vesak day.. lol.. slacky day.. didn't do much.. still confused with my choice.. but i think i shld ask mrs koh instead.. ask teng to join me.. haha.. so anyway, woke up at 1pm today and ate roti prata for breakfast. then headed down to TM for dinner. met haniel there.. he went to buy a bleach weapon from the cosplay shop there.. they are having a clearance sale and the things i believe, are kinda inexpensive yet exquiste. i intend to get a gift for my bro there.. soon.. not now.. so ya.. that's abt it? i don know wat to talk abt now.. haiz..

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to noname,
i don know wat to say to you. i am also irritated by wat you told me and i find that he is really annoying too.. he's just seeking the attention.. and i fear he might do smth silly with all his words, smses.. he has certainly changed a lot after that year rite? wat has actualli caused that change? someone near him? a disturbing event? or he just wants to be like that for all the attention he will get by being sucidal? honestly, i find it dumb on his part. he's contradicting himself.
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lol.. technically, today's vesak day... so happy vesak day! yesterday(?) sch was ok.. supposed to meet mrs tan (SS) and when i call her i don know wat the other party said.. cant hear at all so i just said thank you and hung up the phone. man... after that i told ms seah i would be going for dnt. and she said ok.. the nex thing we knew was that she told weihao, she didn't want to see anyone of us.. so ya.. i didn't go.. feel guilty now. anyway, bonvoyage to all dnt teachers going to europe tmrw.. they are so lucky la! europe leh! haha! so after truncated, we had a chem test.. relatively do-able.. i just sped through the paper.. writing i-don-know-what.. haha! don know la.. so sian now..

after sch went out with grandma and dajie to temple to pray for vesak day and we saw chen liping and rayson tan and their son.. their son is a big boy now.. and chen liping is super thin now.. haha! so that's abt it.. waited for the bus for a very long time to go to chinatown.. reached there, queue at fo ya shi is super long so didn't queue and looked at the display cars.. or hua che or smth.. don know.. so ya.. walked to a busstop so far away.. :( and i just got home.. time: 2am.. sian...

i don know wat to type now.. just that XX and paula draw nice pictures.. yeah.. just for XX, must edit 'smth'.. haha! otherwise the picture is just nice.. :D ciao.. so sian.. :(

today's a fine day. overall. haha! first period, EL. had a Paper 1 test. used up some vocab phrases that i picked up from a book yesterday. i am so hardworking. LOL! jkjk. now i am slacking before doing my chemistry hmk which i must do for 1hr and 45 mins straight. wish me luck. haha! and i haven do 2004 paper. maybe i have touched it when studying for MYE, but i don know where are the works. so EL was kinda ok? i don know. i really have no feelings for EL. i find it an outlet like blogging, that can be express in EL instead of chinese that needs all that strokes and stuff. so ya. did question 1. i think my compo has no link to the question at all.

next up is amath. class was noisy and couldn't settle down on time and mrs tan scolded us and she told mrs neo and mrs neo told us off. lol. so amath. the rev ex was do-able. haha! was kinda proud of myself. LOL! and MS SARAH THOMAS provoked me. haha! was quite angry for a moment but soon we just talk normally. haha! we are like so cool. haha! so amath lecture tomorrow and i so love mrs tan PL. she's the best math teacher i ever had. second fav teacher is my primary 6 math teacher. she's like mr TKH. that teacher literally slapped my classmate for not doing well for a test, and that guy didn't want to heed her advice to drop to em3 for easy math? i think it was smth like this. i cant rmb. so ya. but the guy didn't wan to drop to em3 and my teacher slapped him. and he started crying. soon, he dropped to em3 and he did well there. at least his weak subject didn't bring his score down. so yeah. second best teacher. haha!

so after amath, was physics. radioactivity is so so so dangerous. don play play. haha! miss PCK althought i seldom watch his shows. lesson was ok. didn't understand some part of the topic and asked mrs neo and she explained to a grp of us. yq, sx, tf, teng, wr and myself. and finally everything's clear. cool! oh ya! thanks haniel for the yummy wheat bar! it was so nice! praise the chef! haha!

quoted this verse from a song for you. song: i don love you by my chemical romance
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When you go
Don't ever think I'll make you try to stay
And maybe when you get back
I'll be off to find another way
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I don't love you
Like I loved you
Yesterday
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it's over.

WORST DAY OF MY LIFE! DON ASK WHY AND DON TELL THEM WHY! thanks. onli a few close friends know and i don wanna recall abt it no more and talk abt it no more.

chinese paper. conclusion: lost 4marks for close passage. comprehension: no time to finish lost 8marks. compo: fortunately exercises i done in close passage book have contents that are similarly close to the question i chose. heng. haha. overall: praying hard and do my best for oral and listening. the stress experienced for today's o lvl was immense. wonder how i can survive the nex few exams.

anyway, had dnt today. had great fun with the guys and also mr juffri, ms seah. so ya. k class girls are a great joy to be with. shrek ears are hilarious. haha! no lunch for the whole day till i reached home. mum came back early from batam with pizza and lots of donuts. donuts are too sweet. pizza was great. cant wait for my turn next next sat. yeah! haha! gonna buy lots of stuff there.

i don know wat to blog today just that today's one sucky day. crap you man.
don understand why when i tell certain guys, and they started laughing. you guys don even care. watever.

i won't regret no more.

