tues. worst day of my life.. i almost had depression.. luckily for two great friends who were there for me.. sarah and haniel.. haha... anyway.. got back results agn.. got back.. chem MCQ, EL compre and Emath P2... i am kinda surprised with my emath results.. i thought i screwed that paper but i scraped a decent B3.. phew.. haha... EL.. needless to say screwed the whole paper agn... i realli realli wanna give up.. but hopefulli i can improve during the hols.. most depressing results.. chem.. a stupid C5... way below my expectations... i really need to have a one-to-one talk with the chem paper and myself.. i need to direct my attention to the weakest topic and solve the prob.. my chem is gg downhill now.. haiz... sometimes when u console a friend, it is a form of love don get any form of reciprocation.. heard great news? lol! kinda good actualli highest for dnt 86.5 out of 100.. very good la.. possible winners? anyone.. haha! it is unexpected la.. wait till tmrw and we shall know.. hope i can get an A and then i shall be consoled.. went home today reading through my papers.. wondering where i have gone wrong.. and sickeningly most mistakes are careless.. haiz... WASTED! called my mum on the way home.. and then told her i did badly.. and she started asking is it because my studyin method wrong or not.. and told me to buck up for the nex papers.. so ya.. i cried after that.. i felt a sense of stress on myself.. from myself.. reached home changed into a comfortable shirt and went to the park to exercise.. just ran arnd the park... sat at the swing and just emo-ed and just thought abt a lot of stuff.. just wanna breathe... so carried running and went hm after 30mins...

reached home. ate mantou.. and ya.. nice.. and just slacked in front of tv watching drama serial and soon bro came home.. hate him.. find trouble immediately he come home.. just wanna watch tv also cannot..

i was there for you yesterday but are u there for me today? i think i am heading towards the wrong direction... maybe u are not the one.. maybe i am asking too much... maybe i am reading too much into it.. why must there be 'maybes'? maybe i am just finding excuses.. it is not the time now.. can i let go? i shall.. i realli hate this feeling...