem with you!?!? OMG! i am realli appalled by ur actions.. our class ain't like you, so wat if we are facing no.1 in the whole world? so wat if we know we r gg to have our butts kicked? as long as we did our best who cares abt the result? so wat's exactly ur prob?!?!? i am so pissed off now.. ARHZ!!!!! PLAIN NONSENSE! we aren't ppl like you who wld give up the moment u think u don stand a chance! we have a choice and we have chosen to do our best not like u, to give up..

no offence to you, but this doesn't even concern you... PFT! so stop ur unneccessary actions.. u r just creating trouble...

2007-04-22T06:15:00.000-07:00

here to post that i finally got my guitar!! LOL! and it is 4 days to MYE! the irony! shall make this short.. need to do hmw.. sian!

2007-04-21T02:40:00.000-07:00

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finally everything has come to an end
and i am pleased that it is so.
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i have my reservations for you,
yet i still wish you the best.
i don wanna lose a friend like you,
and i hope everything will come to a rest.

when i need to talk to someone,
the first person i think of is u.
but it is different from before,
and it will be the same in the future too.

i cant bring myself to communicate with you no more,
and even if i tried,
either of us will just can mad with the other,
before we could say the word ''bye''.

i cant take this no more,
and i want it to end.
could everything return to normal,
can we still be friends?
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i am so stress now... haha! ok.. relaxing now though... i am pleased with the test today... studied the right thing even though i slept throughout the whole revision part.. ask fafa and she knows.. ask me and i know better.. haha! was smsing today in chem... chem was boring.. was busy irritating sarah agn.. and she got fed up that i got scared.. haha! later she angry with me.. bad news if that happens.. :( there's a lot of hmw this week!!!! AH!!! math.. both math.. then.. DNT! WHY!?!?! plus chem too... :( this is so sad.. don even have the time to revise for mid years... i am so scared.. ok.. i need to start my hmw before my mum comes home.. cant wait though.. :D

2007-04-20T08:20:00.000-07:00

today's a super tiring day.. screwed up my oral but just for haniel soh, not as worse as mr soh... he totally screwed his.. lol.. ok.. not funny... oral was totally screwed la.... shift one's convo qn is easy... but when u take some time now to think abt the question, it is not that difficult.. ARH!! i am so fed up la.. and i was sleeping while waiting for my turn to come.. i was that tired... our question was abt teenagers gg online and searched on how to make bombs and hence made them and use them in singapore... read smth abt this before.. i think it happened in the western or southern part of singapore.. some field.. i think it is woodlands or smth.. but i didn't include that and my points were very confusing.. i lost my ability to speak in chinese properly and the oral was just a horrible nightmare la!! ms low seemed to have given me a mark before i started talking.. haha! in conclusion, screwed everything up... managed to say the points but everything was everywhere.. she even commented abt it... :( and ms low told me to conclude that internet is dangerous and how to solve it like planet crush and smth... i do listen to her.. :D haha! was depressed after that la.. everyone was la... bad experience... and ya haniel, urs worse than mine.. :D happy? haha!

tmrw's SS test and chem supplementary after that... i hate saturdays.. wat for saturdays when there's sch every week? why must everything be on saturdays!?!?!!? ruin my day la.. pft..

smth happened in class and it was realli serious... just hope that he will go see the doctor tmrw.. haiz.. everyone's getting sick now.. pls like take care of urself la!

smth that happened a few days ago has finally subsided... yes... sleepless nights might be due to this matter... :( don know why but this few days very very tired... tmrw somemore must wake up so early.. things will be better tmrw.. :)

mum's coming back from philippines tmrw!!! :D with a wet, spoilt handphone and hopefulli a guitar!! haha! i am such a materialistic girl... lol! i wonder how water went into my mum's phone anyway.. toilet bowl? boat ride? bath? rain? cup? weird..

tmrw will also be a long day.. SS mock exams tmrw.. after that, chem supplementary and then going to airport for my mum.. time for hmw?? mins? 2 hrs? haha! time to study? i don know! i am afraid.. chinese o lvls in one more month, mid years nex week, prelims- less than 5 months.. o lvls, less than 6 months? i think.. i don know...

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i am so tired now that i wanna shut my eyes and get away from this stressful world...
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good luck to all for tmrw test and also for midyears.. :D
need to chiong for ss now...

2007-04-19T09:31:00.000-07:00

things have progressed to the extent i don wanna think abt it... it has been under the sea bed for a week and now it is stirred up to the surface and now including myself, 4 people are affected by it... can we just compromise, take a step back and forget abt it?
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it all started with different perspective from different ppl
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i realli hope that we all cld just compromise.. i don wanna face this anymore.. the last time this happened, my family is in a wreck now.. pls... just take it easy guys...

2007-04-19T04:07:00.000-07:00

today's a... erm... disturbing day.. something happened in class today and i don wanna talk it anymore... it has been stirred up today after one week and i don wanna carry on with the problem.. hope everything's ok now.. and another disturbing thing is that ms SARAH THOMAS didn't come to sch today!!!! omg.. i totally miss irritating her.. haha!!! warning.. sarah thomas said 'someone needs a slap and it ain't me' twice and guess who she meant.. haha!! ok.. she's very nice to irritate but often we get distracted.. so i shld stop my silly actions now.. :D promise... try very hard to.. when i keep quiet she will think i am being emo and stuff.. lol.. ok.. bind me up or tape my mouth.. just so i don irritate both of us... i totally miss sarah.. :(

i am ok with him now but there's a difference when i talk to him in the past and now.. i cant describe it but it is restricting me..

anyway, just ran arnd the park twice and whoa.. i must say i am proud of myself.. :D must prepare myself for smth.. haha! cant wait?

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i didn't want this to happen but it did,
i wanted to put a stop to it but i couldn't.
sorry...
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learn to forgive and forget... :D

oh ya.. welcome back natasha and pon to sch? LOL! one day without them seemed to be different la.. the class ain't whole.. including the choir peeps.. :D

2007-04-18T06:53:00.000-07:00

just talked to my grandma and it got me mad when i told her abt my stuff...

one, to this person.. when i said it is enough it is enough... when i say i will get mad, i don care how much u smile at me, give me an innocent look, or stupid puppy look, i am realli mad.. and when i scold i really scold.. u and ur bf maybe big shots, but hey i don care.. i don care even if u r the president's daughter.. if u don show respect, don expect me to treat u with it.. u r just stuck up.. i know that u are competing with me in everything but hey guess wat? i don bother abt u.. go ahead and compete for all i care.. there's always a mountain higher... u r always badmouthing abt her but know wat? u r no better.. at least she knows her limits unlike u.. grow up... that's one point that i prefer abt her than to u.. u think ur bf is all that and excepts everyone to treat him as royalty.. but hey! we aren't u..

two, to this other person, i understand ur pediacrement and honestly i have a part to play to how u r now... and truthfully i am sorry... there's some things that ppl tend to see differently and i hope that all of us involved cld compromise.. the purpose of the game was to have fun but we are affected by competitveness.. and that's most probably the reason why we are in this plight now.. i am affected by the competitiveness too.. and hence... led to this.. can i help in anyway? and i am sorry...

three, smth that happened to my friend... as i told u, i have personal limitations with ppl like u.. do blame me if this limitations are causing problems.. hope u forgive me... we need to talk though...

four, thanks to this particular someone to hear me out abt the things that happened just recently... and i think u know wat a person i am...

there's a lot in my mind.. and i don know who to talk to... my grandma will be interrupting me halfway, mum's out in philippines.. his status has changed and he's her good friend.. life's unfair? haha... i think so... i hate being middleman...

to a new friend, thanks for ur advice today and he wasn't angry with u.. :D all the best for midyear! let's break the failing record of comb humans.. haha!

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gratz to choir for getting gold with honours and band silver!! everyone's a winner when u have fun don critizise anyone for wateva reason.. they did their best and the sch is proud no matter wat... some ppl just love to critizise...
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i have experienced this twice
and each time, my heart breaks.

for wat reason?
namely, losing a friend...

i hate this but i cant fight this feeling...
help? i think i ran into big trouble again
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it is a wonder that u write a lot abt the person u dislike and so little for the ppl u love... why? haha....