ooo... today was a pleasant day. went out at 11am to tampines library to meet haniel for chinese revision. honestly, the revision did help a bit. just by gauging myself for the various test papers i have done. but it is still not enough. currently, i have the mindset of killing the paper on that day and after which don regret for doing that paper and getting the results. i am afraid that i would just suddenly black out and hence not know anything abt chinese.. i rmb my experience during PSLE. i psyched myself into a this-is-an-ordinary-school-test-but-must-give-all-you-have mindset. but eventually, throughout the paper, i kept looking out of the window(was sitting beside window) and kept staring at this particular bird which always stands on the same tree and faced towards my direction. 4 days(?) passed by quickly and that bird didn't abandon the tree but instead came back everyday. haha! it was my companion, my 'guardian' during that time. i believe the invigilators noticed that i kept looking out the window but it beats looking at the table beside me. so ya, they didn't say anything to me. i just carried on looking outside. the bird managed to calm me down and allowed me to have a clear mind before tackling the 'hard' math questions.

often, people tend to get complacent. yes, they achieved high marks for their exams, such as PSLE, O LVL, A LVL and the list goes on. they get posted into the good schools and they start telling themselves, "aiyah, in such a good school and high _____(exam) marks, why should i worry?". from that point of time, their results drop and they still take it slightly and think to themselves the teachers never teach well, and start blaming everyone. last friday, my mum complained to mrs chee abt this teacher. i was quite angry with the complain cause it is not entirely that teacher's fault and it was in the past. why rake it up? i just stood embarrassed in front of mrs chee and kept quiet. anyway, back to present. O LVLS are coming and chinese is our first paper, this monday. on one hand, i want to get it over and done with. but i still want to it be delayed so i wont face it that early.

for this few days, i have been telling myself to do my very best for o lvls. but there's always the sense of fear that holds me back. presently, my subjects are arnd Bs and they are close to As. but there are subjects like english and comb. hum that makes me scared. so wat i am getting Bs now? i must put in more effort to achieve my As for that 75 mark but it is never enough. who knows how easy the papers will be? to be in peace with myself, i must reach the point of extreme revision and confidence. basically to be extremely good for the papers so i can get my marks and hence get my As and a bright future will be waiting for me. can you imagine ruining your future while in secondary 4? at this moment of time, if i ever fail english for O lvls, i will literally die. seriously. i don think i can face the reality then. to not allow such a thing to happen to me, i swear that i am going to improve my english. by prelims, if i don get a B4 and above, i might go crazy. but i will do my very best to improve it again then. will it be too late? i hope not. 2 weeks ain't much. grammar is my weakness now and i really want to fix this weak foundation of mine. some of you may be laughing now, "she's just bullshitting, she won't even get a B4!".however, i don really care abt it. laugh for i care and so what? life still goes on. it is not as if you are controlling my life and by laughing at me ruining my life. if you have that kind of mindset, i am sorry, you are being plain childish and well, have fun doing it since you are wasting your time. so ya, thanks for wasting time on me. i feel honoured.

anyway, after letting off my steam, my grandma and mum insist on me having english tuition. before typing this post, i wasn't ready for tuition. now, i am prepared and all set. i am going to tell my mum to quickly get me a good teacher. any recommendations? nearby is best. near school is ok too. school's vicinity has a lot of tuition centers. most probably will be around school.

to sum it all up, revision was great today and i must admit some papers in the assessment book are hard and that's another reason for being afraid. now i am going to do close passages from the book haniel gave today. going to do at least 10 today in such a short period of time. but to not regret, i am not going to take my revision for granted and cry when getting my results. i must do myself proud. till then, i am not coming online tmrw to revise chinese till i finish the close passage book, until i feel that that's enough, i am all geared up and ready to kill the paper, will i sleep. tmrw's bedtime: 9.30pm sharp. rise and shine? 7.30am. the sun will have rose from the horizon by then, the start of a new day. good luck to all. give all you got. finish the paper once and for all without regretting in the future. think about the future and not the present. be forward-looking. whoa. SS.

i regretted once back in primary 4 when i was streamed into the worst class for primary 5. but i took things in my hands and into the best EM2 class in primary 6. i want it to be the same again this year, and get into MJC. my choice for my future. here i come.

thanks for revision today haniel. tell him to shut up btw. what a friend you have.

i agree with mr lee, i must put everything aside now. till we finish our o lvls. see you soon.

midnight train to georgia.. nice song.. :D by gladys knight..

today went to school to collect report book.. my bro's cher was mrs chee and she commented that both my bro and i are poles apart.. both extremes.. haha! it is good? anyway.. failed english.. comments as i said was funny.. haha! shall add in later.. mrs neo said my EL is poor cause as commented, it is entirely due to my grammar.. so ya.. i am gg to do smth abt this.. i really cant afford to ruin my future cause of my grammar... shoot to all my lessons for grammar in primary school and kindergarten.. i must have not listened then.. so now.. the price to pay.. chiong all the way.. help is very much needed here.. haha! gonna see mrs koh? mdm yeo? for my english.. before i die.. :( so ya.. and then comments for comb hum. subject is affected by language.. AH!!!! EL!! ok.. MUST MUST DO SMTH ABT IT!! ok.. so that was abt it.. took report book and went to meet haniel for chinese revision.. he's quite ok bah... didn't finish one paper though.. ended with him having a headache after like.. 1hr of chinese.. i was mean.. haha! so we went to makan ba chor mee.. nice stall. we always go there for lunch... well.. at least twice? haha! then came back to school and played scrabble.. quite ok bah.. lost to haniel by 30+ points.. haha! soon we left to go home.. was arnd 1+pm.. dad came and fetched me back.. so yeah... overall, did learn a bit but still not much.. chinese paper in 2 days time.. i am neutral yet i sometimes do have the urgency to do smth for the paper.. my parents sort of don realli think much of the paper and keep asking whether i can go out.. and yada yada.. got pissed off too la... explained so many times but still there were repeated questions... sian... GOOD LUCK TO ALL FOR MONDAY'S MT O LVL PAPER!

