back for a short short while before hitting the books again.. anyway, today's chinese was ok.. do-able.. must be the onli chinese paper 1 i've ever put a lot of effort in since sec 1.. haha! sad huh? lol! anyway, bumped into this and just wanted to post it.. LOL! cant wait!! oh ya.. they even have an IMAX poster for it.. so does that mean there's gg to be an IMAX screening of the show????? OMG! that wld be so cool.. yet so far from the east.. lol!!

today's the start of MYE... english paper was hard.. the compo.. i think i totally wrote out of point.. for compre have a little confidence if i managed to apply the skills learnt properly... SPA... both sciences were ok... now watching spider man 2 on AXN and whoa.. it is so cool... cant wait for the thrid instalment.. :D haiz.. cant wait for MYE to be over!!!! ARH!! why!! haha!! ok.. i am like breaking down on the first day of the exams... good luck to everyone again.. i don know wat to talk abt now.. haiz...

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everything's looking good for both of us
and we are talking again...

however, i am falling for another person,
whom i fell for before...

i don know wat to do,
and i don know wat to say.

i onli know that he looks adorable,
and i must resists the temptation to look into his eyes...

i've nvr experienced it before.
but i think u wld find it obvious that i cant look into ur eyes when we talk

and then u wld know it is u i am refering to..
why of all times now... haiz....
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note to self and readers.. lol! i am not gg to post from today till the end of MYEs... unless i come on under different circumstances.. yeah.. anyway, my mum, under personal instructions, is responsible in confiscating my com.. so ya.. i am proud of myself but i end up blogging now.. it was confiscated since yesterday.. but well.. mum wanted to use but didn;t know how to use it so here i am.. she's watching tv now... cant wait for the end of MYE!! :D i love the english enrichment course!! haha! mrs benjamin is just a great lady and teacher.. i will never get bored in her lessons.. haha!

to everyone in tk, good luck for MYEs!!!! it is stressful but it is certainly a good benchmark for our Os...

my dislike for her is getting deeper... <:-<

BIG F.Y.I TO YOU!

you don know wat actualli happened so just keep ur mouth to yourself! u r responsible for stirring up and causing this problem and you can still go arnd insulting others.. wat's the problem with you!?!? OMG! i am realli appalled by ur actions.. our class ain't like you, so wat if we are facing no.1 in the whole world? so wat if we know we r gg to have our butts kicked? as long as we did our best who cares abt the result? so wat's exactly ur prob?!?!? i am so pissed off now.. ARHZ!!!!! PLAIN NONSENSE! we aren't ppl like you who wld give up the moment u think u don stand a chance! we have a choice and we have chosen to do our best not like u, to give up..

no offence to you, but this doesn't even concern you... PFT! so stop ur unneccessary actions.. u r just creating trouble...

here to post that i finally got my guitar!! LOL! and it is 4 days to MYE! the irony! shall make this short.. need to do hmw.. sian!

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finally everything has come to an end
and i am pleased that it is so.
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i have my reservations for you,
yet i still wish you the best.
i don wanna lose a friend like you,
and i hope everything will come to a rest.

when i need to talk to someone,
the first person i think of is u.
but it is different from before,
and it will be the same in the future too.

i cant bring myself to communicate with you no more,
and even if i tried,
either of us will just can mad with the other,
before we could say the word ''bye''.

i cant take this no more,
and i want it to end.
could everything return to normal,
can we still be friends?
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i am so stress now... haha! ok.. relaxing now though... i am pleased with the test today... studied the right thing even though i slept throughout the whole revision part.. ask fafa and she knows.. ask me and i know better.. haha! was smsing today in chem... chem was boring.. was busy irritating sarah agn.. and she got fed up that i got scared.. haha! later she angry with me.. bad news if that happens.. :( there's a lot of hmw this week!!!! AH!!! math.. both math.. then.. DNT! WHY!?!?! plus chem too... :( this is so sad.. don even have the time to revise for mid years... i am so scared.. ok.. i need to start my hmw before my mum comes home.. cant wait though.. :D

today's a super tiring day.. screwed up my oral but just for haniel soh, not as worse as mr soh... he totally screwed his.. lol.. ok.. not funny... oral was totally screwed la.... shift one's convo qn is easy... but when u take some time now to think abt the question, it is not that difficult.. ARH!! i am so fed up la.. and i was sleeping while waiting for my turn to come.. i was that tired... our question was abt teenagers gg online and searched on how to make bombs and hence made them and use them in singapore... read smth abt this before.. i think it happened in the western or southern part of singapore.. some field.. i think it is woodlands or smth.. but i didn't include that and my points were very confusing.. i lost my ability to speak in chinese properly and the oral was just a horrible nightmare la!! ms low seemed to have given me a mark before i started talking.. haha! in conclusion, screwed everything up... managed to say the points but everything was everywhere.. she even commented abt it... :( and ms low told me to conclude that internet is dangerous and how to solve it like planet crush and smth... i do listen to her.. :D haha! was depressed after that la.. everyone was la... bad experience... and ya haniel, urs worse than mine.. :D happy? haha!