2007-04-16T04:54:00.000-07:00

i remember the days when there were 3 of us,
but now there's none.

one of whom i had a crush on,
the other, a good friend.
and you, my best friend.

we had fun together
but it all changed
i plotted against you,
all in the name of greed.

and now, today, i saw you on the bus,
Reminiscing wat i had i done before,
and it hit me.

how immature i was, how dumb i was.
and today i didn't acknowledge you.
i didn't have the right to...
sorry..

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today's an okay day... started off with tkh coming to our class.. don wanna talk abt it.. it does make sense anyway... nex was 2.4km run.. i am rather pleased with myself for running non-stop for 6 laps and i thought it was impossible.. but still my timing's slow.. haha! was practically walking i think? haha! from the run i sort of learnt smth.. don wanna talk abt it too.. grad nite will be fun as a lot of ppl are gg.. currently, onli diniy, sohail and paula haven pay but they r gg.. ppl not gg are onli 3... rod, wr and chris.. so ya... all girls gg!! haha! that will be fun!

10 more days to MYE and i seriously think i am slacking... i have too much in my mind.. studies will definitely divert my attention away.. i have major problems... MAJOR! regarding everything.. i need to talk but to who? i don know..

congrats to a friend on smth but hey balance ur life k? haha!

mum's at philippines now... yeah.. lol.. she's getting me a guitar from there which i heard from my cousin's philipino maid that the best brand is super cheap.. haha! cant wait.. i might just break the thing... lol.. ok.. must pay attention to studies liao.. time is flying by realli quickly.. don bother throwing the clock out the window.. it ain't as fast.. lame.

no more movies, gg out, hanging out with him.. i shall live by it.. it is my own restrictions... this is smth new, but it is my restriction when being friends with someone who's attached.. :] good luck friend.. i don deserve to be in ur list but if u need to talk, i am here for u..

i hope to be ur first and ur last.. when will you come?

the most respected industrial designer and mentor

2007-04-05T08:39:00.000-07:00

thanks rod for the onli pic we have of mr jackson :) i am crying, while typing this post and i am sure many of us will feel the same sorrow..

i've made an exception to blog today abt my most respected industrial designer and mentor- mr jackson kong.. i rmb the first day we met him, we greeted him as mr kong but he said, "just call me jackson.. " he was very friendly and warm to everyone of us. and likewise we love him so. but just yesterday, he was taken away to a much better place, somewhere far and tranquil and to mr jackson, rest in peace. you will be missed.

4 of us went to his wake right after amath lecture and it was a coincidence. he stays at the same block as where my ah ma is staying... so close yet so far.. pon cldn't join us but hey the sincerity counts.. he knows... during the bus trip, we discussed how are we gg to react when we see him, in his coffin? how are we going to face it... and the answer that came to all of us was i don know.. we cldn't accept the reality that someone of age 32 wld die just like that.. and he was in sch yesterday too... we were all very nervous went we reached the venue, mr jackson's goddaughter was standing beside him crying.. his relatives greeted us with their bloodshot eyes and it made me cry inside... we took a look at him and what we saw was a cold, dry mr jackson... and that hit us.. telling us he's dead... a rush of emotions just come to you.. do u cry with the family? or do u stay strong?

we stayed strong.. eventually we went back to the table.. reflecting abt this incident... mr jackson's friends, i assume, came later and they went to his coffin and when they return, they were crying.. i mean male adults crying and this is wat i call real tears.. as the saying goes, man shed blood not tears.. do i agree to that? i don know for sure.. but looking at two grown men crying, it shows a lot.. it shows how much they love this person and hence cry the teardrops of love.. and that i respect most..

to mr jackson's family, our condolences, and to mr jackson rest in peace...

moral of this: treasure the ppl arnd you.. death is unpredictable.. don regret for your whole life..

2007-02-16T07:09:00.000-08:00

you are such a manipulator and a spoilt person... i made a mistake knowing you...

2007-02-16T06:58:00.000-08:00

er... today was realli boring... the cny celebration was like usual boring.... anyway.. the sch announced to all sec 4 the venue for our grad nite and the price etc etc.. we can decide the theme ourselves and er ya.. smth like that.. i believe it will be a great event.. haha! didn't join the 4c girls and rod to taka to makan instead went to bugis with jingmei and mich and brenda... it is sort of a good thing cause halfway, my mum called me and told me my dad got admitted to the hospital.. so i had to leave halfway... ya... got hm and played sims 2.. haha! went to the hospital at 7 and onli go back at 11... very long.. but managed to finish chem.. LOL!

2007-02-15T05:01:00.000-08:00

WED---- VALENTINE'S DAY!!

thanks to all those who gave gifts on this special day!! namely er.. sihui and vanhui for the cookies, Rod for merci, Jingmei, Mich, Brenda, haniel for the nicely wrapped presents.. then er.. rachel for the sweets.. terrence tay for the M&Ms Shixiang for the dove chocolate, Terrence foo for the biscuits, jun liang for the sweets.. er.. lenny for wang wang and sweets, limpon for the card and chocolates... thanks a lot to all those who gave! er.. nth much happened that day... just that the dustbins were filled with sweet wrappers in every class and there's a new teacher staff who is realli unfriendly...

thurday.. sort of the worst day my life.... except for some time during this day..

earlier morning on the way to sch.. dad's hand went numb and couldn't button his shirt and cant change the gear properly... he has high blood pressure and might get a stroke and with numbness it means a lot... i was realli afraid.. my bro was sitting behind slping smsing ppl and busy drying his wet hair.. don even know and care wat is happening in front.. i tried to massage my dad's arm but to no help.. his hand was still numb.. the song of 90.5 fm played a love song and the song actualli moved me to tears when i looked at my dad.. he looked so much older and weaker now.. at that moment i wanted to cry but couldn't. i didn't wan him to worry.. as i got off the taxi i saw my dad using his numb-ed hand to change gear but he had to try so hard to change it and i had to turn away as he drove away.. i looked at the back of the taxi with tears welling in my eyes.. throughout assembly i wanted to cry but couldn't in front of so many ppl.. went back to class and cried quietly behind.. managed to divert my attention away from this but ended up crying agn after reading the passage abt the mum giving her eyes to her ungrateful son..

went for EL after that with the same concern in my mind.. i 'indulged' myself with the work in front of me to take my focus away from this and it did helped.. with the common jokes from my table, i cheered up.. went back to class with xuan sitting beside me and she too made all sort of jokes to cheer me up.. realli glad to have friends like that... after school went home immediately talking to brenda abt this and she was there for me too.. reached home talked to tenghui and he helped me find out more abt stroke and i realli appreciate it.. he's realli a true friend.. i was lost and now i am tearing.. for once in my life my tears just came down like a tap that has been turned on and the water was flowing.. i wonder when this will stop and when will it be activated agn... i am realli scared... the tears feel cold as they roll down my cheeks and onto my white shirt.. i cant go down, i cant go down and face my family, i cant go down to face my family and show them how worried i am.. i cant go down and face my family and show them how worried i am and make them feel worst.. i am scared..

i realli appreciate it tenghui.. u r the onli one who cared... :)

2007-02-13T05:10:00.000-08:00

back from a long long break away from blogging..shall start from last friday when the sec4 batch last yr received their O lvls results.. all in all, they did extremely well.. with the average L1R5 of 12 pts which is good le.. and the marks they scored are like not withn my reach yet,, hopefulli miracles can happen for o lvls.. LOL! so after taking results, everyone were motivated to work hard.. and it does work with us witnessing the joy the seniors experience when they got back their results.. i will not know wat to do if i do well and not do well.. do my very best and get my As... yes.. my aim.. chinese.. arh! i don know how to get A.. chinese detoriating since this yr... sad...