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why don't people admit how they feel?
for me, i think that they are just fearful of rejection.
but how would we know whether it is going to be a rejection,
when we don't ever try?

however, it is never too easy to muster that courage.
i really need an answer.
i don wanna waste too much time on thinking,
and getting pissed off for i-don-know-why.

if this goes on,
as my friend said,
things won't be the same again.
and i do fear that. man...

the cold war i started,
should end.
i doubt you don even care that a cold war is on,
since i would always apologise first, and it would end.

i don expect you to say sorry,
at least understand why i am pissed off.
i doubt you know i am angry with you.
i think there's smth realli wrong here..

i think i am wrong from the very start.
i've been fanatizing for a long period.
should i end it now before it is too late?
or should i let it carry on?
give me the word and i know what to do.
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ooo.. today was supposed to be the last day of term 2, semester 1. haha! but realli, i don feel the sense of holidays at all and i shldn't have it at all until after o lvls.. today was an ok day bah... erm.. activities period.. nth much just some admin stuff for the charity program for the younger students.. we are old liao.. haha! so it was a survey and a grp of us just answered the questions based on our knowledge, especially huan wen's.. haha! so ya.. then we had english was kinda plain.. just did compre exercise.. i don know why.. suddenly so sian.. :(

then we had geo elec... gg through papers.. and ya.. me and xuan started scribbling on teng's table... haha! just teasing each other.. then was... erm.. recess... makan spaghetti and my whole blouse kena tomato sauce.. but nevertheless, the spag is still nice.. :D thanks auntie! haha! then went back to class.. studied physics.. quite ok la.. the test was nex and the question wasn't specific.. which rebound and one more.. cant rmb.. so luckily changed my answer at the end..

had dnt later.. was not too productive than yesterday.. basically finished most parts alreadi.. but i believe i still have a long way to go.. haha! must do dnt during hols too.. :( haha! nvm la.. finish it all, i happy liao... so tired now.. after dnt went back to class to do report book.. i am amused la.. my comments were kinda weird? i must admit the comments aren't true at all.. sarah can prove it all.. :D haha!! tmrw then i say.. today don say.. not fair to those who haven take yet.. :) so went back with julia.. bought subway for lunch.. no more daily special meal!!!! SAD!! :(:( it is the onli meal i wld buy la! it is , i believe the most reasonable meal? LOL! yea.. watched CSI miami.. ok episode.. then it was AI!! finale! it was a good show with fantastic songs sang by various singers and yeah.. the songs were good.. :D glad that jordin won! haha! she was good la.. don understand paula.. she cant decide... but i think it is diffiult to be the bad guy.. and i totally understand that.. it applies to my life now.. i think u know it.. :(

so yeah.. that's abt it.. comments in report book is kinda a joke to me bah.. the teachers don believe.. haha! ok... shall be good from now on.. this sat there's a POC show price is cheap want to go but cant.. O lvls.. tmrw gg to sch at 7.30 for report book and after that, staying back to study chinese... must do well for chinese!

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i wan to be able to communicate with u like before..
how i treated u were just to see how much u care..
i guess i am wrong..
i think someone, whom i reject knows who are u.
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i feel so troubled now... need to talk to someone.. :( ur phone's confiscated, u r busy, u r not replying.. i have no idea who to talk to.. i don know how u are now and u don reply my messages when u asked me to message u.. hope everything will be alright tmrw..

look at the yellow bear k? stay happy always... :)


i am having a big headache and feel super tired now.. at this condition, i will just blurt out all my unhappiness..

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we sat down with our friends,
with an empty seat beside ourselves.
we are far away,
but are we thinking alike?

i may have just left the seat empty,
as there was just too many seats.
i may have just left the seat empty,
hoping u will come fill that seat.

but i think to myself.
'i am just dreaming,
i am just fanatizing,"
all this cant come true.

i am just asking too much.
we aren't that close as before.
or are we just too shy?
i don know...

can we do something abt it?
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today.. haiz.. kinda emo day? i was super tired in class and hence didn't talk to sarah much and she was also kinda stress.. so ya.. math lesson was kinda cool.. i actualli learnt smth! LOL! ok.. then we had.. erm.. recess.. smth funny happened between yongjie and weihao.. ya.. and julia was sick so had to leave early.. accompanied her to get a cab.. mrs lee is just great la.. haha! hope julia's alright now.. believe she's coming to school tmrw.. chinese was quite quiet today.. i think i am realli tired today.. no energy to talk or anything.. haiz.. even in chinese remedial got big headache and ya.. dnt remedial didn't have the energy to communicate with others.. just wanted to be alone.. haiz.. wonder wat's wrong with me.. :( so had that pep talk.. yeah.. english must be my first priority now.. but not until after my chinese paper.. after chinese paper i am gg to chiong and start revising like everyday.. hope sarah's alright now..

