movie

sudden urge to blog.. anyway, thanks to everyone who gave me birthday gifts! really appreciate it! :D

today, went to watch harry potter movie, with, my cousins, ten of us. plus, yapseng, terence tay, shixiang, weirong.. yes. it was a relatively fun event.. with surprise lucky draw, my cousin won an awesome looking notebook with 3D image of the poster.. cool... haha... the guys actualli had seats at the back.. good la.. my mum told me all front seats all front seats.. then all back seats.. lol! movie was ok i guess? from the negative comments from my friends, and i actually told one of them to shut up, so ya sorry man... didn't mean to.. but it is really rude when u tell someone that the movie sucks when they are gg to watch it in another 10mins.. it will make the viewer have a bad impression of the movie and make her not have a gd time watching it... so like stop it..

movies to watch,
1)the condemmed
2)the simpsons
3)ratoulie or how-u-spell-it
4)die hard 4.0

but i doubt we have to watch at all.. i shld just go to a video shop and rent the movies.. the simpsons is a must watch though.. :D emma watson rocked the movie..

ok.. hereby announce that today's the best birthday-eve-day of my life! LOL! okok.. so wat actuallii happened today? haha! ONE BAND: RED RAIN! shixiang invited me to this concert and i don regret agreeing to come for it.. first met him and his church friends such as michelle, her two friends, stefanie and regina and then eugene and his friend at paya lebar mrt station.. mich was really a great person to talk to! haha! so we headed to the kopitiam at the post office before gg to the 12th storey for the concert at the church itself... chicken rice there wasn't good.. lol! so anyway.. it was raining but well, red rain is in town so yeah.. double rain.. how abt rain from korea? reached the audi and there i met leon oh, melson, weide wait.. wei de was at the mrt station too.. haha! and yeah.. sec 2 justin.. and chiwen.. oh ya! jennifer performed a dance and it was totally cool.. haha! the songs by switchfoot performed by pheonomenon(right spelling?) was totally good! the whole audi was filled with teens la.. just great atmosphere.. haha! soon red rain came out.. lights effect was superb! songs were great too! i like the song summer.. haha! literally jumped during the chorus.. haha! i jumped the whole night.. sx was in front of me and jennifer and rod, beside me.. so ya.. bumped into rod several times.. haha! but it was totally rocking! the floor was shaking when everyone jumped.. i guess this is the onli time i got so high.. haha! the other time will be during games carnival.. haha! although i don know much songs and not familiar with red rain at all, but after a short period of immersing myself in their songs, the concert wasn't a stranger to me.. haha! besides there were lyrics on the screen.. so no harm.. haha! i sang to the lyrics.. everyone did! so.. overall... GREAT CONCERT!! must invite me agn ok sx or rod? :D till nex year i will go crazy agn.. haha!

i am in love with this song: xin fu de ju li, liu geng hong. nice nice song.. great recommendation by sx.. and yea.. it is truely a romantic song.. and it speaks a lot in a relationship.. haha! good love song.. wouldn't it be nice if someone sings this song to you.. LOL! ok.. fanasty agn.. so erm.. had electronics course today.. joined class with some of 4C girls and 4E girls.. lessons were a breeze and they were enjoyable too... but i cant imagine myself gg through this course interminably.. lol. new word.. :D so tea breaks were cool.. the chicken wing was tasty..the red bean pancake is super nice.. i just love red bean.. YUM! haha! oh ya.. the tea was also good.. the place was huge.. they have white leaves at the bus stop.. they have lifts that move reali realli slowly.. we must have made a fool of ourselves today.. the west is realli a new place to us.. lol.. it seems like we are in a different world but we are all singaporeans... weird.. haha! and u suddenly have a feeling of deja vu.. like u've been here.. but it was not singapore.. weird? ok.. that was how i felt.. but still the west shall wait till the day i familiarise myself with the place.. yeah.. so lunch.. canteen food was great.. :D western food was good.. library had everything.. cool cool place.. students researching, playing diner dash, drinking bubbletea.. fools interrupting others.. ok.. anyway.. gave my belated gifts to yq and sarah.. whose b'dae i've forgotten agn.. LOL! jkjk... so got presents from aiyan, sihui and jasmine.. great cards! and i must conclude that aiyan is good. she can totally relate.. with the songs and the card. smart la aiyan.. :D i laughed when i revealed aiyan's gift.. it speaks a lot right aiyan.. lol! small secret... haha! so anyway, happy birthday rachel!

d&t later and nex day.. i don know.. whether to go for red rain's concert... erm.. i might need to stay hm.. try as hard as i can... i promised u right? sun family's chalet.. guitar practice with cousin.. cool... i need the bean's holidays asap pls... :D i cant find the song.. but realli highly recommended.. xin fu de ju li...

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i've always assumed that u would be there,
but from time to time,
i was proven wrong.
can you get me out of this crime?

seeing you with her,
makes my insides tingle,
and my mind, narrows.
can i not see her linger?

we had great times,
but it was always cut short.
can we have more time,
and make my smile broad?

the crossing of this river,
was never easy.
i was tortured with waves of jealously.
could u make my ride less queasy?

i've suppressed the hatred for a long time,
and today it had not muffled.
instead it had made me more defiant,
my feathers ruffled.

i shld just give up on you
and not bother abt saturday.
i cant get pass myself,
i have to find another way.
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cliche? haha!

bad ppl do exist.. don take it too hard.. it was a great thing to talk abt it though...

oo... ok.. i've not been blogging since.. last last saturday? well.. lots of things have happened during this long long period and here i am today blogging abt them.. haha!

so truncated.. i cant remember much abt that last week just that sarah thomas pon-ed school for the last two days.. well, at least i can concentrate better in class.. haha! and limpon couldn't come for EL and chinese because of her trip to indonesia.. so back then, we discussed abt class chalet. so yeah.. it was confirmed we are gg to have it.