sat was the day we have to wake up early for our geo elec remedial.... the lesson starts at 7.30 like sch hrs... which is realli early then the dnt guys and i went to PP hawker centre there to makan.. and we started talking abt prom night and stuff.. had to leave halfway to meet my mum and visit some elders in a home to celebrate for new year.. the whole thing was meaningful yet disorganised.. didn't do much there.. didn't dare to.. haha! after community work.. we went to this bowling alley across the the concourse and played 4 games.. the uncles and aunties are super pro and they keep getting like above 100 while i get like 70 onli.. sad.. was so presurized in the fourth game and deprove till 50 smth.. one uncle was like ur mum's improving but u are deterioting.. so sad la.. haha! then had to leave halfway to buy cny stuff... the bowling there is relatively cheap.. it is a new place with the shoes still new and bowlin balls untouched.. one game cost 1.50! and the shoes are 1.20.. it is super cheap la... but it is far too... they have pool too and arcade.. all together.. :P small place but have everything.. it is at textile centre near the concourse.. 8th lvl.. onli shop there.. go visit sometime! after the bowling went to johnlittle to buy cny clothes.. and then er. my mum and i went to toa payoh to meet up with my dad to bring us home like.. eh.. ya.. and bought some gifts for valentines too... tmrw valentines and i am so neutral to it.. LOL! too stressed with dnt...

sunday... surprise surprise and nth happened..

monday.. day went haywired! don wanna talk abt it.. had to study for tuesday's SS test but got busy with a convo with biondi abt the test and pon asking abt amath.. cant study but wateva la.. today got ppl still cheat... sian.. wat people do i have as classmates? blah....

tuesday.. today.. fencing is super tiring and i collected a lot of beads from the floor after their jewelery making and made out a ordinary thingy... just put the beads together.. nex lesson for fencing we are gg to use the flor and wat u go that.. the sword for fencing.. realli cool.. and honestly too much footwork.. now gtg and do dnt before the scolding tmrw.. i don know wat to do anyway.. haha! tmrw wait for scolding...

happy valentines' day everyone!

2007-02-06T02:51:00.000-08:00

today's the start of choices and all because of yesterday's fall, cant participate.. :( xuan brought her totally cool skates for her inline skating and a few others too like zhiyi and michelle aw... pro skaters... haha! fencing was not bad the instructors were very friendly and although natasha and i couldn't join in, we did have fun looking at the others warming up and etc etc.. it was kinda funny but nex tues will be their turn to laugh at me.. LOL! choices for everyone was great and obviously they did have fun.. cooking students made potato soup, jewellery making students made a hp key chain i think.. skating- more tricks.. fencing- basic steps of forward and back.. dance.. a 3-count dance which is realli cool.. magic students learnt how to MANIPULATE with ropes.. haha.. dnt... sad.. haven do work yet.. tmrw die... i think that's all bah... the moment we got back into class, a few ppl went for recess while the others shared their new skills... realli cool...

after recess was EL was kinda boring with mdm yeo demoralising us... i was realli sick of her at that moment but after doing work it was quite ok.. sian... chinese is boring english too.. i am so gonna fail my el and chi.. i am hating this.. :(((((

like wat haniel and i believe most christians wld say, forgive and forget... trying to accomplish that... i am super tired... Zzzzz!!!

2007-02-04T05:58:00.000-08:00

yesterday was great... we had family day in the morning like 7.30am.. which is realli a weird time for us students to actualli run.. we were supposed to be snoring at home!! anyway, mr lee was great.. he actualli joined us in the run with a few other teachers... i started out with xiang and heather but joined kendra and wangmin.. but then ran forward to brenda and forward agn to michelle tay.. LOL! oh ya.. abt my new haircut.. i admit it is short but at least it is better than my previous one which is realli realli horrible... worse than now... anyway, came to sch first ppl to see it were aiyan and xinghui.. they too much sia... saw me then started screaming.. like realli loudly... LOL! i am ok with it la.. haha!! then nex biggest reaction was from ys.. he was like "OMG! OMG!' then started screaming too.. -_-''' i just ran ahead of him ignoring him.. reached the finish line alone and waited for the guys to come back.. and there was the relay thingy which is quite ok la.. the food selling yesterday were realli good!! especially the curry!! the float was great too but i was a little too late and the ice cream had alreadi melted...

the bags that a few of us left in the asssembly plaza before the run were all shifted to i-don-know-where and all of us were like headless chickens, running arnd looking for the bags.. :( no offence.. then at last we found the bags at the PE storerm... haiz.. got two great ppl with me who helped me in the search.. presenting.... tenghui and ys.. ya.. they were like running arnd too.. haha!! so after that i joined brenda and jing mei and we discussed abt the movie to watch after the walk... honestly i am afraid of horror movies.. jingmei was like laughing at me throughout the movie.. funny sia... haha!!

we watched a THAI HORROR movie... this is twice the horror... it is called unseeable.. it is a great movie... the effects are great and i cant tell u anymore but just say that it is a great movie... we were the onli ppl the movie and that's THREE times the horror! no one arnd u and u nvr know who will appear from beside you and stuff.. my first horror movie experience and it has started like this.. haha!! too much for me to handle la... the movie haven start, my eyes were alrdy halfway covered... and my ears, plugged with my earphones... that's how scared i was.... the movies are made scary onli by the stupid music... good example is when i was choosing the nachos to eat and the music started to shriek to a very very eerie pitch... i don know whether i am construting the sentence correctly.. anyway. i was not looking at the screen but the music actualli caused me to scream realli realli loudly.. LOL!!!! then i covered my eyes and stuffed my ears.. bad experience but it is a nice story.. realli nice story.. go watch!!

after the movie my mum came to marina and joined me to buy cny clothes... we walked arnd and there's wasn't anything that appealled to me.. lol!! ok.. wrong word.. anyway, continue.. we walked into body shop and bought a lot of stuff which actualli my mum listened to the sales lady and bought up to 80- dollars.. i don believe it la.. then we went to suntec and we bought clothes from er... i think is giordano.. ya.. got myself two pants and my mum a blouse.. then we continued shopping and bought shirt for my dad and then we went to carrefour... got myself a RC car and it is super cheap and good!! 6.90 for one huge car... i am happy girl.. LOL! intend to paint it after exams and stuff... it has a 40mph spd which is fast i think... walked to the VCDs section and bought world trade center vcd.. i think it will be a sad sad story..

now i gtg and start studying for tmrw's test... tmrw will be a long long day... joy... :( haha!

i am confused and tired... enlighten me soon with your feelings... :)

2007-02-01T06:46:00.000-08:00

back from a long long break from blogging... don feel like blogging nowadays... :( new teachers are great.... they have been great tutors for us all but still unsecured... haven been looking through last year notes and this year the different departments are giving us a lot of tests to let us recap our sec 3 topics and i am actualli grateful for that.. but don make it too often.. it gets sickening when there's too much tests one week... great example is wk 6, nex wk... mon-physics test, tues- geo elec test, wed-EL situational writing test, thurs-amath + d&t test, friday- amath test... haiz.. this week most probably left free to let us study for the following week..

dnt has been stressful for all of as we had to start our manufacturing by this feb and the end of this month.. cant rmb... LOL! and ms seah is pushing us to meet to this deadline.. i am just too lazy to do that la... model undone, prob situation halfway done, mindmap-spelled manipulation wrongly.. sad truth.. :( got all my ideas alrdy but don want to write it on paper.. just too lazy...

many things happened this week and it is somehow depressing yet surprising... the most surprising thing is that my friend has changed so much and is rather cool now.. LOL! and ya.. cant put everything here.. :P eh... bad thing that happened.. er.. don wan to type it here..

class haven decided on class tee.. but we wld be gg for XX & fafa design which is on the board now.. it is the back onli.. the front i am not sure... but it wld be nice nevertheless... this sat road run or the call it family day... 3km is reasonable unlike last year.. LOL! intend to go to bugis after the event to buy CNY clothes!! i am so happy to buy clothes.. haha!! want to get something new and most importantly lose weight... haha! must create space for CNY dinner!! and hopefulli can play mahjong.. once in a yr play ok bah?? mahjong is a nice game.. thinking games are great.. eg, sudoku and spider solitaire.. don play sudoku often instead spider solitaire is a must for me everyday..

hope that the daily routine after school wld vary and not be filled with tests... also, got back choices and got into skating but switched with nikki so fencing.. great... my first choice! :) hope it wld be cool... now so tired.. got ss to do which can be ne it a few mins cause we have to pick out points.. so ya.. my class has too much mrs tan-s for who-knows-why.. LOL! oh ya.. badminton was kinda fun this wk as mrs chee plus ms karen and a few other teachers came to play badminton... one word to describe their match- violent... it was super violent with two guys at each end.. it was as though the shuttlecock was a fly and had to smack it to let it fly to the other corner so that it can die.. yes.. the match was that rough.. haha!!