reached hm super late.. stayed back for dnt.. managed to do a lot la.. quite pleased.. :D then watch AMERICAN IDOL!! ok.. performance from blake is just ok for me.. i prefer jordin's more than his.. i love love love the last song they sang!! THIS IS MY NOW! it is super nice to listen to la.. now it is repeating on my music player.. haha! go hear ppl! the lyrics are realli meaningful that's most probably the reason why jordin cried.. i think the line "so i looked around, i cant believe the love i see," it is really meaningful.. i think it is abt looking forward to ur future and don be held back by ur past, ur friends, family are arnd u to help.. i think it is like this? LOL! overall, nice song..

tmrw is our SPA exam and ya.. haven study yet.. LOL! intend to do it tmrw instead.. now do homework first then study for chinese.. basically reading format and newspapers agn.. i am kinda afraid yet confident for chinese paper.. the rev ex does help.. so yea.. good luck to all this coming monday!
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THIS IS MY NOW
http://www.americanidol.com/songwriter/index.xhtml
go listen to the song now!
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i dont know wat to do now...
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ooo.. today... interesting day.. smth major happened in sch and we shldn't talk anymore abt it.. the female teacher, mrs jasmawati rite? anyway, she's a funny teacher but she manages to put her point across.. yeah.. i don know why could some juniors can actualli laugh while mr koh talked abt it.. so ya.. i almost slept when mrs khairul talked abt the girl's thingy.. lol.. was so so tired.. yesterday slept late.. for some special reason.. :D but i slept later after you... haha.. was reading newspapers.. chinese.. haiz.. so ya.. then.. we had chinese.. lesson wasnt bad.. aiyan just same old same old.. kaypo and just funny.. haha! ok.. she's very funny la.. fullstop.. :D yeah.. macs lunch was supposed to be today but mrs lee not free so better not.. haha.. after o lvl perhaps?

yesterday at night had a long talk with shi xiang.. abt his religion.. realli interesting to know more abt his religion.. christianity btw.. haha! red rain.. see how first? so ya.. sarah said she's gg to be baptised this sun.. she's gg to be committed to christianity.. that's realli cool la.. congrats! haha! that's was abt it last night.. so back to today...

had great fun with sarah, paula and julia... haha! very lame la.. ask sarah and she will tell u how the annual meteor shower look like... LOL! baseball.. best game ever.. LOL! a lot of bloopers u can say.. haha! terence tay is a great bat-er.. pro.. i don know what's the rite word.. so ya.. he can hit the ball to the far end and everyone will be like run, run, run, homerun! lol!! one word: FUN! haha!

went back to class.. everyone stood by the window and started talking.. plainly teasing each other but still, had great fun! the wind was exceptionally cooling.. :D sx complained halfway said we blocked his wind.. LOL! then it started raining and the whole weirong, my table got ants.. like everywhere... yinmei, evonne and myself, we started finding the source and it was the along the window.. the ants were crawling everywhere la.. and my whole body started to feel itchy.. lol... but fortunately sch ended.. then we had the test.. quite do-able.. mdm goh was tearing the name tags or smth? for our o lvls.. and the noise was so so so so IRRITATING! i went crazy for a moment of time.. julia was there she told me to chill.. LOL! so overall was a great day.. went home with sarah... talked a lot.. :D

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things has finally changed.
and ya, i am glad. :)
hope it will stay the same always,
and even better. till then...
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today is a monday which means double periods for the whole day.. LOL! started off with the GCE O LVL briefing in the audi.. followed by mr lee's, and mr koh's talk.. two great talks actualli... mr koh as usual, his talk is always enjoyable and mr lee's always motivational.. like always.. haha! so ya.. it did motivate me la.. i need to realli do up a plan for the hols to study.. after chi o lvl, i am so gg to chiong... mrs neo talked to teng and myself today.. she told us we shld buck up for our english, don throw away all ur other subjects because of english.. yeah.. i am gg to do smth abt it.. i realli don wan to die under the hands of english... it is realli horrible for my future to be ruined because of english.. so ya.. the pingpong balls we used today, 5 were missing and mrs neo wans to collect 50cents per ball if no one returns.. ya.. and currently onli one got back.. which means i need to take out like 2 dollars from the class fund.. :( haha!

after which was chemistry.. had practical.. the two guys on my left were having a distilled water match and smth funny happened.. lol.. and weirong had to run.. it was realli bad.. haha! then we had to deal with alkali, acids.. super unlucky la both biondi and myself.. the beaker spout broke, and the alkali didn't pour out properly and it ended up on our hands... and soon, our hands started to turn red.. and the feeling was realli stingy.. painful.. now can still feel the pain.. so after washing our hands it was much better.. so note, don play with alkali.. wonder wat the concentration of the alkali was.. must be quite high? so ya.. that's abt it for chem.. then chinese... lol.. funny la.. mrs lee keeps ignoring aiyan... and aiyan got fed up.. then onli when aiyan got fed up, mrs lee turn to her.. then aiyan tried asking her smth but the moment she started talking, mrs lee turn away agn and talk to someone else.. LOL! aiyan's face was priceless.. haha! aiyan is just funny la.. :D so tmrw we are having a macdonald lunch? sponsored by mrs lee.. she's RICH la.. aiyan totalled price mrs lee needs to fork out for the lunch (>$186) and she said ok! LOL! that's super rich! two hundred dollars just fork out.. and she somemore say she poor.. so ya... so tmrw, macs meal.. cool.. :D

we had amath after chinese.. amath was ok.. i understand the concept but realli need to revise a lot.. i am weak in calculus must work hard.. so yea.. had chinese mock test after that and i was so tired.. ppl talking, very irritating.. but ok paper... then walked to bus stop with julia and aiyan and then went hm with brenda and mich.. know a lot of things.. *snigger* :D so that's abt it...