last saturday. woke up early in the morning to prepare myself for the 2days 1 night batam trip at KTM resort. before leaving for harbourfront, went online to order the food for the bbq yesterday, monday. so it was ezb and the food was delicious.. the class cleaned the chicken satay in a matter of mins and stingray was also on the large.. LOL! it was wanted badly.. reward? haha! tasty sambal stingray? so anyway, batam trip. overall an ok experience.. the uncles on the trip will super hilarious.. they joked abt spa, money, food, practically everything la.. was really fun hanging out with the different uncles and aunties.. yeah.. and also! it is kinda funny when u meet a teacher's aunt on the trip.. LOL! my mum wore TKPSG's shirt on the last day. she was the organiser for the whole trip so ya everyone noticed her and her shirt so this lady talked to her abt TK and she was ms koh's aunt.. whoa. haha! wat are the chances? LOL! ms koh come better? haha! ok.. so ya mrs koh i presume, she asked how was ms koh as a teacher and talked abt ms koh and her daughter who was from tk too.. from band? yeah.. so ya.. i don know who but her daughter has left tk last year.. so ya.. band seniors.. anyway, got pictures from the trip.. just the place.. yeah.. it was really a plesant place.. except, u can totally hear frogs croaking at night.. and they are just outside your room.. haha! but overall. totally cool place.. the tour guide said that many indonesians will book rooms on new year eve, so they can watch our fireworks.. LOL! pro.. they actualli saved boat ride fair.. and u cant imagine how close the resort was from singapore.. i managed to contact ruiwen from the resort.. so ya.. rest assured and stay there, u will be away from singapore at all.. except when u get out from the resort for shopping and stuff..

so the pictures..

this is the resort's name. KTM RESORT.BATAM

they had go-kart? at the resort.. 20 sing for 40 mins.. so ya.. track is super small if that was the designated track.. they have many pool tables there.. and to me, the tables are huge.. it was situated at the dining area.. the background is the dining area.. breakfast was horrible.. seafood shld be just fine. since they are just beside the sea.. LOL! this are some rooms beside the lobby.. they are i guess smaller than my resort hse.. yeah.. it faces singapore directly though.. haha!
this is a rock which u can see clearly.. which means the sea is quite shallow? well, this is near the shore.. quite clear waters? nah.. haha!
ooo.. the resorts room, tents for the swimming pool from dining area.. u can see several huts at the background.. those are the resorts house..

the guan yin statue.. it is 21 m or feet tall? there was another small statue, erm.. one-third of this statues height.. the smaller one was made small cause the indonesia govt didn't allow a tall statue of guanyin.. but the owners decided to build a taller one facing singapore so that indonesia's govt cant see it.. haha!
ooo... this was taken from my resort which was up on a hill.. the red roof is the dinning area.. background? SINGAPORE! the tall bulidings and all that.. that is marina south? yeah.. oh ya! u can totally conclude singapore is a bright city.. from my resort room, u can literally see how bright the sky was above singapore and how dark the sky was at my resort.. u can see the stars at batam but not at singapore.. looks like we are too bright.. haha!
the back of one resort.. look at the length..
closer view.. they have a balcony for us too.. total coolness. the fishing area behind the dining area.. a lot of ikan billis..
the left view of the fishing area.. quite a cool pic cool place.. haha!
same left side.. my purpose while taking this pic was a desktop pic.. so ya.. the cliff is on the left so the right, can be filled with the icons.. haha!
fishing stand? LOL! it is a ledge for fishermen to stand on and fish..

a salt water millipede? this is half of the body from previous night's fishing..



three pics show the seawater-filled pool and a small pond beside it.. the red board i think states the prices to use the pool? i don know.. but if it was so, then it would be lame to pay and enter the dirty pool.. u shld see how yellow the water was.. the dining area.. fully air-conditioned by the sea breeze...
this is way to my resort room.. the one on the left is my room.. no. 2.. yeah.. they have a log built bridge to connect from the room to the rooms.. realli realli cool..
closer look at the bridge? the pond below it.. looks green too..
see? haha!

my resort.. no. 2..

the balcony?

overall view of the room from the side

i will update with more pictures after this week.. maybe never?

today's a great day i guess.. erm.. went out early morning to katong mall to register for a tuition class.. the teacher, mr lawrence is such a cool teacher. he has this english acsent and he told me what's my major prob. lol! so i think i would be gg for his lessons from this wed onwards? i shall decide later. so anyway, went for a long walk with my mum from katong mall, to katong shopping centre. so went into kim choo shop, and bought a wrist band there. it is so so cool! haha! i believe it is made out of rattan? it was on sale for 3 bucks. ex?

yea.. think so.. after buying, we headed for katong shopping centre and we had lunch there. chicken rice and we bought the freshly baked banana pies from the famous cake shop there. it was realli delicious! cant wait to have more. but now i need to seriously lose weight. i am not getting thin.. LOL! kk.. so that was about it.

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i guess you only know me when you need me.
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this song's for everyone out there. there's always someone around you.
Ni Ting Jian Le Ma- Sun Ho Yao Shan

vesak day.. lol.. slacky day.. didn't do much.. still confused with my choice.. but i think i shld ask mrs koh instead.. ask teng to join me.. haha.. so anyway, woke up at 1pm today and ate roti prata for breakfast. then headed down to TM for dinner. met haniel there.. he went to buy a bleach weapon from the cosplay shop there.. they are having a clearance sale and the things i believe, are kinda inexpensive yet exquiste. i intend to get a gift for my bro there.. soon.. not now.. so ya.. that's abt it? i don know wat to talk abt now.. haiz..