need to ask this!! is there gg to be any games carnival for sec 4?? hopefulli there is and we can win the champion agn! 4c all the way!! love my class.. <3

are u jealous? if yes, pls tell me so... "no link, no link"

MISSING BELOVED TEACHERS N STUFF FROM TK

2006-12-21T07:59:00.000-08:00

LOL... making a big title for this... actualli from amirul's blog he wrote that teachers like mr tchen are leaving the sch and it is seriously a huge loss.. OMG LA... anyway check the sch web and see the list of staff left there.. and i think u wld notice some teachers like Mr Tchen is not in that page... wat does it mean???

anyway here's the info. for management staff.. they have alreadi excluded mrs P chan from the web no surprise.. cause she has alreadi left us for the huge promo.. and.. who else.. mrs wang is also gone from sch staff.. mrs huang (A & B class math cher) is gone too?? weird... ms goh also missing... wat's wrong?!?!? hopefulli it is just that their photos ain't developed yet and they r still in staying to teach us.. go check it out ppl... http://www.tanjongkatongsec.moe.edu.sg/people_staff.html

books to recommend... LOL

2006-12-21T06:48:00.000-08:00

i just finish reading this book i borrowzed from the library the other day.. the title is WHITE IS FOR MAGIC by Laurie Faria Stolarz.. it is the second book of a series of four books.. basicaly it is abt this girl Stacey whom can predict the future and the future is usually someone's death and she tries to prevent it but didn't succeed in two encounters.. and this two dead people are 'haunting' her in her dreams to warn her abt wat's gg to happen to somebody but little did she know that the person who's in danger is herself. she was informed by another wizard who has been dreaming abt her accident and ya boy girl meets and they fall in love.. haha! romance is a plus for any book... :D haha!! highly recommended... now just wish to be able to find the other 3 books and finish this whole series.. honestly while reading this book i got kinda freak out with all the spooky details from stacey's nightmare.. haha!! paranoid la me... :P but it was late at night like 2am?? LOL ok.. here are the pics of the book..go read ppl!! pasir ris has two books from wat i know...

First Book: BLUE IS FOR NIGHTMARES

Second Book: WHITE IS FOR MAGIC

Thrid Book: SILVER IS FOR SECRETS

Fourth Book: RED IS FOR REMEMBRANCE

2006-12-20T01:50:00.000-08:00

5 more days to x'mas and also amirul's b'dae.. haha! well this song is specifically for today and ya.. 5days and counting.. LOL.. and ya mich tay returning that day too from taiwan..

By The Cheetah Girls- Five More Days Till Christmas... i am in a xmas mood.. haha.. very hungry now.. :'( and also another song by the same girls... it is.. I won't say i'm in love

Verse 1:]
There's only five more days 'til christmas
You know that I can hardly wait
We got the lights up on the tree now
And we're ready for the holiday

[Verse 2:]
The radio's playing all the christmas songs
Just the way that we like
There's only five more days
And I can't wait
It's almost christmas time

[Chorus:]
There's 5, 4, 3, 2, 1 more days
All around the world
You know there's 5, 4, 3, 2, 1 more days
For every boy and girl

[Verse 3:]
Five more nights for Santa
To get ready for Christmas Eve
And you tell me that you got me something
But I'm gonna have to wait and see

[Verse 4:]
Everybody get a little closer now
You know we're gonna do it right
There's only five more days and I can't wait
It's almost christmas time

[Chorus:]
There's 5, 4, 3, 2, 1 more days
All around the world
You know there's 5, 4, 3, 2, 1 more days
For every boy and girl

[Bridge:]
Everybody ready for their favorite holiday
All around, counting down
You know there's only five more days

[Verse 5:]
The radio's playing all the christmas songs
Just the way that we like
There's only one more week and I can't wait
It's almost christmas time

[Chorus:]
There's 5, 4, 3, 2, 1 more days
All around the world
You know there's 5, 4, 3, 2, 1 more days
For every boy and girl

There's five more days, five more days
Been waiting so long for this
Then four more days, four more days
Gonna get my christmas wish
Now it's three more days, three more days'til the best time of the year
Everybody say, two more days, one more day
And now Christmas is finally here

I've been waiting for a long, long time
And chirstmas is finally here

I Won't Say (I'm In Love)"
If there's a prize for rotten judgement,
I guess I've already won that
No man is worth the agrivation
That's ancient history,
Been thereDone that

Who'd ya think you're kidding?
He's the earth and heaven to ya
Try to keep it hidden, honey we can see right through ya
Girl ya can't conceal it
We know how you're feelin',
who you're thinking of

No chance, no way, I won't say it, no no
You swoon, you sighWhy deny it, uh oh
It's too...cliché
I won't say I'm in love(Oooooh ooooh oooh)

I thought my heart had learned its lesson
It feels so good when ya start out
My head is screaming "get a grip, girl!"
"Unless you're dying to cry your heart out!"
Ooooh oooh

You keep on denying
Who you are and how you're feelin'
Baby, we're not lying, hone we saw ya
Hit the ceiling
Face it like a grown up
When ya gonna own up that ya got, got, got it bad

Woah
No chance, no way, I won't say it, no no
Give up, give in
Check the grin, you're in love!

You're doing flips read our lips you're in love
You're way off base
I won't say it
Get off my case
I won't say I'm in love
No chance, no way, I won't say it, no no

Give up, give in
Check the grin, you're in love!
The scene won't play
I won't say I'm in love

You'er doing flips read our lips you're in love
You're way off base
I won't say it
Girl, don't be proud, it's ok, you're in love

No chance, no way, I won't say it, no no
Give up, give in
Check the grin, you're in love!

The scene won't play
I won't say I’m in love
Ooooooh

At least out loud
I won't say I'm in....love

Sha la la la la la...(sigh)

will try to add the songs from radio blog later... try cheetah girls and also aly and aj LOL.. disney stars basically.. :D the songs are nice... haha!!

2006-12-16T07:11:00.000-08:00

have not been updating for i think this whole week.. it must have been the busiest week of the hols excluding TK 50th anniversary celebration.. well.. monday was supposed to be the day i finish all my homework.. but obviously i didn't do anything on that day except for staring at my com screen the entire day.. but seriously this box known as the computer/laptop is boring... under the circumstances that 1) you have been visiting the same site everyday playing the same stupid game/playing a game that repeats all the time. 2) you have been listening the same old tunes over and over again literally memorising the lyrics which is actualli possible btw... this are just the amt of reasons why i find the computer boring.. but as for now.. not anymore.. haha!!

tuesday is also one slack-y day.. plainly visited the airport to fetch my sis back from japan-nagoya and knowing the news that my laptop can be retrieved the coming thurs..

wed was a family outing.. for the teenagers.. we had bowling and arcade at marina sq and i just keep losing for bowling la... every now and then i would just lose my touch and wont perform.. haha!! anyway, as my hands were wet that day, the bowling ball actualli flew backwards before i could toss it forwards.. luckily never hit my cousins and grandma... eventually lost both games.. haha! i believe the top two players were leon and natasha.. pro la... haha!! so yeah.. that's abt it.. had great fun with them.. LOL!

thurs... suppose the get the laptop but my mum postponed the date the today sat.. so ya. had to wait la.. my grandma and i went to ikea megastore as well as courts.. ikea is just a playground for me.. haha!! nvr get sick of it de... got myself a new table for my laptop in my room.. haha! it is 120cm by 70cm.. huge.. but can fit.. courts was quite great.. not much ppl there yet as ut wasn't the actual opening day.. the things there are like super ex but of course the materials are good la.. they also have a lot of xbox playing samples as well as NDS-lite... really cool.. ppl go check it out!! went to watson after putting the table down at home with my mum bought a lot of blouse there.. haha! wore it on friday.. :D