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we aren't like before.
we cant talk like before.
we cant look into each other's eyes like before.
we cant continue our conversations like before.

my friend asked me,
"is it confirmed?"
i replied,
"i am having doubts now,
although it is,"

so are we or are we not?
i agreed the first,
but denied the second.
soon, mr three came along.

we agreed in the end.
but is it going to be the same later?
i am having my doubts,
but i hope it is the prior.

i guess i am just sensitive,
or am i just right?
enlighten me,
for i am dying in this fight.
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today was a boring day.. woke up early in the morning.. had breakfast went to cut hair.. looks kinda horrible.. ok.. just wish it grows back quickly.. :D so erm.. just got back from praying.. and yeah.. just that... the dog at the temple was fierce to my sis when she approached it and after which the dog started breathing heavily and nex thing i saw was the dog lying on the floor, unconscious.. hope it is ok now.. haha! so that's abt it la..

*edited- sorry dave!
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If we were a movie
You'd be the right guy
And I'd be the best friend
That you've fall in love with
In the end we'd be laughing
Watching the sunset
Fade to black
Show the names
Play the happy song
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how will u react if i quoted this song and sent it to u?

i shld edit my previous post.. delete the hating part.. not worth wasting my feelings over her.. ppl don believe that i could actualli dislike her... i feel like a dummy now.. i get mocked by her and i cant freaking do anything abt it.. blame myself for hating you..



today was a good day basically... haniel smsed me in the morning assuming i was in sch too.. but nah. saturday leh.. unless got school work then i wld go to sch otherwise nope.. haha! so woke up at 10, watch tv till 11.. went out with mum and grandma to metro sale at expo.. realli cool since i bought lots of stuff.. clothes, bermudas, shoes... yeah.. not bad.. will be getting more from batam trip this coming june.. i got a pair of sandals and it looks darn cool la... maybe i would wear for my trip.. suit the whole exotic getaway? with a shopping centre beside it.. LOL! nex nex week is our chi o lvl.. very fast and i am doing my studying now. wat a late bloomer.. haha! wrong word i know.. ok.. that's abt wat happened today..

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i don know wat's gg on now.

i messaged you yesterday, the day before,

and you didn't reply.

i don understand why.



i wish your phone's keypad has broken down,

or you are just not replying because of your phone bill.

but a part of me think that you are just ignoring me.

which one is the exact situation?



give me an answer,

give me a clue,

either stop wat's gg on now,

or let it continue on.



i am being misled by you,

i am being misled by my feelings.

i wish i could stop this,

but i still believe in you and me.

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today.. lol! started off with principal mr lee talking abt happy slapping.. mr juffri commented abt it to me after sch when i went in for dnt.. he said all these actions are started by the british.. i think americans but still it is the wrong behavior for educated ppl to act that way.. who in the right mind wld do such a thing? i find it realli unbelievable for students in singapore to actualli be culprits of such crimes.. so after a short intro to happy slapping and taopok.. ok.. still both are realli silly actions.. so after which we took back our health booklets and ya i am healthy.. so went back to class form teacher showed us our marks.. did realli badly.. deproved.. especially chemistry.. damn demoralising.. haiz... so L1R5 is 25 i guess.. shld be la.. stupid la!! i am so gg to do smth with english and geo elec.. overall 2A2s.. for dnt and emath.. emath is sort of lucky.. but hope to maintain.. need to secure as much As as possible.. now i am left with hopefulli chem, english, comb humans, chinese.. chinese B3.. haiz.. wasted.. going to chiong now.. as in after blogging.. must be serious liao.. after results.. SS.. oh shoot! i need to see mrs tan! OMG! i am so dead! my SBQ la.. haiz.. must do smth abt SS too.. most importantly english then humans, then chem.. so after marks... which was SS lesson, 3periods of math.. and it was basically doing corrections.. mrs tan gave us somehow a free period.. but she still wan us to finish corrections.. so ok.. i think i might have disappointed mrs tan.. :( maybe i did not but i do somehow feel gulity.. ok.. so after math was recess and then chinese.. watched i not stupid2 agn.. boring episode.. lame too.. so after that was english.. i forgot wat we did but i was talking to evonne and yin mei for the first period when mdm yeo asked us to do corrections.. LOL! basically one free period.. so ya.. three of us discussed abt the language of modern day ah-lians? LOL! those words like 'lorve', 'worz' yada yada.. they shld have a dictionary for this..ya.. after that was a grammar exercise.. my grammar sucks big time.. need to do a lot of work now.. partner? must help me k? so ya.. that was it for today and we had chinese mock paper which i slept during the first half.. was so tired.. but managed to have some time to check answers which i copied or wrote the wrong no. wrongly.. luckily got check..