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to noname,
i don know wat to say to you. i am also irritated by wat you told me and i find that he is really annoying too.. he's just seeking the attention.. and i fear he might do smth silly with all his words, smses.. he has certainly changed a lot after that year rite? wat has actualli caused that change? someone near him? a disturbing event? or he just wants to be like that for all the attention he will get by being sucidal? honestly, i find it dumb on his part. he's contradicting himself.
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lol.. technically, today's vesak day... so happy vesak day! yesterday(?) sch was ok.. supposed to meet mrs tan (SS) and when i call her i don know wat the other party said.. cant hear at all so i just said thank you and hung up the phone. man... after that i told ms seah i would be going for dnt. and she said ok.. the nex thing we knew was that she told weihao, she didn't want to see anyone of us.. so ya.. i didn't go.. feel guilty now. anyway, bonvoyage to all dnt teachers going to europe tmrw.. they are so lucky la! europe leh! haha! so after truncated, we had a chem test.. relatively do-able.. i just sped through the paper.. writing i-don-know-what.. haha! don know la.. so sian now..

after sch went out with grandma and dajie to temple to pray for vesak day and we saw chen liping and rayson tan and their son.. their son is a big boy now.. and chen liping is super thin now.. haha! so that's abt it.. waited for the bus for a very long time to go to chinatown.. reached there, queue at fo ya shi is super long so didn't queue and looked at the display cars.. or hua che or smth.. don know.. so ya.. walked to a busstop so far away.. :( and i just got home.. time: 2am.. sian...

i don know wat to type now.. just that XX and paula draw nice pictures.. yeah.. just for XX, must edit 'smth'.. haha! otherwise the picture is just nice.. :D ciao.. so sian.. :(

today's a fine day. overall. haha! first period, EL. had a Paper 1 test. used up some vocab phrases that i picked up from a book yesterday. i am so hardworking. LOL! jkjk. now i am slacking before doing my chemistry hmk which i must do for 1hr and 45 mins straight. wish me luck. haha! and i haven do 2004 paper. maybe i have touched it when studying for MYE, but i don know where are the works. so EL was kinda ok? i don know. i really have no feelings for EL. i find it an outlet like blogging, that can be express in EL instead of chinese that needs all that strokes and stuff. so ya. did question 1. i think my compo has no link to the question at all.

next up is amath. class was noisy and couldn't settle down on time and mrs tan scolded us and she told mrs neo and mrs neo told us off. lol. so amath. the rev ex was do-able. haha! was kinda proud of myself. LOL! and MS SARAH THOMAS provoked me. haha! was quite angry for a moment but soon we just talk normally. haha! we are like so cool. haha! so amath lecture tomorrow and i so love mrs tan PL. she's the best math teacher i ever had. second fav teacher is my primary 6 math teacher. she's like mr TKH. that teacher literally slapped my classmate for not doing well for a test, and that guy didn't want to heed her advice to drop to em3 for easy math? i think it was smth like this. i cant rmb. so ya. but the guy didn't wan to drop to em3 and my teacher slapped him. and he started crying. soon, he dropped to em3 and he did well there. at least his weak subject didn't bring his score down. so yeah. second best teacher. haha!

so after amath, was physics. radioactivity is so so so dangerous. don play play. haha! miss PCK althought i seldom watch his shows. lesson was ok. didn't understand some part of the topic and asked mrs neo and she explained to a grp of us. yq, sx, tf, teng, wr and myself. and finally everything's clear. cool! oh ya! thanks haniel for the yummy wheat bar! it was so nice! praise the chef! haha!

quoted this verse from a song for you. song: i don love you by my chemical romance
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When you go
Don't ever think I'll make you try to stay
And maybe when you get back
I'll be off to find another way
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I don't love you
Like I loved you
Yesterday
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it's over.

WORST DAY OF MY LIFE! DON ASK WHY AND DON TELL THEM WHY! thanks. onli a few close friends know and i don wanna recall abt it no more and talk abt it no more.

chinese paper. conclusion: lost 4marks for close passage. comprehension: no time to finish lost 8marks. compo: fortunately exercises i done in close passage book have contents that are similarly close to the question i chose. heng. haha. overall: praying hard and do my best for oral and listening. the stress experienced for today's o lvl was immense. wonder how i can survive the nex few exams.

anyway, had dnt today. had great fun with the guys and also mr juffri, ms seah. so ya. k class girls are a great joy to be with. shrek ears are hilarious. haha! no lunch for the whole day till i reached home. mum came back early from batam with pizza and lots of donuts. donuts are too sweet. pizza was great. cant wait for my turn next next sat. yeah! haha! gonna buy lots of stuff there.

i don know wat to blog today just that today's one sucky day. crap you man.
don understand why when i tell certain guys, and they started laughing. you guys don even care. watever.

i won't regret no more.

ooo... today was a pleasant day. went out at 11am to tampines library to meet haniel for chinese revision. honestly, the revision did help a bit. just by gauging myself for the various test papers i have done. but it is still not enough. currently, i have the mindset of killing the paper on that day and after which don regret for doing that paper and getting the results. i am afraid that i would just suddenly black out and hence not know anything abt chinese.. i rmb my experience during PSLE. i psyched myself into a this-is-an-ordinary-school-test-but-must-give-all-you-have mindset. but eventually, throughout the paper, i kept looking out of the window(was sitting beside window) and kept staring at this particular bird which always stands on the same tree and faced towards my direction. 4 days(?) passed by quickly and that bird didn't abandon the tree but instead came back everyday. haha! it was my companion, my 'guardian' during that time. i believe the invigilators noticed that i kept looking out the window but it beats looking at the table beside me. so ya, they didn't say anything to me. i just carried on looking outside. the bird managed to calm me down and allowed me to have a clear mind before tackling the 'hard' math questions.

often, people tend to get complacent. yes, they achieved high marks for their exams, such as PSLE, O LVL, A LVL and the list goes on. they get posted into the good schools and they start telling themselves, "aiyah, in such a good school and high _____(exam) marks, why should i worry?". from that point of time, their results drop and they still take it slightly and think to themselves the teachers never teach well, and start blaming everyone. last friday, my mum complained to mrs chee abt this teacher. i was quite angry with the complain cause it is not entirely that teacher's fault and it was in the past. why rake it up? i just stood embarrassed in front of mrs chee and kept quiet. anyway, back to present. O LVLS are coming and chinese is our first paper, this monday. on one hand, i want to get it over and done with. but i still want to it be delayed so i wont face it that early.