Fri... hung out with the 3c peeps and well... it didn't go according to plan of watching a movie so we actually had nth to do no idea wat to do there except to bowl and play arcade.. that day's bowling was simply great la.. lenny got two strikes and both him and rod got the same score.. they all are experienced players... actualli everyone are experienced.. yj actualli went over into the alley and almost slipped on the waxed alley la.. luckily he never slip and fall... weihao had a special way of bowling.. kinda hilarious but still the ball went the right direction. haha! kelvin and a guy i think yuwen? joined us halfway to i think follow weihao.. kelvin literally video-ed weihao bowling.. wateva la.. honestly kelvin was kinda of extra there.. no offence... sorrt weihao if u are reading the blog... :'( julia and lp joined us along the way.. oh ya it was uncle teng's b'dae and today is xuan tai tai's b'dae.. all the best to them! :D so after we had dinner there and bumped into amirul sophia michelle aw bernard and co. , i had to rush to the band concert... haha!!! at 6.30.. to meet the teacher and collect the ticket that zhiyi helped me booked.. thanks a lot mate! so ya.. was kinda late i think sort of lost my way too.. diao... joined michelle tay and jm at SCH and we entered the concert hall sitting at the middle.. fortunately.. haha! band concert was extremely fun la.. seeing my friends out there having a great time and i myself enjoying every moment of it was awesome! haha! i believe fafa started the piece whereby no conductor was standing in front leadin them.. she was grinning from ear to ear can... haha!! i am speaking slang.. LOL after the concert left for the airport to send my cousins away... they were taking a plane the first time to perth... so lucky.. perth.. haha! and they r returning on the 2nd of jan.. whoa... long long hol... hope that they would have great fun there.. haha!

sat... woke up early in the morning at 9am to get my laptop at jurong.. haha!! far loh.. :( currently using the laptop to blog... quite ok but i realli need a mouse.. the sensor pad is realli making my fingers numb.. haiz... anyway, the com is quite ok.. haha! quite happy with it.. need to sleep liao.. long long day.. and it is 1.22am le.. happy belated birthday teng and xuan!

2006-12-11T05:25:00.000-08:00

i am still stuck with my hmw... :( a long way more to go... just here to say that this whole week is going to be busy... nth much to talk abt.. don dare.. haha!! here's a song... Bones by the killers. shown on mtv.

Come with me
We took a back road
we're gonna look at the stars
we took a back road in my car
Down to the ocean
it's only water and sand
and in the ocean we'll hold hands
but I don't really like you apologetically dressed
in the best put on a heart beat glide
without an answer
the thunder speaks for the sky
and on the cold wet dirt I cry
and on the cold wet dirt I cry
Don't you want to come with me?
Don't you want to feel my bones on your bones?
It's only natural.
A cinematic vision ensued like the holiest dream
and someone called it
an angel whispers my name
but the message relayed is the same
wait 'til tomorrow you'll be fine
but it's gone to the dogs in my mind
I always hear them when the dead of night
comes calling to save me from this fight
but they can never wrong this right
Don't you want to come with me?
Don't you want to feel my bones on your bones?
It's only natural.
Don't you want to swim with me?
Don't you want to feel my skin on your skin?
It's only natural.
I never had a lover
I never had a song
I never had a good time
I never had hope
Don't you want to come with me?
Don't you want to feel my bones on your bones?
It's only natural.
Don't you want to swim with me?
Don't you want to feel my skin on your skin?
It's only natural.

finally some thing great...

2006-12-08T04:47:00.000-08:00

i shall start from wed..

woke up late as usual.. mum didn't go for work and dad's taxi got damaged by a careless driver.. cant drive for that day and thurs..so anyway, went to airport at nite to send off my sis.. she had to leave for some band thingy at japan for her jc.. saw quite a few tk ex-seniors.. eg, cliff from band and one more guy don know his name.. went to the macs there while waiting for her departure time.. sat there for like an hour? this great manager there actualli helped us a lot.. my mum enquired wat time was the last mrt/bus from airport but he didn't know.. so he went arnd asking his crew and eventually got the answer and he even went all out to tell us. he also also offered whether we wld wan water and he wld give it to us.. after he left the table, my mum wanted to write a compliment letter to macs to report abt this.. but little did we know, the manager came back with a feedback paper.. weird huh?? LOL! after that he and my mum talked abt finances, life ah and blah blah... soon it was time for my sis to leave and thus we left macs.. sent her away and went home.. nth much...

thurs.. er.. went out with aiyan to national library to do hmw.. 3hrs and we cant finish our hmw at all... aiyan took me on the life there and we took it all the way to the 14th lvl.. from B1 to 14 straight actualli caused ours ears to be blocked.. the same thing occured when we went all the way down to the grnd floor.. left the library with nth much done and headed for kfc.. oh ya.. the day before i had a haircut and the hairdresser cut my hair until like... er.. short and it looks like i am wearing a coconut on my head.. cant wait for it to grow back... :(

friday.. supposed to go out with haniel to the library agn but he couldn't make it so went out with jm, brenda and mich.. went to escape.. had great fun... paid 6 dollars and got free snacks, icecream, carnival ticket.. 6 dollars discount for ur nex trip and 6 dollars off for the items there at escape.. quite reasonable.. the moment we reached the entrance, saw a grp of indian kid stars outside filmming.. i mistook one of them as vimal although the huge height difference.. maybe her sis.. we went in and the first we took was the ride we called UFO.. so ya.. was realli thrilling.. i didn't dare to take rides but today i was able to take it all.. haha!! the nex one we went was viking ship but i didn't take it.. mich was screaming all the way and jm was laughing.. LOL.. weird.. the nex ride was go kart and from that i can say i am a bad driver.. realli bad.. i cant take the slope outside chai chee industrial park.. i am that weak.. haha!! i was actualli out from the bay second by evetually i came in second last.. and the last person actualli didn't brake at the rite time and slammed behind me realli realli hard and chain effect everyone was affected... nex ride was rainbow.. i realli love that ride.. we took it 3, 4 times.. super cool!! cant descride the feeling but it was like wat ama loves to say "AWESOME"! LOL haha! nex ride was haunted hse.. didn't dare go it.. one reason was that.. the other was becos the queue was too long.. the three girls went for it and i went arnd playing the carnival games.. i played spin and win using the free carnival ticket.. so lucky.. haha!! got first prize! one huge dog.. those type that can hang on ur head de..:) the girls were so close to getting the prize.. mich got consulation brenda was close to getting it and jm was so close to getting first prize... close..after their haunted hase, we took yakult.. we were literally napping on it la.. the last ride was the UFO agn... the second time was so much better! much faster... haha!! and that was the last ride.. haha! left after for pasir ris library.. borrowed 8books.. my first record?? LOL! hope i wld have a great time reading.. auite possible.. :) that was the day.. had great fun with girls!! thanks!!

now to agn end off with another song.. i am listening to aly and aj songs.. they are great.. aly is 2yrs than myself and aj the same age.. i shall recommend two songs.. one is collasped and the other greatest time of year.. the latter is a song santa clause three.. there's another song not this year.. nice too..

Collasped (can find but cant put.. don know why.. haha!! can be found there at radioblogclub)
You were the one
That I couldn't find
Hidden away
In the depths of my mind

Why did I let you go
You're too good to be true
I messed it up
And now I don't know what to do
We ran in circles
And wasted time
From right to wrong
From right to wrong

[Chorus]
If I knew that you were mine
I wouldn't have wasted time
I wish I could erase the past
Now it's all collapsed in my lap

I overthought
So locked in my heart, yeah
There you stood
Your blue eyes underneath your hood

Why did I let you go
You're too good to be true
I messed it up
And now I don't know what to do
We ran in circles
And wasted time
From right to wrong
From right to wrong

[Chorus]
If I knew that you were mine
I wouldn't have wasted time
I wish I could erase the past
Now it's all collapsed in my lap

My mind is blank
Just like a clean slate
Will I meet another guy
With the same blue eyes
And the same name
With the Converse shoes I gave
Will he have the same laugh
Wear my homemade hat
Bet I'll make another mistake
And think he's just another fake

Wish I could erase the past now
Wish I could bring you back

[Chorus]
If I knew that you were mine
I wouldn't have wasted time
I wish I could erase the past
Now it's all collapsed in my life
If I knew that you were mine
I wouldn't have wasted time
I wish I could erase the past
Now it's all collapsed in my lap

Greatest time of year (cant find song on radioblogclub)
It's the greatest time of year, and it's here,
Help me celebrate it
With everybody here, friends so dear,
Let me simply state it
It's our favorite way to spend the holiday
Yeah

There's a special kind of feeling in the air
It only happens at this time of year
When everyone is filled with love and cheer
'Cause that's what matters

Pretty paper boxes tied with bows
Walking in the sun or in the snow
We can feel the excitement growing, knowing

It's the greatest time of year, and it's here,
Help me celebrate it
With everybody here, friends so dear,
Let me simply state it
Joy to the world and everyone,
Lift up your hearts and feel the love
It's our favorite way, to spend the holiday
Yeah

We can get all cozy by the fire
Turn the music up a little higher
I don't think that I could ever tire
Of being together

Decorate the tree, hang mistletoe
And stand by me

It's a picture perfect moment captured,
Memories that we'll have after

It's the greatest time of the year, and it's here,
Help me celebrate it
With everybody here, friends so dear,
Let me simply state it
Joy to the world and everyone
Lift up your hearts and feel the love
It's our favorite way, to spend the holiday
Yeah

Spend the holidays...