tmrw's SS test and chem supplementary after that... i hate saturdays.. wat for saturdays when there's sch every week? why must everything be on saturdays!?!?!!? ruin my day la.. pft..

smth happened in class and it was realli serious... just hope that he will go see the doctor tmrw.. haiz.. everyone's getting sick now.. pls like take care of urself la!

smth that happened a few days ago has finally subsided... yes... sleepless nights might be due to this matter... :( don know why but this few days very very tired... tmrw somemore must wake up so early.. things will be better tmrw.. :)

mum's coming back from philippines tmrw!!! :D with a wet, spoilt handphone and hopefulli a guitar!! haha! i am such a materialistic girl... lol! i wonder how water went into my mum's phone anyway.. toilet bowl? boat ride? bath? rain? cup? weird..

tmrw will also be a long day.. SS mock exams tmrw.. after that, chem supplementary and then going to airport for my mum.. time for hmw?? mins? 2 hrs? haha! time to study? i don know! i am afraid.. chinese o lvls in one more month, mid years nex week, prelims- less than 5 months.. o lvls, less than 6 months? i think.. i don know...

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i am so tired now that i wanna shut my eyes and get away from this stressful world...
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good luck to all for tmrw test and also for midyears.. :D
need to chiong for ss now...

things have progressed to the extent i don wanna think abt it... it has been under the sea bed for a week and now it is stirred up to the surface and now including myself, 4 people are affected by it... can we just compromise, take a step back and forget abt it?
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it all started with different perspective from different ppl
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i realli hope that we all cld just compromise.. i don wanna face this anymore.. the last time this happened, my family is in a wreck now.. pls... just take it easy guys...

today's a... erm... disturbing day.. something happened in class today and i don wanna talk it anymore... it has been stirred up today after one week and i don wanna carry on with the problem.. hope everything's ok now.. and another disturbing thing is that ms SARAH THOMAS didn't come to sch today!!!! omg.. i totally miss irritating her.. haha!!! warning.. sarah thomas said 'someone needs a slap and it ain't me' twice and guess who she meant.. haha!! ok.. she's very nice to irritate but often we get distracted.. so i shld stop my silly actions now.. :D promise... try very hard to.. when i keep quiet she will think i am being emo and stuff.. lol.. ok.. bind me up or tape my mouth.. just so i don irritate both of us... i totally miss sarah.. :(

i am ok with him now but there's a difference when i talk to him in the past and now.. i cant describe it but it is restricting me..

anyway, just ran arnd the park twice and whoa.. i must say i am proud of myself.. :D must prepare myself for smth.. haha! cant wait?

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i didn't want this to happen but it did,
i wanted to put a stop to it but i couldn't.
sorry...
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learn to forgive and forget... :D

oh ya.. welcome back natasha and pon to sch? LOL! one day without them seemed to be different la.. the class ain't whole.. including the choir peeps.. :D

just talked to my grandma and it got me mad when i told her abt my stuff...

one, to this person.. when i said it is enough it is enough... when i say i will get mad, i don care how much u smile at me, give me an innocent look, or stupid puppy look, i am realli mad.. and when i scold i really scold.. u and ur bf maybe big shots, but hey i don care.. i don care even if u r the president's daughter.. if u don show respect, don expect me to treat u with it.. u r just stuck up.. i know that u are competing with me in everything but hey guess wat? i don bother abt u.. go ahead and compete for all i care.. there's always a mountain higher... u r always badmouthing abt her but know wat? u r no better.. at least she knows her limits unlike u.. grow up... that's one point that i prefer abt her than to u.. u think ur bf is all that and excepts everyone to treat him as royalty.. but hey! we aren't u..

two, to this other person, i understand ur pediacrement and honestly i have a part to play to how u r now... and truthfully i am sorry... there's some things that ppl tend to see differently and i hope that all of us involved cld compromise.. the purpose of the game was to have fun but we are affected by competitveness.. and that's most probably the reason why we are in this plight now.. i am affected by the competitiveness too.. and hence... led to this.. can i help in anyway? and i am sorry...

three, smth that happened to my friend... as i told u, i have personal limitations with ppl like u.. do blame me if this limitations are causing problems.. hope u forgive me... we need to talk though...

four, thanks to this particular someone to hear me out abt the things that happened just recently... and i think u know wat a person i am...

there's a lot in my mind.. and i don know who to talk to... my grandma will be interrupting me halfway, mum's out in philippines.. his status has changed and he's her good friend.. life's unfair? haha... i think so... i hate being middleman...

to a new friend, thanks for ur advice today and he wasn't angry with u.. :D all the best for midyear! let's break the failing record of comb humans.. haha!