for this few days, i have been telling myself to do my very best for o lvls. but there's always the sense of fear that holds me back. presently, my subjects are arnd Bs and they are close to As. but there are subjects like english and comb. hum that makes me scared. so wat i am getting Bs now? i must put in more effort to achieve my As for that 75 mark but it is never enough. who knows how easy the papers will be? to be in peace with myself, i must reach the point of extreme revision and confidence. basically to be extremely good for the papers so i can get my marks and hence get my As and a bright future will be waiting for me. can you imagine ruining your future while in secondary 4? at this moment of time, if i ever fail english for O lvls, i will literally die. seriously. i don think i can face the reality then. to not allow such a thing to happen to me, i swear that i am going to improve my english. by prelims, if i don get a B4 and above, i might go crazy. but i will do my very best to improve it again then. will it be too late? i hope not. 2 weeks ain't much. grammar is my weakness now and i really want to fix this weak foundation of mine. some of you may be laughing now, "she's just bullshitting, she won't even get a B4!".however, i don really care abt it. laugh for i care and so what? life still goes on. it is not as if you are controlling my life and by laughing at me ruining my life. if you have that kind of mindset, i am sorry, you are being plain childish and well, have fun doing it since you are wasting your time. so ya, thanks for wasting time on me. i feel honoured.

anyway, after letting off my steam, my grandma and mum insist on me having english tuition. before typing this post, i wasn't ready for tuition. now, i am prepared and all set. i am going to tell my mum to quickly get me a good teacher. any recommendations? nearby is best. near school is ok too. school's vicinity has a lot of tuition centers. most probably will be around school.

to sum it all up, revision was great today and i must admit some papers in the assessment book are hard and that's another reason for being afraid. now i am going to do close passages from the book haniel gave today. going to do at least 10 today in such a short period of time. but to not regret, i am not going to take my revision for granted and cry when getting my results. i must do myself proud. till then, i am not coming online tmrw to revise chinese till i finish the close passage book, until i feel that that's enough, i am all geared up and ready to kill the paper, will i sleep. tmrw's bedtime: 9.30pm sharp. rise and shine? 7.30am. the sun will have rose from the horizon by then, the start of a new day. good luck to all. give all you got. finish the paper once and for all without regretting in the future. think about the future and not the present. be forward-looking. whoa. SS.

i regretted once back in primary 4 when i was streamed into the worst class for primary 5. but i took things in my hands and into the best EM2 class in primary 6. i want it to be the same again this year, and get into MJC. my choice for my future. here i come.

thanks for revision today haniel. tell him to shut up btw. what a friend you have.

i agree with mr lee, i must put everything aside now. till we finish our o lvls. see you soon.

midnight train to georgia.. nice song.. :D by gladys knight..

today went to school to collect report book.. my bro's cher was mrs chee and she commented that both my bro and i are poles apart.. both extremes.. haha! it is good? anyway.. failed english.. comments as i said was funny.. haha! shall add in later.. mrs neo said my EL is poor cause as commented, it is entirely due to my grammar.. so ya.. i am gg to do smth abt this.. i really cant afford to ruin my future cause of my grammar... shoot to all my lessons for grammar in primary school and kindergarten.. i must have not listened then.. so now.. the price to pay.. chiong all the way.. help is very much needed here.. haha! gonna see mrs koh? mdm yeo? for my english.. before i die.. :( so ya.. and then comments for comb hum. subject is affected by language.. AH!!!! EL!! ok.. MUST MUST DO SMTH ABT IT!! ok.. so that was abt it.. took report book and went to meet haniel for chinese revision.. he's quite ok bah... didn't finish one paper though.. ended with him having a headache after like.. 1hr of chinese.. i was mean.. haha! so we went to makan ba chor mee.. nice stall. we always go there for lunch... well.. at least twice? haha! then came back to school and played scrabble.. quite ok bah.. lost to haniel by 30+ points.. haha! soon we left to go home.. was arnd 1+pm.. dad came and fetched me back.. so yeah... overall, did learn a bit but still not much.. chinese paper in 2 days time.. i am neutral yet i sometimes do have the urgency to do smth for the paper.. my parents sort of don realli think much of the paper and keep asking whether i can go out.. and yada yada.. got pissed off too la... explained so many times but still there were repeated questions... sian... GOOD LUCK TO ALL FOR MONDAY'S MT O LVL PAPER!

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why don't people admit how they feel?
for me, i think that they are just fearful of rejection.
but how would we know whether it is going to be a rejection,
when we don't ever try?

however, it is never too easy to muster that courage.
i really need an answer.
i don wanna waste too much time on thinking,
and getting pissed off for i-don-know-why.

if this goes on,
as my friend said,
things won't be the same again.
and i do fear that. man...

the cold war i started,
should end.
i doubt you don even care that a cold war is on,
since i would always apologise first, and it would end.

i don expect you to say sorry,
at least understand why i am pissed off.
i doubt you know i am angry with you.
i think there's smth realli wrong here..

i think i am wrong from the very start.
i've been fanatizing for a long period.
should i end it now before it is too late?
or should i let it carry on?
give me the word and i know what to do.
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ooo.. today was supposed to be the last day of term 2, semester 1. haha! but realli, i don feel the sense of holidays at all and i shldn't have it at all until after o lvls.. today was an ok day bah... erm.. activities period.. nth much just some admin stuff for the charity program for the younger students.. we are old liao.. haha! so it was a survey and a grp of us just answered the questions based on our knowledge, especially huan wen's.. haha! so ya.. then we had english was kinda plain.. just did compre exercise.. i don know why.. suddenly so sian.. :(

then we had geo elec... gg through papers.. and ya.. me and xuan started scribbling on teng's table... haha! just teasing each other.. then was... erm.. recess... makan spaghetti and my whole blouse kena tomato sauce.. but nevertheless, the spag is still nice.. :D thanks auntie! haha! then went back to class.. studied physics.. quite ok la.. the test was nex and the question wasn't specific.. which rebound and one more.. cant rmb.. so luckily changed my answer at the end..

had dnt later.. was not too productive than yesterday.. basically finished most parts alreadi.. but i believe i still have a long way to go.. haha! must do dnt during hols too.. :( haha! nvm la.. finish it all, i happy liao... so tired now.. after dnt went back to class to do report book.. i am amused la.. my comments were kinda weird? i must admit the comments aren't true at all.. sarah can prove it all.. :D haha!! tmrw then i say.. today don say.. not fair to those who haven take yet.. :) so went back with julia.. bought subway for lunch.. no more daily special meal!!!! SAD!! :(:( it is the onli meal i wld buy la! it is , i believe the most reasonable meal? LOL! yea.. watched CSI miami.. ok episode.. then it was AI!! finale! it was a good show with fantastic songs sang by various singers and yeah.. the songs were good.. :D glad that jordin won! haha! she was good la.. don understand paula.. she cant decide... but i think it is diffiult to be the bad guy.. and i totally understand that.. it applies to my life now.. i think u know it.. :(

so yeah.. that's abt it.. comments in report book is kinda a joke to me bah.. the teachers don believe.. haha! ok... shall be good from now on.. this sat there's a POC show price is cheap want to go but cant.. O lvls.. tmrw gg to sch at 7.30 for report book and after that, staying back to study chinese... must do well for chinese!

