you are such a manipulator and a spoilt person... i made a mistake knowing you...

er... today was realli boring... the cny celebration was like usual boring.... anyway.. the sch announced to all sec 4 the venue for our grad nite and the price etc etc.. we can decide the theme ourselves and er ya.. smth like that.. i believe it will be a great event.. haha! didn't join the 4c girls and rod to taka to makan instead went to bugis with jingmei and mich and brenda... it is sort of a good thing cause halfway, my mum called me and told me my dad got admitted to the hospital.. so i had to leave halfway... ya... got hm and played sims 2.. haha! went to the hospital at 7 and onli go back at 11... very long.. but managed to finish chem.. LOL!

WED---- VALENTINE'S DAY!!

thanks to all those who gave gifts on this special day!! namely er.. sihui and vanhui for the cookies, Rod for merci, Jingmei, Mich, Brenda, haniel for the nicely wrapped presents.. then er.. rachel for the sweets.. terrence tay for the M&Ms Shixiang for the dove chocolate, Terrence foo for the biscuits, jun liang for the sweets.. er.. lenny for wang wang and sweets, limpon for the card and chocolates... thanks a lot to all those who gave! er.. nth much happened that day... just that the dustbins were filled with sweet wrappers in every class and there's a new teacher staff who is realli unfriendly...

thurday.. sort of the worst day my life.... except for some time during this day..

earlier morning on the way to sch.. dad's hand went numb and couldn't button his shirt and cant change the gear properly... he has high blood pressure and might get a stroke and with numbness it means a lot... i was realli afraid.. my bro was sitting behind slping smsing ppl and busy drying his wet hair.. don even know and care wat is happening in front.. i tried to massage my dad's arm but to no help.. his hand was still numb.. the song of 90.5 fm played a love song and the song actualli moved me to tears when i looked at my dad.. he looked so much older and weaker now.. at that moment i wanted to cry but couldn't. i didn't wan him to worry.. as i got off the taxi i saw my dad using his numb-ed hand to change gear but he had to try so hard to change it and i had to turn away as he drove away.. i looked at the back of the taxi with tears welling in my eyes.. throughout assembly i wanted to cry but couldn't in front of so many ppl.. went back to class and cried quietly behind.. managed to divert my attention away from this but ended up crying agn after reading the passage abt the mum giving her eyes to her ungrateful son..

went for EL after that with the same concern in my mind.. i 'indulged' myself with the work in front of me to take my focus away from this and it did helped.. with the common jokes from my table, i cheered up.. went back to class with xuan sitting beside me and she too made all sort of jokes to cheer me up.. realli glad to have friends like that... after school went home immediately talking to brenda abt this and she was there for me too.. reached home talked to tenghui and he helped me find out more abt stroke and i realli appreciate it.. he's realli a true friend.. i was lost and now i am tearing.. for once in my life my tears just came down like a tap that has been turned on and the water was flowing.. i wonder when this will stop and when will it be activated agn... i am realli scared... the tears feel cold as they roll down my cheeks and onto my white shirt.. i cant go down, i cant go down and face my family, i cant go down to face my family and show them how worried i am.. i cant go down and face my family and show them how worried i am and make them feel worst.. i am scared..

i realli appreciate it tenghui.. u r the onli one who cared... :)

back from a long long break away from blogging..shall start from last friday when the sec4 batch last yr received their O lvls results.. all in all, they did extremely well.. with the average L1R5 of 12 pts which is good le.. and the marks they scored are like not withn my reach yet,, hopefulli miracles can happen for o lvls.. LOL! so after taking results, everyone were motivated to work hard.. and it does work with us witnessing the joy the seniors experience when they got back their results.. i will not know wat to do if i do well and not do well.. do my very best and get my As... yes.. my aim.. chinese.. arh! i don know how to get A.. chinese detoriating since this yr... sad...