lots of hmw to be handed up nex week.. dnt is sort of put into a standstill.. but i need to do up a sketch of the new part of my product.. anyway, after mock test went for dnt.. asked mr juffri whether i could do this design but helped him with the souvenir for the prefect investiture. i must say that they are realli disorganised and lack of time by the improvements they want to do on the product.. i helped for like 3hrs and ya.. jiahao was there so i wasn't alone.. haha! mr juffri and i talked abt the upcoming chinese o lvls, my results, and also one impt thing.. two ex-seniors came back to sch and went into dnt workshop.. there were two girls.. one will be A and the other B.. so A is a girl whom mr juffri had helped since the start of her project and B, his help onli came in at the end.. so both entered the room, i was there with 4 counsellors who came in late.. ok.. anyway.. so B went in and said hi to mr juffri and talked to mr juffri.. but A didn't.. after they left, mr juffri said, 'sometimes it doesn't pay to be helpful, u won't be appreciated,' and he told me abt the two girls.. and ya i feel that it is really ungrateful of A to be like that after all mr jurri did for her folio.. haiz.. so ya.. note to ppl, must be appreciative to ur teachers and to those whom have helped u.. so back to helping, the new sec 3 counsellor came in later and both of us started talking.. she wanted to give me a really cool CG toy.. but i said nvm la.. cause i thought she needed it for the ceremony.. ok.. i have major english probs.. haiz.. anyway.. so i didn't take it.. i soon went home with jiahao.. he waited in sch for i don know how long for a tablet.. LOL! so he finally got it and went home..

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today.. haiz.. kinda an ok day? smth happened in class and sort of affected me.. anyway don wanna talk abt it.. so erm.. ama, xiang didn't come today.. haiz.. xiang still have fever.. ama i don know.. results are bad la.. below my expectations.. mrs yeo told me i could get there but cldn't so ya.. she suggests study grps and also revision timetable.. so ya.. i will be doing it this week.. starting nex week.. JIAYOU!!!! ok.. results.. i think a very low L1R5.. as in.. high la.. ok.. watever.. haha! so erm.. i would give a range of 30 to 20 la.. that range which is realli realli bad liao..

read yq's blog, julia's and Lp's blog.. all commented on the showing us our results across the board.. and i must say.. it is indeed disturbing.. with classes walking by lookin at our results and stuff.. it is embarrassing but.. for me, maybe onli me... it is sort of a motivation to push me on and ya.. we shld see it this way.. for physics.. i realli don understand why we shld rejoice when we won E class by a margin.. ok.. fine we can rejoice for a moment, but we cant get complacent thinking that there's one other class below us and stuff.. we must do better than this and ya.. not onli beat E class but also D, A, and eventually B.. u think aiyah it isn't possible to win B class la.. compare with them for wat? but u never know till u try.. and by comparing with someone of lower standard than u, one will never improve.. onli with a better opponent, will u grow.. just as wat mr singh said i think.. ok.. anyway, ya.. we may have beaten E class.. so nex step D class, then A and finally B.. we can do that! we realli can.. have confidence in urself and ur answer.. reali everything is in your head.. understanding a concept is realli impt.. that's most probably the key to mastering the topic.. yes.. after many times of showing the results ya we do get sick though.. haiz.. but that's the way the teachers intend to motivate us.. the win over E class is also a good boost for all of us.. so ya.. C class can do physics! :D gonna do better!

next up.. lol.. i think i wld call him Dave.. don ask me who and why i call him that. just saw the name on my story book.. dave is a realli cute dude.. he's willing to do things most guys won't do for this girl and i realli respect him for that.. i must say that that girl is realli fortunate.. hope she says yes. :D he's my neighbour whom i have grown up with closely.. so don bother guessing anyone from sch... lol.. so ya.. all the best for him!

no offence to my classmates in the last thrid para.. but JIAYOU! NENG ZUO DAO DE!

tues. worst day of my life.. i almost had depression.. luckily for two great friends who were there for me.. sarah and haniel.. haha... anyway.. got back results agn.. got back.. chem MCQ, EL compre and Emath P2... i am kinda surprised with my emath results.. i thought i screwed that paper but i scraped a decent B3.. phew.. haha... EL.. needless to say screwed the whole paper agn... i realli realli wanna give up.. but hopefulli i can improve during the hols.. most depressing results.. chem.. a stupid C5... way below my expectations... i really need to have a one-to-one talk with the chem paper and myself.. i need to direct my attention to the weakest topic and solve the prob.. my chem is gg downhill now.. haiz... sometimes when u console a friend, it is a form of love don get any form of reciprocation.. heard great news? lol! kinda good actualli highest for dnt 86.5 out of 100.. very good la.. possible winners? anyone.. haha! it is unexpected la.. wait till tmrw and we shall know.. hope i can get an A and then i shall be consoled.. went home today reading through my papers.. wondering where i have gone wrong.. and sickeningly most mistakes are careless.. haiz... WASTED! called my mum on the way home.. and then told her i did badly.. and she started asking is it because my studyin method wrong or not.. and told me to buck up for the nex papers.. so ya.. i cried after that.. i felt a sense of stress on myself.. from myself.. reached home changed into a comfortable shirt and went to the park to exercise.. just ran arnd the park... sat at the swing and just emo-ed and just thought abt a lot of stuff.. just wanna breathe... so carried running and went hm after 30mins...

reached home. ate mantou.. and ya.. nice.. and just slacked in front of tv watching drama serial and soon bro came home.. hate him.. find trouble immediately he come home.. just wanna watch tv also cannot..

i was there for you yesterday but are u there for me today? i think i am heading towards the wrong direction... maybe u are not the one.. maybe i am asking too much... maybe i am reading too much into it.. why must there be 'maybes'? maybe i am just finding excuses.. it is not the time now.. can i let go? i shall.. i realli hate this feeling...