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i wan to be able to communicate with u like before..
how i treated u were just to see how much u care..
i guess i am wrong..
i think someone, whom i reject knows who are u.
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i feel so troubled now... need to talk to someone.. :( ur phone's confiscated, u r busy, u r not replying.. i have no idea who to talk to.. i don know how u are now and u don reply my messages when u asked me to message u.. hope everything will be alright tmrw..

look at the yellow bear k? stay happy always... :)


i am having a big headache and feel super tired now.. at this condition, i will just blurt out all my unhappiness..

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we sat down with our friends,
with an empty seat beside ourselves.
we are far away,
but are we thinking alike?

i may have just left the seat empty,
as there was just too many seats.
i may have just left the seat empty,
hoping u will come fill that seat.

but i think to myself.
'i am just dreaming,
i am just fanatizing,"
all this cant come true.

i am just asking too much.
we aren't that close as before.
or are we just too shy?
i don know...

can we do something abt it?
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today.. haiz.. kinda emo day? i was super tired in class and hence didn't talk to sarah much and she was also kinda stress.. so ya.. math lesson was kinda cool.. i actualli learnt smth! LOL! ok.. then we had.. erm.. recess.. smth funny happened between yongjie and weihao.. ya.. and julia was sick so had to leave early.. accompanied her to get a cab.. mrs lee is just great la.. haha! hope julia's alright now.. believe she's coming to school tmrw.. chinese was quite quiet today.. i think i am realli tired today.. no energy to talk or anything.. haiz.. even in chinese remedial got big headache and ya.. dnt remedial didn't have the energy to communicate with others.. just wanted to be alone.. haiz.. wonder wat's wrong with me.. :( so had that pep talk.. yeah.. english must be my first priority now.. but not until after my chinese paper.. after chinese paper i am gg to chiong and start revising like everyday.. hope sarah's alright now..

reached hm super late.. stayed back for dnt.. managed to do a lot la.. quite pleased.. :D then watch AMERICAN IDOL!! ok.. performance from blake is just ok for me.. i prefer jordin's more than his.. i love love love the last song they sang!! THIS IS MY NOW! it is super nice to listen to la.. now it is repeating on my music player.. haha! go hear ppl! the lyrics are realli meaningful that's most probably the reason why jordin cried.. i think the line "so i looked around, i cant believe the love i see," it is really meaningful.. i think it is abt looking forward to ur future and don be held back by ur past, ur friends, family are arnd u to help.. i think it is like this? LOL! overall, nice song..

tmrw is our SPA exam and ya.. haven study yet.. LOL! intend to do it tmrw instead.. now do homework first then study for chinese.. basically reading format and newspapers agn.. i am kinda afraid yet confident for chinese paper.. the rev ex does help.. so yea.. good luck to all this coming monday!
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THIS IS MY NOW
http://www.americanidol.com/songwriter/index.xhtml
go listen to the song now!
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i dont know wat to do now...
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ooo.. today... interesting day.. smth major happened in sch and we shldn't talk anymore abt it.. the female teacher, mrs jasmawati rite? anyway, she's a funny teacher but she manages to put her point across.. yeah.. i don know why could some juniors can actualli laugh while mr koh talked abt it.. so ya.. i almost slept when mrs khairul talked abt the girl's thingy.. lol.. was so so tired.. yesterday slept late.. for some special reason.. :D but i slept later after you... haha.. was reading newspapers.. chinese.. haiz.. so ya.. then.. we had chinese.. lesson wasnt bad.. aiyan just same old same old.. kaypo and just funny.. haha! ok.. she's very funny la.. fullstop.. :D yeah.. macs lunch was supposed to be today but mrs lee not free so better not.. haha.. after o lvl perhaps?

yesterday at night had a long talk with shi xiang.. abt his religion.. realli interesting to know more abt his religion.. christianity btw.. haha! red rain.. see how first? so ya.. sarah said she's gg to be baptised this sun.. she's gg to be committed to christianity.. that's realli cool la.. congrats! haha! that's was abt it last night.. so back to today...

had great fun with sarah, paula and julia... haha! very lame la.. ask sarah and she will tell u how the annual meteor shower look like... LOL! baseball.. best game ever.. LOL! a lot of bloopers u can say.. haha! terence tay is a great bat-er.. pro.. i don know what's the rite word.. so ya.. he can hit the ball to the far end and everyone will be like run, run, run, homerun! lol!! one word: FUN! haha!

went back to class.. everyone stood by the window and started talking.. plainly teasing each other but still, had great fun! the wind was exceptionally cooling.. :D sx complained halfway said we blocked his wind.. LOL! then it started raining and the whole weirong, my table got ants.. like everywhere... yinmei, evonne and myself, we started finding the source and it was the along the window.. the ants were crawling everywhere la.. and my whole body started to feel itchy.. lol... but fortunately sch ended.. then we had the test.. quite do-able.. mdm goh was tearing the name tags or smth? for our o lvls.. and the noise was so so so so IRRITATING! i went crazy for a moment of time.. julia was there she told me to chill.. LOL! so overall was a great day.. went home with sarah... talked a lot.. :D