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gratz to choir for getting gold with honours and band silver!! everyone's a winner when u have fun don critizise anyone for wateva reason.. they did their best and the sch is proud no matter wat... some ppl just love to critizise...
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i have experienced this twice
and each time, my heart breaks.

for wat reason?
namely, losing a friend...

i hate this but i cant fight this feeling...
help? i think i ran into big trouble again
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it is a wonder that u write a lot abt the person u dislike and so little for the ppl u love... why? haha....

i remember the days when there were 3 of us,
but now there's none.

one of whom i had a crush on,
the other, a good friend.
and you, my best friend.

we had fun together
but it all changed
i plotted against you,
all in the name of greed.

and now, today, i saw you on the bus,
Reminiscing wat i had i done before,
and it hit me.

how immature i was, how dumb i was.
and today i didn't acknowledge you.
i didn't have the right to...
sorry..

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today's an okay day... started off with tkh coming to our class.. don wanna talk abt it.. it does make sense anyway... nex was 2.4km run.. i am rather pleased with myself for running non-stop for 6 laps and i thought it was impossible.. but still my timing's slow.. haha! was practically walking i think? haha! from the run i sort of learnt smth.. don wanna talk abt it too.. grad nite will be fun as a lot of ppl are gg.. currently, onli diniy, sohail and paula haven pay but they r gg.. ppl not gg are onli 3... rod, wr and chris.. so ya... all girls gg!! haha! that will be fun!

10 more days to MYE and i seriously think i am slacking... i have too much in my mind.. studies will definitely divert my attention away.. i have major problems... MAJOR! regarding everything.. i need to talk but to who? i don know..

congrats to a friend on smth but hey balance ur life k? haha!

mum's at philippines now... yeah.. lol.. she's getting me a guitar from there which i heard from my cousin's philipino maid that the best brand is super cheap.. haha! cant wait.. i might just break the thing... lol.. ok.. must pay attention to studies liao.. time is flying by realli quickly.. don bother throwing the clock out the window.. it ain't as fast.. lame.

no more movies, gg out, hanging out with him.. i shall live by it.. it is my own restrictions... this is smth new, but it is my restriction when being friends with someone who's attached.. :] good luck friend.. i don deserve to be in ur list but if u need to talk, i am here for u..

i hope to be ur first and ur last.. when will you come?

the most respected industrial designer and mentor

thanks rod for the onli pic we have of mr jackson :) i am crying, while typing this post and i am sure many of us will feel the same sorrow..

i've made an exception to blog today abt my most respected industrial designer and mentor- mr jackson kong.. i rmb the first day we met him, we greeted him as mr kong but he said, "just call me jackson.. " he was very friendly and warm to everyone of us. and likewise we love him so. but just yesterday, he was taken away to a much better place, somewhere far and tranquil and to mr jackson, rest in peace. you will be missed.

4 of us went to his wake right after amath lecture and it was a coincidence. he stays at the same block as where my ah ma is staying... so close yet so far.. pon cldn't join us but hey the sincerity counts.. he knows... during the bus trip, we discussed how are we gg to react when we see him, in his coffin? how are we going to face it... and the answer that came to all of us was i don know.. we cldn't accept the reality that someone of age 32 wld die just like that.. and he was in sch yesterday too... we were all very nervous went we reached the venue, mr jackson's goddaughter was standing beside him crying.. his relatives greeted us with their bloodshot eyes and it made me cry inside... we took a look at him and what we saw was a cold, dry mr jackson... and that hit us.. telling us he's dead... a rush of emotions just come to you.. do u cry with the family? or do u stay strong?

we stayed strong.. eventually we went back to the table.. reflecting abt this incident... mr jackson's friends, i assume, came later and they went to his coffin and when they return, they were crying.. i mean male adults crying and this is wat i call real tears.. as the saying goes, man shed blood not tears.. do i agree to that? i don know for sure.. but looking at two grown men crying, it shows a lot.. it shows how much they love this person and hence cry the teardrops of love.. and that i respect most..

to mr jackson's family, our condolences, and to mr jackson rest in peace...

moral of this: treasure the ppl arnd you.. death is unpredictable.. don regret for your whole life..