monday... haiz.. got back a lot of papers.. namely EL summary, Physics MCQ, Chem Section A & B, all chinese and amath P1... overall.. erm.. disappointing? english is confirm i-wanna-die-liao feeling.. i think i might just break down from the freaking poor el results.. the feeling of tearing the paper into half has occurred to me twice and it happened agn today.. it is sort of a feeling that u just wanna take the nightmare away from u.. ya.. so tearing the paper.. haha! i failed la obviously.. heard compre highest onli 19.5 lynette 4E so ya.. most will be arnd the 10+ range? me? fail agn i tell u... haiz.. compo i really have no confidence.. heard that the whole lvl disappointed the marker, ms puja.. haiz.. i am so screwed for EL la..

physics.. i don know whether it is good or not.. MCQ got 27? ya.. i think it is kinda bad liao.. haiz.. B3 i think.. hope the other sections can pull up the marks... have a bit of faith on this paper.. so ya.. hopefulli la.. Chem.. lecture was kinda stressing.. mr tan gg through the paper and u having the feeling of 'oh no! i think i do wrong liao!' and all that mixed feelings.. ya.. kinda disturbing.. haha! the last iron statue qn i was kinda surprised... got the answers rite and i rmb that time when i was abt to write the answer i asked myself why the question so vague so i wrote everything i know abt the process and heng the points are there.. phew.. haha! got 30 for tat section A and B did badly la.. 11.. sad.. haiz.. now MCQ left.. wonder how it can salvage my marks.. kinda depressing day for some friends.. haiz.. they were literally whinning the whole way home.. haha!! just listened to them and just tell them to chill and there's like other parts too so don worry too much yet.. i wonder how he is feeling now.. haiz... maybe i am just too sensitive... anyway... amath.. 52.. kinda sad too.. everyone getting 60plus and pro ms chow aiyan haha.. got 74.5.. power i must admit.. haha! chinese.. quite ok results.. can do better.. got 68.. okok? mr ziheng got 80 plus.. there's like extreme good and extreme poor ppl in my chinese class.. haha.. but i think overall average shld be quite ok i guess...

tmrw.. papers that i might get back.. lol.. erm.. section A and B for physics? hopefulli.. then.. eh.. english.. haiz. plus. chem MCQ and lastly emath or amath? emath P2 confirm die.. P1 hopefulli la.. chem MCQ i realli hope to do well.. at least a B bah...

so ya.. that;s abt the first day back to sch after a three days break... kinda used to the hols.. after chinese o lvl gg to chiong math.. weakest subject now other than EL.. i need help for EL too.. major help.. well great job to those who did well for exams and ya for o lvls, let's work harder! haha! ciao.. so tired.. haiz.. i just wan to be knocked out black when the sun sets without worries..

28may Chinese O levels P1 and P2..
9-10june Batam trip.. haha! fishing 'aka' shopping trip.. gg to get lots of things there la. cant wait actualli..
13june Electronics course.. cool course i hope?
17-19june Family chalet

yesterday was a great day went to downtown east for the mayday carnival and my nephew's first birthday... had subway agn, subway melt, but it is in a wrap very very nice.. yum.. haha! met up with my mum's friends and won a lot of toys? actually onli three.. haha! plus one more from my mum's friend... so ya.. then they went for a bath while i wandered arnd the whole place to find entertainment.. was so boring la.. boring to the extent that i could sleep.. haha! then went for jackpot and i have no idea whether they won any money or not.. oh ya.. don bother playing the arcade games that u need to move the clutch to grab the toy when the clutches are those weak and feeble type.. saw this i think sec 2 or 1 guy.. realli arrogant and he lost a lot of money.. lol! he was showing off in front of his female classmates and his guy friends... and the clutch keep missing the toy and ya.. he got pissed off and shouted loudly.. all the vulgarities just came out.. i just stood there and like laughed at him? lol.. no la.. just find him silly...

after mt mum's jackpot game, went to my nephew's birthday party.. his name is jayden and his elder bro is brayden.. lol.. guess their sister's name will be megan? lol! sang birthday song and went to downtown's arcade to play with my same age cousin.. lol.. had great fun with the bball machine, nascar game and time crisis.. haha! went back to the chalet and my cousins playing mahjong.. watched the ghost show and soon left.. the two brothers jay- and bray- followed too.. held on the one hand of brayden and and my cousin, edel held the other so my nephew he thought both edel and i are a couple and pulled our hands together and then kissed it.. lol! my cousin and i just laughed at each other... jayden was exceptionally adorable.. lol.. i am crazy over my nephews.. jayden extinguished his candle with his hand.. just swiped it and gone.. and he didn't feel the pain until much later and there was wax on his hand.. but didn't cry.. pro... haha!

today mummy's day.. my god ma came and yeah i wished my mum and my god ma.. ate a lot of stuff? i am so going to gain weight la.. i am gg to skate later..

ever experience the feeling of missing that very shot and then regretting it all? i am so hating this experience now..it was as what i wanted now last year but it is different now.. i was the slow one.. but to think of it.. i am asking too much from you.. sorry for that treatment then.. haiz...

i don know how to put this across to u.. i think i am just not prepared yet... the irony...

today was a great day!! haha! considering the fact that it rained in the morning, cancelling the jog-exercise outing with haniel.. LOL! 2hrs of pure jogging... ok la.. just too tired after a long long talk with yq and teng.. haha! i just realised smth.. but i must say it is a bad thing? and yq, i am worse.. haha! jiayou! and to teng and sx, sorry for being so direct.. just at the heat of the moment, i just asked.. lol! i think i might have scared you guys.. sorry! i know my eyes were filled with water cause of my yawns.. ya.. very tired.. haha! luckily today don need to wake up early and exercise.. LOL! haniel must be cursing now.. some other time k? i think i am gg to talk abt that thing to some close friends.. realli it is a bad thing la.. if it is so, how do i make myself known to that guy? ok.. fullstop..