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things has finally changed.
and ya, i am glad. :)
hope it will stay the same always,
and even better. till then...
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today is a monday which means double periods for the whole day.. LOL! started off with the GCE O LVL briefing in the audi.. followed by mr lee's, and mr koh's talk.. two great talks actualli... mr koh as usual, his talk is always enjoyable and mr lee's always motivational.. like always.. haha! so ya.. it did motivate me la.. i need to realli do up a plan for the hols to study.. after chi o lvl, i am so gg to chiong... mrs neo talked to teng and myself today.. she told us we shld buck up for our english, don throw away all ur other subjects because of english.. yeah.. i am gg to do smth abt it.. i realli don wan to die under the hands of english... it is realli horrible for my future to be ruined because of english.. so ya.. the pingpong balls we used today, 5 were missing and mrs neo wans to collect 50cents per ball if no one returns.. ya.. and currently onli one got back.. which means i need to take out like 2 dollars from the class fund.. :( haha!

after which was chemistry.. had practical.. the two guys on my left were having a distilled water match and smth funny happened.. lol.. and weirong had to run.. it was realli bad.. haha! then we had to deal with alkali, acids.. super unlucky la both biondi and myself.. the beaker spout broke, and the alkali didn't pour out properly and it ended up on our hands... and soon, our hands started to turn red.. and the feeling was realli stingy.. painful.. now can still feel the pain.. so after washing our hands it was much better.. so note, don play with alkali.. wonder wat the concentration of the alkali was.. must be quite high? so ya.. that's abt it for chem.. then chinese... lol.. funny la.. mrs lee keeps ignoring aiyan... and aiyan got fed up.. then onli when aiyan got fed up, mrs lee turn to her.. then aiyan tried asking her smth but the moment she started talking, mrs lee turn away agn and talk to someone else.. LOL! aiyan's face was priceless.. haha! aiyan is just funny la.. :D so tmrw we are having a macdonald lunch? sponsored by mrs lee.. she's RICH la.. aiyan totalled price mrs lee needs to fork out for the lunch (>$186) and she said ok! LOL! that's super rich! two hundred dollars just fork out.. and she somemore say she poor.. so ya... so tmrw, macs meal.. cool.. :D

we had amath after chinese.. amath was ok.. i understand the concept but realli need to revise a lot.. i am weak in calculus must work hard.. so yea.. had chinese mock test after that and i was so tired.. ppl talking, very irritating.. but ok paper... then walked to bus stop with julia and aiyan and then went hm with brenda and mich.. know a lot of things.. *snigger* :D so that's abt it...

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we aren't like before.
we cant talk like before.
we cant look into each other's eyes like before.
we cant continue our conversations like before.

my friend asked me,
"is it confirmed?"
i replied,
"i am having doubts now,
although it is,"

so are we or are we not?
i agreed the first,
but denied the second.
soon, mr three came along.

we agreed in the end.
but is it going to be the same later?
i am having my doubts,
but i hope it is the prior.

i guess i am just sensitive,
or am i just right?
enlighten me,
for i am dying in this fight.
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today was a boring day.. woke up early in the morning.. had breakfast went to cut hair.. looks kinda horrible.. ok.. just wish it grows back quickly.. :D so erm.. just got back from praying.. and yeah.. just that... the dog at the temple was fierce to my sis when she approached it and after which the dog started breathing heavily and nex thing i saw was the dog lying on the floor, unconscious.. hope it is ok now.. haha! so that's abt it la..

*edited- sorry dave!
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If we were a movie
You'd be the right guy
And I'd be the best friend
That you've fall in love with
In the end we'd be laughing
Watching the sunset
Fade to black
Show the names
Play the happy song
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how will u react if i quoted this song and sent it to u?

i shld edit my previous post.. delete the hating part.. not worth wasting my feelings over her.. ppl don believe that i could actualli dislike her... i feel like a dummy now.. i get mocked by her and i cant freaking do anything abt it.. blame myself for hating you..



today was a good day basically... haniel smsed me in the morning assuming i was in sch too.. but nah. saturday leh.. unless got school work then i wld go to sch otherwise nope.. haha! so woke up at 10, watch tv till 11.. went out with mum and grandma to metro sale at expo.. realli cool since i bought lots of stuff.. clothes, bermudas, shoes... yeah.. not bad.. will be getting more from batam trip this coming june.. i got a pair of sandals and it looks darn cool la... maybe i would wear for my trip.. suit the whole exotic getaway? with a shopping centre beside it.. LOL! nex nex week is our chi o lvl.. very fast and i am doing my studying now. wat a late bloomer.. haha! wrong word i know.. ok.. that's abt wat happened today..

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i don know wat's gg on now.

i messaged you yesterday, the day before,

and you didn't reply.

i don understand why.



i wish your phone's keypad has broken down,

or you are just not replying because of your phone bill.

but a part of me think that you are just ignoring me.

which one is the exact situation?



give me an answer,

give me a clue,

either stop wat's gg on now,

or let it continue on.



i am being misled by you,

i am being misled by my feelings.

i wish i could stop this,

but i still believe in you and me.

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today.. lol! started off with principal mr lee talking abt happy slapping.. mr juffri commented abt it to me after sch when i went in for dnt.. he said all these actions are started by the british.. i think americans but still it is the wrong behavior for educated ppl to act that way.. who in the right mind wld do such a thing? i find it realli unbelievable for students in singapore to actualli be culprits of such crimes.. so after a short intro to happy slapping and taopok.. ok.. still both are realli silly actions.. so after which we took back our health booklets and ya i am healthy.. so went back to class form teacher showed us our marks.. did realli badly.. deproved.. especially chemistry.. damn demoralising.. haiz... so L1R5 is 25 i guess.. shld be la.. stupid la!! i am so gg to do smth with english and geo elec.. overall 2A2s.. for dnt and emath.. emath is sort of lucky.. but hope to maintain.. need to secure as much As as possible.. now i am left with hopefulli chem, english, comb humans, chinese.. chinese B3.. haiz.. wasted.. going to chiong now.. as in after blogging.. must be serious liao.. after results.. SS.. oh shoot! i need to see mrs tan! OMG! i am so dead! my SBQ la.. haiz.. must do smth abt SS too.. most importantly english then humans, then chem.. so after marks... which was SS lesson, 3periods of math.. and it was basically doing corrections.. mrs tan gave us somehow a free period.. but she still wan us to finish corrections.. so ok.. i think i might have disappointed mrs tan.. :( maybe i did not but i do somehow feel gulity.. ok.. so after math was recess and then chinese.. watched i not stupid2 agn.. boring episode.. lame too.. so after that was english.. i forgot wat we did but i was talking to evonne and yin mei for the first period when mdm yeo asked us to do corrections.. LOL! basically one free period.. so ya.. three of us discussed abt the language of modern day ah-lians? LOL! those words like 'lorve', 'worz' yada yada.. they shld have a dictionary for this..ya.. after that was a grammar exercise.. my grammar sucks big time.. need to do a lot of work now.. partner? must help me k? so ya.. that was it for today and we had chinese mock paper which i slept during the first half.. was so tired.. but managed to have some time to check answers which i copied or wrote the wrong no. wrongly.. luckily got check..