sat was the day we have to wake up early for our geo elec remedial.... the lesson starts at 7.30 like sch hrs... which is realli early then the dnt guys and i went to PP hawker centre there to makan.. and we started talking abt prom night and stuff.. had to leave halfway to meet my mum and visit some elders in a home to celebrate for new year.. the whole thing was meaningful yet disorganised.. didn't do much there.. didn't dare to.. haha! after community work.. we went to this bowling alley across the the concourse and played 4 games.. the uncles and aunties are super pro and they keep getting like above 100 while i get like 70 onli.. sad.. was so presurized in the fourth game and deprove till 50 smth.. one uncle was like ur mum's improving but u are deterioting.. so sad la.. haha! then had to leave halfway to buy cny stuff... the bowling there is relatively cheap.. it is a new place with the shoes still new and bowlin balls untouched.. one game cost 1.50! and the shoes are 1.20.. it is super cheap la... but it is far too... they have pool too and arcade.. all together.. :P small place but have everything.. it is at textile centre near the concourse.. 8th lvl.. onli shop there.. go visit sometime! after the bowling went to johnlittle to buy cny clothes.. and then er. my mum and i went to toa payoh to meet up with my dad to bring us home like.. eh.. ya.. and bought some gifts for valentines too... tmrw valentines and i am so neutral to it.. LOL! too stressed with dnt...

sunday... surprise surprise and nth happened..

monday.. day went haywired! don wanna talk abt it.. had to study for tuesday's SS test but got busy with a convo with biondi abt the test and pon asking abt amath.. cant study but wateva la.. today got ppl still cheat... sian.. wat people do i have as classmates? blah....

tuesday.. today.. fencing is super tiring and i collected a lot of beads from the floor after their jewelery making and made out a ordinary thingy... just put the beads together.. nex lesson for fencing we are gg to use the flor and wat u go that.. the sword for fencing.. realli cool.. and honestly too much footwork.. now gtg and do dnt before the scolding tmrw.. i don know wat to do anyway.. haha! tmrw wait for scolding...

happy valentines' day everyone!

today's the start of choices and all because of yesterday's fall, cant participate.. :( xuan brought her totally cool skates for her inline skating and a few others too like zhiyi and michelle aw... pro skaters... haha! fencing was not bad the instructors were very friendly and although natasha and i couldn't join in, we did have fun looking at the others warming up and etc etc.. it was kinda funny but nex tues will be their turn to laugh at me.. LOL! choices for everyone was great and obviously they did have fun.. cooking students made potato soup, jewellery making students made a hp key chain i think.. skating- more tricks.. fencing- basic steps of forward and back.. dance.. a 3-count dance which is realli cool.. magic students learnt how to MANIPULATE with ropes.. haha.. dnt... sad.. haven do work yet.. tmrw die... i think that's all bah... the moment we got back into class, a few ppl went for recess while the others shared their new skills... realli cool...

after recess was EL was kinda boring with mdm yeo demoralising us... i was realli sick of her at that moment but after doing work it was quite ok.. sian... chinese is boring english too.. i am so gonna fail my el and chi.. i am hating this.. :(((((

like wat haniel and i believe most christians wld say, forgive and forget... trying to accomplish that... i am super tired... Zzzzz!!!

yesterday was great... we had family day in the morning like 7.30am.. which is realli a weird time for us students to actualli run.. we were supposed to be snoring at home!! anyway, mr lee was great.. he actualli joined us in the run with a few other teachers... i started out with xiang and heather but joined kendra and wangmin.. but then ran forward to brenda and forward agn to michelle tay.. LOL! oh ya.. abt my new haircut.. i admit it is short but at least it is better than my previous one which is realli realli horrible... worse than now... anyway, came to sch first ppl to see it were aiyan and xinghui.. they too much sia... saw me then started screaming.. like realli loudly... LOL! i am ok with it la.. haha!! then nex biggest reaction was from ys.. he was like "OMG! OMG!' then started screaming too.. -_-''' i just ran ahead of him ignoring him.. reached the finish line alone and waited for the guys to come back.. and there was the relay thingy which is quite ok la.. the food selling yesterday were realli good!! especially the curry!! the float was great too but i was a little too late and the ice cream had alreadi melted...

the bags that a few of us left in the asssembly plaza before the run were all shifted to i-don-know-where and all of us were like headless chickens, running arnd looking for the bags.. :( no offence.. then at last we found the bags at the PE storerm... haiz.. got two great ppl with me who helped me in the search.. presenting.... tenghui and ys.. ya.. they were like running arnd too.. haha!! so after that i joined brenda and jing mei and we discussed abt the movie to watch after the walk... honestly i am afraid of horror movies.. jingmei was like laughing at me throughout the movie.. funny sia... haha!!