woke up early in the morning at 10.30 which is not early.. went to the station and agreed to wait for ruiwen so ya.. met on the train and i caused her to run for the train so ya.. zhen bu hao yi si.. :D and i am realli realli slow.. haha! my cousin boarded the train too at the same cabin at the same time but i didn't see her and onli when i let her friend take the seat then i realised and she said i was slow.. LOL!! ok.. then we met with yap on the train too.. childish.. LOL!!!! both rw and i had the same idea so ya.. don even know whether u even come here.. :D met up with the guys and we left for the arcade.. guys were namely, yongjie, weihao, jiahao, weirong, teng, rw, yap, myself, biondi, mingjie i think that's all.. ya.. cant rmb. the whole arcade was dark.. :D after a while we left for the theatre and all of them were there.. total i think arnd 15 to 20 ppl? plus, yq, three PPG, terence tay and foo, zhiyi, shixiang, and somemore? lol! cant rmb.. just a lot of ppl.. spiderman 3 movie was touching.. cried during the ending.. for sandman.. goblin jr. a bit bah? haha! nice story but too much effects? the camera was shaking badly but story was great.. cast was better.. harry looks good when he smiles.. haha! sweet.. after movie, with pop corn on the floor and everyone going to toilet, the guys left for ecp.. went to get smth from my mum and went and bought lots of fastfood.. LOL!!! binging.. bought subway and long john silver.. my fav. is.. erm.. for fries, long john's and food, erm.. subway.. healthy la.. their sub-meal(?) are good. i am so gg to have one during family chalet.. yeah! haha! cant wait.. maybe tmrw? gg to escape tmrw.. for some carnival.. mayday carnival.. free entry to WWW and escape.. go win their toys.. haha... wu liao rite? nephew's birthday tmrw.. sun cousins coming.. haha! great! monday, results.. fast? ok.. i cant wait for it too?

tasks to fulfil:
1. prepare myself for the upcoming D&T requirements..
2. help haniel with blog
3. talk to sarah
4. get back my bear
5. know more between us
6. complete jog with haniel
7. get on with my life.. LOL!
8. watch harry potter OOP
9. POC III
10. SIMPSONS MOVIE. will be one hella lame show.. haha! cant wait!
11. wild hogs? kinda too late
12. family chalet!! haha! will be a different one this year.. :D

that's all.. and ya.. thanks for letting me know yq! :D
ppl go hear girls aloud: i'll stand by you.. maybe u guys have heard of it.. LOL!

my lips are so torn now.. ARH!! it realli hurts.. haiz.. haven finish studying and i am here blogging.. i gotta get out.. haha!

back after one jam packed week.. jam packed with tests of course.. we've finally finished all humans, pure chem and all languages! and half of each math which is super super good.. the tests are like hard la... haiz.. today's emath was a killer.. i did qn 3 and spent like 30 mins on it? and eventually didn;t write anything.. that pathethic.. haha! then i just flipped the page and realise i have no mood to do any more.. realli realli sian.. and suay suay, RUNNY NOSE! haha! sinus rite? lol.. must be because of this morning.. grandma on the fan claiming that my room is very stuffy when it is super cold.. and then, here i am now, attacked with flu.. why oh why.. haha! chem was ok.. MCQ did it very carefully.. no room for mistakes.. but some questions i have doubts.. like realli tikam tikam.. haha! but onli for two to three questions.. the others realli focused on solving.. 1hr then passed by..

paper 2.. haiz. i was so sick la.. now my nose is like red.. so i placed my head on my arm and continued writing... then mr tan walked passed me and looked at me.. lol.. i am in deep trouble.. haha! so i just continued writing.. i was realli awake and writing.. cldn't sleep anyway.. haha! then i 'woke' up and like speed through the paper like crazy.. still not enough time for some questions.. lost 14 marks.. and counting.. haiz... sad... nex paper physics.. hope to do well! :D nex week is kinda a slow week which is better.. phew.. haha! with onli physics on monday, no test on tues, amath on wed and emath plus dnt on thurs.. it is kinda fast.. :D cant wait for thurs!!! watch spidey! yeah!!! cant wait la!!! haha!

went out with yong jie and yap after sch... went to get glow-in-the-dark guitar picks.. thanks rod for the good recommendation! haha! 50cent for one pick.. and yongjie bought me two. haha! gg to learn from him.. :P after which went to the hawker centre to eat curry rice.. yap recommended.. was so full after that.. cldn't finish.. ya.. then yongjie left and we went to PP walked arnd.. bought beans... nice broad beans.. :D and yeah.. went to his tuition centre.. 7th storey.. super high.. haha! now just wanna sleep.. so tired!!! :( good luck to all for the last week!! NOTE! LAST WEEK! haha! thurs watch spidey... yeah! how cool will that be!?!? :-P cant wait!

P.S. HAPPY BIRTHDAY to my COUSINS, vanessa and natsha and also haniel's sis... LOL! ok.. yeah... yesterday was myeong wen and wei hao aka ah hao's birthday! so ya.. then sit just beside each other in the hall.. as in beside natasha.. haha! ~ciao...

so in love with songs of bon jovi! idol rocked this week! this ain't a love song by lakisha is great, blake's version is superb and bonjovi's new song making the memories are super super nice.. good check them out!