lots of hmw to be handed up nex week.. dnt is sort of put into a standstill.. but i need to do up a sketch of the new part of my product.. anyway, after mock test went for dnt.. asked mr juffri whether i could do this design but helped him with the souvenir for the prefect investiture. i must say that they are realli disorganised and lack of time by the improvements they want to do on the product.. i helped for like 3hrs and ya.. jiahao was there so i wasn't alone.. haha! mr juffri and i talked abt the upcoming chinese o lvls, my results, and also one impt thing.. two ex-seniors came back to sch and went into dnt workshop.. there were two girls.. one will be A and the other B.. so A is a girl whom mr juffri had helped since the start of her project and B, his help onli came in at the end.. so both entered the room, i was there with 4 counsellors who came in late.. ok.. anyway.. so B went in and said hi to mr juffri and talked to mr juffri.. but A didn't.. after they left, mr juffri said, 'sometimes it doesn't pay to be helpful, u won't be appreciated,' and he told me abt the two girls.. and ya i feel that it is really ungrateful of A to be like that after all mr jurri did for her folio.. haiz.. so ya.. note to ppl, must be appreciative to ur teachers and to those whom have helped u.. so back to helping, the new sec 3 counsellor came in later and both of us started talking.. she wanted to give me a really cool CG toy.. but i said nvm la.. cause i thought she needed it for the ceremony.. ok.. i have major english probs.. haiz.. anyway.. so i didn't take it.. i soon went home with jiahao.. he waited in sch for i don know how long for a tablet.. LOL! so he finally got it and went home..

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today.. haiz.. kinda an ok day? smth happened in class and sort of affected me.. anyway don wanna talk abt it.. so erm.. ama, xiang didn't come today.. haiz.. xiang still have fever.. ama i don know.. results are bad la.. below my expectations.. mrs yeo told me i could get there but cldn't so ya.. she suggests study grps and also revision timetable.. so ya.. i will be doing it this week.. starting nex week.. JIAYOU!!!! ok.. results.. i think a very low L1R5.. as in.. high la.. ok.. watever.. haha! so erm.. i would give a range of 30 to 20 la.. that range which is realli realli bad liao..

read yq's blog, julia's and Lp's blog.. all commented on the showing us our results across the board.. and i must say.. it is indeed disturbing.. with classes walking by lookin at our results and stuff.. it is embarrassing but.. for me, maybe onli me... it is sort of a motivation to push me on and ya.. we shld see it this way.. for physics.. i realli don understand why we shld rejoice when we won E class by a margin.. ok.. fine we can rejoice for a moment, but we cant get complacent thinking that there's one other class below us and stuff.. we must do better than this and ya.. not onli beat E class but also D, A, and eventually B.. u think aiyah it isn't possible to win B class la.. compare with them for wat? but u never know till u try.. and by comparing with someone of lower standard than u, one will never improve.. onli with a better opponent, will u grow.. just as wat mr singh said i think.. ok.. anyway, ya.. we may have beaten E class.. so nex step D class, then A and finally B.. we can do that! we realli can.. have confidence in urself and ur answer.. reali everything is in your head.. understanding a concept is realli impt.. that's most probably the key to mastering the topic.. yes.. after many times of showing the results ya we do get sick though.. haiz.. but that's the way the teachers intend to motivate us.. the win over E class is also a good boost for all of us.. so ya.. C class can do physics! :D gonna do better!

next up.. lol.. i think i wld call him Dave.. don ask me who and why i call him that. just saw the name on my story book.. dave is a realli cute dude.. he's willing to do things most guys won't do for this girl and i realli respect him for that.. i must say that that girl is realli fortunate.. hope she says yes. :D he's my neighbour whom i have grown up with closely.. so don bother guessing anyone from sch... lol.. so ya.. all the best for him!

no offence to my classmates in the last thrid para.. but JIAYOU! NENG ZUO DAO DE!

tues. worst day of my life.. i almost had depression.. luckily for two great friends who were there for me.. sarah and haniel.. haha... anyway.. got back results agn.. got back.. chem MCQ, EL compre and Emath P2... i am kinda surprised with my emath results.. i thought i screwed that paper but i scraped a decent B3.. phew.. haha... EL.. needless to say screwed the whole paper agn... i realli realli wanna give up.. but hopefulli i can improve during the hols.. most depressing results.. chem.. a stupid C5... way below my expectations... i really need to have a one-to-one talk with the chem paper and myself.. i need to direct my attention to the weakest topic and solve the prob.. my chem is gg downhill now.. haiz... sometimes when u console a friend, it is a form of love don get any form of reciprocation.. heard great news? lol! kinda good actualli highest for dnt 86.5 out of 100.. very good la.. possible winners? anyone.. haha! it is unexpected la.. wait till tmrw and we shall know.. hope i can get an A and then i shall be consoled.. went home today reading through my papers.. wondering where i have gone wrong.. and sickeningly most mistakes are careless.. haiz... WASTED! called my mum on the way home.. and then told her i did badly.. and she started asking is it because my studyin method wrong or not.. and told me to buck up for the nex papers.. so ya.. i cried after that.. i felt a sense of stress on myself.. from myself.. reached home changed into a comfortable shirt and went to the park to exercise.. just ran arnd the park... sat at the swing and just emo-ed and just thought abt a lot of stuff.. just wanna breathe... so carried running and went hm after 30mins...