we watched a THAI HORROR movie... this is twice the horror... it is called unseeable.. it is a great movie... the effects are great and i cant tell u anymore but just say that it is a great movie... we were the onli ppl the movie and that's THREE times the horror! no one arnd u and u nvr know who will appear from beside you and stuff.. my first horror movie experience and it has started like this.. haha!! too much for me to handle la... the movie haven start, my eyes were alrdy halfway covered... and my ears, plugged with my earphones... that's how scared i was.... the movies are made scary onli by the stupid music... good example is when i was choosing the nachos to eat and the music started to shriek to a very very eerie pitch... i don know whether i am construting the sentence correctly.. anyway. i was not looking at the screen but the music actualli caused me to scream realli realli loudly.. LOL!!!! then i covered my eyes and stuffed my ears.. bad experience but it is a nice story.. realli nice story.. go watch!!

after the movie my mum came to marina and joined me to buy cny clothes... we walked arnd and there's wasn't anything that appealled to me.. lol!! ok.. wrong word.. anyway, continue.. we walked into body shop and bought a lot of stuff which actualli my mum listened to the sales lady and bought up to 80- dollars.. i don believe it la.. then we went to suntec and we bought clothes from er... i think is giordano.. ya.. got myself two pants and my mum a blouse.. then we continued shopping and bought shirt for my dad and then we went to carrefour... got myself a RC car and it is super cheap and good!! 6.90 for one huge car... i am happy girl.. LOL! intend to paint it after exams and stuff... it has a 40mph spd which is fast i think... walked to the VCDs section and bought world trade center vcd.. i think it will be a sad sad story..

now i gtg and start studying for tmrw's test... tmrw will be a long long day... joy... :( haha!

i am confused and tired... enlighten me soon with your feelings... :)

back from a long long break from blogging... don feel like blogging nowadays... :( new teachers are great.... they have been great tutors for us all but still unsecured... haven been looking through last year notes and this year the different departments are giving us a lot of tests to let us recap our sec 3 topics and i am actualli grateful for that.. but don make it too often.. it gets sickening when there's too much tests one week... great example is wk 6, nex wk... mon-physics test, tues- geo elec test, wed-EL situational writing test, thurs-amath + d&t test, friday- amath test... haiz.. this week most probably left free to let us study for the following week..

dnt has been stressful for all of as we had to start our manufacturing by this feb and the end of this month.. cant rmb... LOL! and ms seah is pushing us to meet to this deadline.. i am just too lazy to do that la... model undone, prob situation halfway done, mindmap-spelled manipulation wrongly.. sad truth.. :( got all my ideas alrdy but don want to write it on paper.. just too lazy...

many things happened this week and it is somehow depressing yet surprising... the most surprising thing is that my friend has changed so much and is rather cool now.. LOL! and ya.. cant put everything here.. :P eh... bad thing that happened.. er.. don wan to type it here..

class haven decided on class tee.. but we wld be gg for XX & fafa design which is on the board now.. it is the back onli.. the front i am not sure... but it wld be nice nevertheless... this sat road run or the call it family day... 3km is reasonable unlike last year.. LOL! intend to go to bugis after the event to buy CNY clothes!! i am so happy to buy clothes.. haha!! want to get something new and most importantly lose weight... haha! must create space for CNY dinner!! and hopefulli can play mahjong.. once in a yr play ok bah?? mahjong is a nice game.. thinking games are great.. eg, sudoku and spider solitaire.. don play sudoku often instead spider solitaire is a must for me everyday..

hope that the daily routine after school wld vary and not be filled with tests... also, got back choices and got into skating but switched with nikki so fencing.. great... my first choice! :) hope it wld be cool... now so tired.. got ss to do which can be ne it a few mins cause we have to pick out points.. so ya.. my class has too much mrs tan-s for who-knows-why.. LOL! oh ya.. badminton was kinda fun this wk as mrs chee plus ms karen and a few other teachers came to play badminton... one word to describe their match- violent... it was super violent with two guys at each end.. it was as though the shuttlecock was a fly and had to smack it to let it fly to the other corner so that it can die.. yes.. the match was that rough.. haha!!

need to ask this!! is there gg to be any games carnival for sec 4?? hopefulli there is and we can win the champion agn! 4c all the way!! love my class.. <3


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