It's the greatest time

It's the greatest time of year, and it's here,
Help me celebrate it
With everybody here, friends so dear,
Let me simply state it
Joy to the world
Joy to the world
Joy to the world
It's the greatest time of year
It's the greatest time

It's the greatest time of year, and it's here,
Help me celebrate it
With everybody here, friends so dear,
Let me simply state it
Joy to the world and everyone
Lift up your hearts and feel the love
It's our favorite way, to spend the holiday

Not this year (cant find song on radioblogclub)
This Christmas card is so contrived
A manniquin looks more alive
Haven't meant a word I've written here

The page is full not one thing sincere
I can't, I can't
I can't, I can't take it
This is the time to smile
I can't fake it
Please allow me the chance now to break it down

It's not snow, it's rain coming down
And the lights are cool,
But they burn out
And I can't pull off the cheer
Not this year
Not this year
Not this year

When I look into the mirror
No happiness is present here
Not supposed to whine,
Not supposed to cry
Try to hold it in, but not this time

I can't, I can't
I can't, I can't take it
This is the time to smile,
I can't fake it
Please allow me the chance now
To break it down

It's not snow, it's rain coming down
And the lights are cool,
But the burn out
And I can't pull off the cheer
Not this year
Not this year
Not this year

Don't know, don't know
If you can hear me
I will, I will
Speak louder for you

No more whispering
Are you listening
I am pleading
I am pleading

I can't, I can't
I can't, I can't take it
This is the time to smile
I can't fake it
Please allow me the chance now
To break it down

It's not snow, it's rain coming down
And the lights are cool,
But they burn out
And I can't pull off the cheer
Not this year
Not this year
Not this year
I can't, I can't

It's not snow, it's rain coming down
And the lights are cool,
But they burn out
And I can't pull off the cheer
Not this year
Not this year
Not this year
Not this year

highly recommended!! cant find the songs can ask me..

once in a lifetime

2006-12-06T20:04:00.000-08:00

.. just wanted to recommend this song.. it is korean but it is still a nice song.. LOL.. i don know wat the song means la.. but based on wat the singers said, the song is to inspire ppl to chase after their dreams... so it is like once in a lifetime fly to the sky.. so ya.. dream ppl! haha!! i shant add the lyrics.. the song's by shinhwa (myth in chinese).. they came to singapore for a concert 4 months ago..

OMG!! i managed to get a english version one.. LOL.. ok here goes.. i add the lyrics first..

Everyday I pray to help me through the day to make myself stronger...
And I pray

So long I've waitin' for, my dream to come to life
Believed that faith would make them come true

And when I closed my eyes in my heart I knew
That someone was gonna answer my prayers...somehow I knew

Beneath the stars at night
I promise I would always try
And now I know it was worth the while

Although it's hard sometimes you know that my love is always on your side
You can make it happen just believe

Once in a lifetime fly to the stars
There's no denying just believe in who you are
Once in a lifetime let me take you there
cause you don't have to feel all alone you know
I'll be there

슬프고 힘든 날들을 다 지나도록 해, OK
Open up your eyes to the sky then you can find the way
For then better days 이제 우리 세상을 모두 같이 다 함께 할 수 있게힘들면 쉬어가도 OK. Yo 잠깐

Take a second그 오랜 꿈, 수많은
Star I know that you can take it함께라면 좀 더 날 거야 니 꿈들은
Passon, it's all yours.
There's no questions

Through all the joy and pain my dreams won't fade they still remain
Rainy days always come and go~.

But love is always there I know as long as you are here with me
That eventually you'll see

Once in a lifetime fly to the stars
There's no denying just believe in who you are
Once in a lifetime let me take you there
Cause you don't have to feel all alone you know
I'll be there

Don't you even let go or shed a tear(No baby no more cry)
I'll be there so have no fear(I'll be there for you and me tonight)
When the moments right
You'll know inside it's time
Inside you'll always knew
Dreams can come true

Once in a lifetime fly to the star별들이 너의 꿈을 지켜 줄 거야 (지켜 줄 거야)
Once in your lifetime 우리 그 날 위해영원히 함께 만들어 갈 Everything for your dreams
Once in a lifetime fly to the star (fly to the star)영원히 너의 꿈을 기억할거야 (기억할거야)
Once in your lifetime 우리 그 날 위해영원히 함께 만들어 가야할
Love for your dreams

http://www.esnips.com/doc/a5278251-5286-4795-afd9-0b780d818c09
this is the song!! the korean one.. is..
http://www.esnips.com/doc/f0b6c5ff-c799-4dfa-bd38-c73e955dfac5

the boring hols are back once agn...

2006-12-03T19:29:00.000-08:00

i am some how glad and sad that 50th anniversary has ended..glad because it is goodbye to presentation and also to the food which is actualli quite good.. sad because we are going to miss all the fun we had there during the period of rehearsals as well as the actual thing... 2th dec was actualli a blast.. due to the security checks, our schedule was delayed by 30mins... thus we had to rush for our dinner and run back to our designated venues... there were like arnd.. maybe 70 to 100 police officiers and also a dog.. i think it is either a golden retriver or yellow labrador.. it is super guai.. sit there nvr bark or anything.. specially trained.. so anyway we wasted a lot of time under the shade and the choir teacher let the choir to stand under the shade while we had to be baked by the sun.. not much tan though.. we ran back to our venues immediately after dinner.. and soon the guests arrived.. ovverall response was quite good.. there were some 'difficult' guests.. and from the coffee book i realise that the lady with red specs is actualli one of the first few girls who came into TK and the other lady is her sister.. so ya.. :P there was a short period whereby our grp weren't that busy and we started to talk abt how to make sarah laugh but she didn't come.. :(

after the entire session we had to keep our things and then leave from the tkgs gate... but before that we were given chocolates as rewards.. LOL.. we walked along the music room saw the choir in their purple outfits and saw all the guests downstairs.. but we still had to 'quietly' leave.. after reaching tkgs gate, some of them left home and a few of us stayed to go out to PP to makan.. that's abt it... reached home watched the news and saw our sch!! haha! very small part onli.. it is when mrs chan open the door for SM Goh or is it lemuel so ya he came out and lemuel saluted him but he onli realised it after a while.. :-].. then he stood in front of the mural wall and watched the dance club dance.. the next part is i believe the part when nicholas ow leads him to signing the mural wall's plague.. and leading him down the stage... short clip...

sunday was a boring day actualli... woke up in the afternoon and most ppl involved on sat woke up that late too... nth much to talk abt.. choir leaving today for malacca.. haiz.. nobody to talk to in maple le.. :(

end off with another song.. i love this song.. er.. ronan keating-friends in time

You've always been here with me.
And in your eyes, baby I can see:
It's my reflection,
Doubles so true.
And what it tells me
is that I belong to you.

And when we pass each other once again,
Then I will recognise my true friend.
And we are two friends lost in time.
When your eyes are passing mine
I see we've been through so much in our lives.
We are two friends so in love
Through time we've been together, oh baby,
We're true friends in time.

