WED---- VALENTINE'S DAY!!

thanks to all those who gave gifts on this special day!! namely er.. sihui and vanhui for the cookies, Rod for merci, Jingmei, Mich, Brenda, haniel for the nicely wrapped presents.. then er.. rachel for the sweets.. terrence tay for the M&Ms Shixiang for the dove chocolate, Terrence foo for the biscuits, jun liang for the sweets.. er.. lenny for wang wang and sweets, limpon for the card and chocolates... thanks a lot to all those who gave! er.. nth much happened that day... just that the dustbins were filled with sweet wrappers in every class and there's a new teacher staff who is realli unfriendly...

thurday.. sort of the worst day my life.... except for some time during this day..

earlier morning on the way to sch.. dad's hand went numb and couldn't button his shirt and cant change the gear properly... he has high blood pressure and might get a stroke and with numbness it means a lot... i was realli afraid.. my bro was sitting behind slping smsing ppl and busy drying his wet hair.. don even know and care wat is happening in front.. i tried to massage my dad's arm but to no help.. his hand was still numb.. the song of 90.5 fm played a love song and the song actualli moved me to tears when i looked at my dad.. he looked so much older and weaker now.. at that moment i wanted to cry but couldn't. i didn't wan him to worry.. as i got off the taxi i saw my dad using his numb-ed hand to change gear but he had to try so hard to change it and i had to turn away as he drove away.. i looked at the back of the taxi with tears welling in my eyes.. throughout assembly i wanted to cry but couldn't in front of so many ppl.. went back to class and cried quietly behind.. managed to divert my attention away from this but ended up crying agn after reading the passage abt the mum giving her eyes to her ungrateful son..

went for EL after that with the same concern in my mind.. i 'indulged' myself with the work in front of me to take my focus away from this and it did helped.. with the common jokes from my table, i cheered up.. went back to class with xuan sitting beside me and she too made all sort of jokes to cheer me up.. realli glad to have friends like that... after school went home immediately talking to brenda abt this and she was there for me too.. reached home talked to tenghui and he helped me find out more abt stroke and i realli appreciate it.. he's realli a true friend.. i was lost and now i am tearing.. for once in my life my tears just came down like a tap that has been turned on and the water was flowing.. i wonder when this will stop and when will it be activated agn... i am realli scared... the tears feel cold as they roll down my cheeks and onto my white shirt.. i cant go down, i cant go down and face my family, i cant go down to face my family and show them how worried i am.. i cant go down and face my family and show them how worried i am and make them feel worst.. i am scared..

i realli appreciate it tenghui.. u r the onli one who cared... :)