My little sister, where did you go?
And what is in your face that shows?
A story burried deep and strong
But that's a secret,
One that we kept for so long.

To say our love would be alive
But what other word doesn't die
We are two friends lost in time
When your eyes are passing mine
I feel we've been through so much in our lives.
We are two friends so in love
Through time we've been together, oh darling,
We're true friends in time.

So come on...

We are two friends lost in time
When your eyes are passing mine
I feel we've been through so much in our lives.
We are two friends so in love
The time we've been together, oh darling,
We're true friends in time.

I'm gonna fly
Deep canyons beneath me
Darling, I'm flying to you
So you don't have to cry
No, I won't let it beat me
'Cos, darling, I'm in love with you.
'Cos we're two friends
We're two friends lost in time
We're two friends so in love
Darling, I'm in love with you, I'm in love with you.

they don have it on radio blog.. so ya.. :(

2006-12-01T06:53:00.000-08:00

after one whole week of rehearsals, tmrw's the big day.. finally... haha! allow me to recap wat happened during the past few days.. or maybe just yesterday and today...

yesterday went out early in the morning to have lunch with haniel at joo chiat.. eat the bar chor mee there... he lent me a book titled The Silver Sword by Ian Serraillier.. an old book abt WW1.. quite a nice book.. finishing the book already... anyway... ate for a while then i left for sch.. in total i sort of met 2 teachers that day.. mr wee and the onli male chinese teacher no idea wat name.. so i met up with aiyan and her library grp.. and joined them at the library.. mrs poh is a great teacher.. i must admit although she doesn't teach me.. she's very friendly la.. she got to know my name and after which had to leave for COE rm for briefing... after briefing we went to our stations and prepared ourselves..

before teachers entered the rm, "tall guy" went to lift the handle of the senior's product and the handle suddenly broke... he panicked... LOL.. but they "great guy" explained that the product was spoilt by someone we nicknamed "itchy fingers".. so "tall guy" placed the handle back went back to the station.. then the teachers came it.. unfortunately for mr wee, he went to raise the handle and the thing "broke" agn.. so ya.. he's sort of the scapegoat now.. poor thing la.. then ruth another senior took the artefact and i think repaired it.. so yeah.. case closed.. that's abt it.. LOL.. great day...

friday... early morning went to ikea tampines.. realli huge place and i tell u they are very generous with their free gifts.. i got a toy heart shape, cute... ate there and was super full.. it was like plates of poached salmons la.. god.. i will gain weight.. salmon is the fattest fish i think.. so anyway left ikea and headed for sch.. was surprised that i got there 20 mins eariler than expected.. the briefing postponed to 4.45 and between the break, most of the 3C students came to the COE and had a lot of fun there.. mj was realli unlucky la.. heard abt the joke that ur hand smells and u raise ur hand towards ur face and try to smell it.. but the next thing u know is that u are smacked by ur own hand cos someone pushed ur hand towards u.. mj got caught by vimal first.. and shortly after another joke was played by yj that when ur hand is bigger than ur face, u r smart... so mj once agn place his hand in front of his face and got smacked agn! believe that.. whoa.. super unlucky.. the next victim was rod.. for a moment i thought he wld get angry but nope.. he had a realli good temper.. phew.. :D.. teng and i counted the no. of ppl who r involved in 50th from 3C.. and be surprise.. a total of 30 students are involved.. haha!! whoa.. big no. la.. so after a long period of laughter and knowing a lot of weird stuff abt the guys, we had our briefing and yeah that's abt it.. after the entire thingy, the dnt peeps and rw went to dunman food court to eat.. ate char kway teow.. not that bad la.. the hokkien mee looked great too..then after eating yq had a bad tummyache.. so left soon after.. had a great time with yj and the bus just now.. talked abt mon's outing.. so anyway back at hm now..

to end off, sophia's back from spain... whoa... so gd la... and also another song... how abt.. nobody knows by pink.. great song...

Nobody knows
Nobody knows but me
That I sometimes cry
If I could pretend that I'm asleep
When my tears start to fall
I peek out from behind these walls
I think nobody knows
Nobody knows no

Nobody likes
Nobody likes to lose their inner voice
The one I used to hear before my life
Made a choice
But I think nobody knows
No no
Nobody knows
No

Baby
Oh the secret's safe with me
There's nowhere else in the world that I could ever be
And baby don't it feel like I'm all alone
Who's gonna be there after the last angel has flown
And I've lost my way back home
I think nobody knows no
I said nobody knows
Nobody cares

It's win or lose not how you play the game
And the road to darkness has a way
Of always knowing my name
But I think nobody knows
No no
Nobody knows no no no no

Baby
Oh the secret's safe with me
There's nowhere else in the world that I could ever be
And baby don't it feel like I'm all alone
Who's gonna be there after the last angel has flown
And I've lost my way back home
And oh no no no no
Nobody knows
No no no no no no

Tomorrow I'll be there my friend
I'll wake up and start all over again
When everybody else is gone
No no no

Nobody knows
Nobody knows the rhythem of my heart
The way I do when I'm lying in the dark
And the world is asleep
I think nobody knows
Nobody knows
Nobody knows but me
Me

tmrw last day.. joy.. more visits to ikea-tamp in the future.. yay! i am super ikea-freak... believe it...

~ciao... :P

:p

2006-11-28T06:12:00.000-08:00

today was a great day considering the fact that i lost some weight or smth from the 2hr badminton game... honestly, it is tiring when ur opponent/s makes you run here and there and ur smart opponent's able to direct the shot to where he wans the ball to drop... and btw, they are enjoying the control they have over the opposite team!! LOL.. basically i was the onli girl there and when i called for this particular girl whether she could come, she couldn't pick up the phone cos she was still sleeping and the clock read 3pm.. realli funny.. didn't know that there was another person who wakes up later than i do.. haha!

oh ya, if u r reading this sorry for directing the ball at you and hurting u.. haha! i was on the phone with this person before hitting the shuttlecock and this person cldn't come.. so ya.. haha!

so anyway after the badminton game the guys and i went to the food stall there sat down and gossiped for arnd an hr.. then discussed abt 4th dec outing.. decided on gg to sentosa..

so here's the deal:
Venue- meet at harbourfront mrt station
Time-4th dec, monday 12.30pm for those who wans to eat there/1.30-2pm for those not eating there
Admission fee:$3
Stuff to bring: extra shirt and maybe pants, water bottle? LOL... just decide.. but extra set of clothes sort of compulsary...

so ya.. that's abt it.. someone who has mr tchen's no. go inform him..

i suddenly forgot wat to say... anyway, those gg just tell either myself or wr.. he was rejected by 5 girls today.. he's worst record.. LOL..

oh ya to the U from just now.. she's not angry la.. don worry too much k?

i need to talk to someone... haiz...

big thanks to mrs yeo and mrs chee for editing my script just now if they do read my blog.. but anyway, must say...

end off with a song.. the high road by JoJo

Oh
Yeah Yeah
Oh

I gave you my heart
I gave you my soul
I gave everything that I had
But ya left me in the cold

But still I have faith
Somehow I believe
That if I keep love in my heart
It will find it's way to me

I could fight
Seek revenge
But thats not who I am
No I'm not giving in
I will rise above

I'm gonna keep walking
Though it may seem far
I'm gonna keep preaching
When life gets too hard
Not gonna let you bring me down
I'll take the high road

I'm gonna keep climbing
Till I see the top
I'm gonna keep trying
Though I may get lost
Not gonna let you bring me down
I take the high road

I'm gonna get by on the high road
Yes I will
I'm gonna get by on the high road

This pain that I feel
I will overcome
I know somewhere deep down inside
It's the pain that makes us strong
I could curse
I could shout
Take the easy way out
I forgive you
somehow I will rise above

I'm gonna keep walking
Though it may seem far
I'm gonna keep preaching
When life gets too hard
Not gonna let you bring me down
I take the high road

I'm gonna keep climbing
Till I see the top
I'm gonna keep trying
Though I may get lost
Not gonna let you bring me down
I take the high road

I get by
To be real
I can't keep it inside
I may fall sometimes
but I will survive

I'm gonna keep reaching
I'm gonna keep climbing
I'm gonna keep trying

I'm gonna keep walking
Though it may seem far
I'm gonna keep preaching
When life gets too hard
Not gonna let you bring me down
I take the high road

I'm gonna get by on the high road
I'm gonna get by on the high road
I'm gonna get by on the high road
I'm gonna get by on the high road
I'm gonna get by on the high road

cant find the song in radio blog..

2006-11-24T22:17:00.000-08:00

hols are so boring that i actualli wake up at 12 every morning or u shld say afternoon.. anyway, 15 dec is sch band concert at singapore conference hall (based on wat zhiyi told me). so erm.. we are going to watch happy feet before the concert.. LOL.. it shld be a nice movie... cant wait.. muahahaha!!! diao.. my cousins going to perth that same day.. how? :(

saw a red car yesterday and the lady driver looks a lot like ms koh.. the drive stared at me for i don know why then i sort of saw her face and thought that she looks like ms koh.. wateva it is i am starting to miss the teachers who have alrdy/are going to leave sch for good.. like ms wang and ms koh.. haiz..

honestly i haven start with my hmw yet and xinghui was like scolding me.. haha.. ask me quickly do... LOL.. sian ah.. yq, lp working this hols and i believe there's more but still good for them.. can spend their own money.. :P

now for another song.. try to find one... erm...
LOL.. when it all falls apart by the veronicas

I'm having the day from hell
It was all going so well
Before you came
And you told me you needed space
With a kiss on the side my face
Not again

And not to mention
The tears I shed
I shoulda kicked your
Ass instead
I need intervention
Attention to stop temptation to scream

Cause baby

(Chorus)
Everything is f'ed up straight from the heart
Tell me, what do you do when it all falls apart
Gotta pick myself up, where do I start
Cause I can't turn to you when it all falls apart
No, ohh

Don't know where I parked my car
Don't know who my real friends are
Anymore
I put my faith in you
What a stupid thing to do
When it rains it pours

And not to mention
I drank too much
I'm feelin' hungover
Out of touch
I need intervention
Attention to stop temptation to scream

Cause baby

Chorus

Can't it be easier?
Can't I just change my life?
Cause it just seems to go bad every time
Will I be mending
Another one ending once again

Chorus x2

Gotta pick myself up
Cuz baby I'm f'ed up

Chorus

Dixie Chicks

2006-11-22T08:46:00.000-08:00

Easy Silence

Album :
Taking The Long Way

Artist :
Dixie Chicks

When the calls and conversations
Accidents and accusations
Messages and misperceptions
Paralyze my mind

Busses, cars, and airplanes leaving
Burning fumes of gasoline
And everyone is running
And I come to find a refuge in the

Easy silence that you make for me
It's okay when there's nothing more to say to me
And the peaceful quiet you create for me
And the way you keep the world at bay for me
The way you keep the world at bay

Monkeys on the barricades
Are warning us to back away
They form commissions trying to find
The next one they can crucify

And anger plays on every station
Answers only make more questions
I need something to believe in
Breathe in sanctuary in the

Easy silence that you make for me
It's okay when there's nothing more to say to me
And the peaceful quiet you create for me
And the way you keep the world at bay for me
The way you keep the world at bay

Children lose their youth too soon
Watching war made us immune
And I've got all the world to lose
But I just want to hold on to the

Easy silence that you make for me
It's okay when there's nothing more to say to me
And the peaceful quiet you create for me
And the way you keep the world at bay for me

The easy silence that you make for me
It's okay when there's nothing more to say to me
And the peaceful quiet you create for me
And the way you keep the world at bay for me
The way you keep the world at bay for me
The way you keep the world at bay

super nice song.. basically their entire album rocks, although i don have it.. haha! go listen to it ppl!! cya!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aKoS4Z_9Srw
P.S.: click on the link.. the attachment doesn't work.. LOL.. and radio blog doesn't have this song... sad.. haha!!

cool but slightly boring hols...

2006-11-22T00:49:00.000-08:00

back to blogging after a long long long long long long........................... long long break.. yeah.. weird that i suddenly want to blog agn actualli.. anyways, hols are such a bore however there were certain things that spiced up my hols.. LOL.. the first was my trip to batam on the.. erm.. i cant rmb.. anyway, my grandma and mum got a haircut which was quite well done.. yeah.. haha! my mum looked diff la.. i guess i will going there to get my haircut.. try to look different. ever since erm.. 2 months or 3 months ago i went to OP and got myself 2 pairs of bermudas which are for females yeah.. and i told my mum that i wanted to change after wearing guys clothes for most probably a decade.. i do rmb myself wearing a Pooh Bear dress at singapore sci centre when i was 6 or 5 i guess.. currently from this week's shopping, i got myself 1 jacket, 2 coats, 2 t-shirt, 2 pairs of jeans.. erm.. yeah.. i find the clothes realli nice.. considering the fact that i am wearing such clothes after 10 years.. yeah.. do the math.. i guess the first i will be wearing the clothes will be erm......... earliest sch band concert or XWAYST movie outing.. latest is during chinese new year.. haha! OMG i am nervous.. :O!!

on a lighter note, went to watch STEP UP!! it is a super nice movie.. the songs, actors, dance and the storyline although it was quite accountable for.. skinny died, nora and tyler got together, both succeeded in wat they wanted and ya.. that's abt it.. but it is still nice... got all the songs and the best so far is till the dawn by drew sidora sang during the club dance scene.. it is a must watch movie.. nex movie to watch wld be.. happy feet or casino royale.. watch with the peeps...

2 dec 50th anniversary dinner.. erm.. just need slight preparation and that's all.. hopefulli
15 dec TK band concert.. i will definately be there to show my support for the band..

oh ya.. class outing.. erm.. either tell me or weirong where u guys wanna go..

Choices are: Zoo, ECP, Sentosa, Pulau Ubin, someone's condo and have bbq.. for last choice we need someone to volunteer their place.. haha!!

to end off- a song: TILL THE DAWN- DREW SIDORA

Oh Oh
Oh Oh
Oh Oh
Oh Oh

Ohhhhhhh
Oh no no no

Out on the weekend
out on the weekend
Out on the weekend
Out on the weekend

[Drew:]
Let them in, get the lights, let party begin
Mix a little love, get the mood jumpin
From New York to Miami by ten
I think I'm ready to go
High, every time that we hit up our spot
See everyone in line, and they payin a lot
'Cept their payin for the night
cuz the drinks are fixed
But the music is free

You want it, you got it
You need it, but you know you gotta have it boy
The music is freein'
(Out on the weekend, Out on the weekend, weekend)

This is for the girls comin' from NYC
I'm feelin' you like yous family
And everybody down from LA to BC
Rockin' to the same old CDs
This is for the kids in the clubs and the street
Talkin' bout you work three deity
Get on the dance floor where the music is free

Slip, gone until the dawn's gone with me
Gone until the dawn's gone with me
Where the music is free
Slip, gone until the dawn's gone with me
(Out on the weekend, on the weekend, weekend)

[spoken:]
Now all my ladies,
Move it to the front,
show 'em what you got

Ooh, ooh, ooh
Oh, Oh ooh
Oh, Oh ooh
Oh, Oh ooh, ooh, ooh

Fellas?
Oh, like that
All my ladies, A-A-All my ladies-Oh... ah
All my ladies, A-A-All my ladies-Oh... ah
Oh....

Oh, Oh (x4)

[Mario:]
And all my ladies say (Ah, Ah)
And all the fellas say (Ah, Ah)
Everybody say (Ah, Ah)
Come dance with me, ohh (Ah Ah)

[Drew:]
And they say we all
Dance like this, we have the men in bed and off
Till there mornin', there we go lettin off
Tyler's droppin onto the table top
Once again, you can shake your thang and there aint no cops

This is for the girls comin' from NYC
I'm feelin' you like yous family
And everybody down from LA to BC
Rockin' to the same old CDs
This is for the kids in the clubs and the street
Talkin' bout you work three diety
Get on the dance floor where the music is free
Slip, gone until the dawn's gone with me

Slip, gone until the dawn's gone with me
Gone until the dawn's gone with me
Where the music is free
Slip, gone until the dawn's gone with me
(Out on the weekend, on the weekend, weekend)

~ciao!