reached home. ate mantou.. and ya.. nice.. and just slacked in front of tv watching drama serial and soon bro came home.. hate him.. find trouble immediately he come home.. just wanna watch tv also cannot..

i was there for you yesterday but are u there for me today? i think i am heading towards the wrong direction... maybe u are not the one.. maybe i am asking too much... maybe i am reading too much into it.. why must there be 'maybes'? maybe i am just finding excuses.. it is not the time now.. can i let go? i shall.. i realli hate this feeling...

monday... haiz.. got back a lot of papers.. namely EL summary, Physics MCQ, Chem Section A & B, all chinese and amath P1... overall.. erm.. disappointing? english is confirm i-wanna-die-liao feeling.. i think i might just break down from the freaking poor el results.. the feeling of tearing the paper into half has occurred to me twice and it happened agn today.. it is sort of a feeling that u just wanna take the nightmare away from u.. ya.. so tearing the paper.. haha! i failed la obviously.. heard compre highest onli 19.5 lynette 4E so ya.. most will be arnd the 10+ range? me? fail agn i tell u... haiz.. compo i really have no confidence.. heard that the whole lvl disappointed the marker, ms puja.. haiz.. i am so screwed for EL la..

physics.. i don know whether it is good or not.. MCQ got 27? ya.. i think it is kinda bad liao.. haiz.. B3 i think.. hope the other sections can pull up the marks... have a bit of faith on this paper.. so ya.. hopefulli la.. Chem.. lecture was kinda stressing.. mr tan gg through the paper and u having the feeling of 'oh no! i think i do wrong liao!' and all that mixed feelings.. ya.. kinda disturbing.. haha! the last iron statue qn i was kinda surprised... got the answers rite and i rmb that time when i was abt to write the answer i asked myself why the question so vague so i wrote everything i know abt the process and heng the points are there.. phew.. haha! got 30 for tat section A and B did badly la.. 11.. sad.. haiz.. now MCQ left.. wonder how it can salvage my marks.. kinda depressing day for some friends.. haiz.. they were literally whinning the whole way home.. haha!! just listened to them and just tell them to chill and there's like other parts too so don worry too much yet.. i wonder how he is feeling now.. haiz... maybe i am just too sensitive... anyway... amath.. 52.. kinda sad too.. everyone getting 60plus and pro ms chow aiyan haha.. got 74.5.. power i must admit.. haha! chinese.. quite ok results.. can do better.. got 68.. okok? mr ziheng got 80 plus.. there's like extreme good and extreme poor ppl in my chinese class.. haha.. but i think overall average shld be quite ok i guess...

tmrw.. papers that i might get back.. lol.. erm.. section A and B for physics? hopefulli.. then.. eh.. english.. haiz. plus. chem MCQ and lastly emath or amath? emath P2 confirm die.. P1 hopefulli la.. chem MCQ i realli hope to do well.. at least a B bah...

so ya.. that;s abt the first day back to sch after a three days break... kinda used to the hols.. after chinese o lvl gg to chiong math.. weakest subject now other than EL.. i need help for EL too.. major help.. well great job to those who did well for exams and ya for o lvls, let's work harder! haha! ciao.. so tired.. haiz.. i just wan to be knocked out black when the sun sets without worries..

28may Chinese O levels P1 and P2..
9-10june Batam trip.. haha! fishing 'aka' shopping trip.. gg to get lots of things there la. cant wait actualli..
13june Electronics course.. cool course i hope?
17-19june Family chalet

yesterday was a great day went to downtown east for the mayday carnival and my nephew's first birthday... had subway agn, subway melt, but it is in a wrap very very nice.. yum.. haha! met up with my mum's friends and won a lot of toys? actually onli three.. haha! plus one more from my mum's friend... so ya.. then they went for a bath while i wandered arnd the whole place to find entertainment.. was so boring la.. boring to the extent that i could sleep.. haha! then went for jackpot and i have no idea whether they won any money or not.. oh ya.. don bother playing the arcade games that u need to move the clutch to grab the toy when the clutches are those weak and feeble type.. saw this i think sec 2 or 1 guy.. realli arrogant and he lost a lot of money.. lol! he was showing off in front of his female classmates and his guy friends... and the clutch keep missing the toy and ya.. he got pissed off and shouted loudly.. all the vulgarities just came out.. i just stood there and like laughed at him? lol.. no la.. just find him silly...

after mt mum's jackpot game, went to my nephew's birthday party.. his name is jayden and his elder bro is brayden.. lol.. guess their sister's name will be megan? lol! sang birthday song and went to downtown's arcade to play with my same age cousin.. lol.. had great fun with the bball machine, nascar game and time crisis.. haha! went back to the chalet and my cousins playing mahjong.. watched the ghost show and soon left.. the two brothers jay- and bray- followed too.. held on the one hand of brayden and and my cousin, edel held the other so my nephew he thought both edel and i are a couple and pulled our hands together and then kissed it.. lol! my cousin and i just laughed at each other... jayden was exceptionally adorable.. lol.. i am crazy over my nephews.. jayden extinguished his candle with his hand.. just swiped it and gone.. and he didn't feel the pain until much later and there was wax on his hand.. but didn't cry.. pro... haha!

today mummy's day.. my god ma came and yeah i wished my mum and my god ma.. ate a lot of stuff? i am so going to gain weight la.. i am gg to skate later..

ever experience the feeling of missing that very shot and then regretting it all? i am so hating this experience now..it was as what i wanted now last year but it is different now.. i was the slow one.. but to think of it.. i am asking too much from you.. sorry for that treatment then.. haiz...

i don know how to put this across to u.. i think i am just not prepared yet... the irony...

today was a great day!! haha! considering the fact that it rained in the morning, cancelling the jog-exercise outing with haniel.. LOL! 2hrs of pure jogging... ok la.. just too tired after a long long talk with yq and teng.. haha! i just realised smth.. but i must say it is a bad thing? and yq, i am worse.. haha! jiayou! and to teng and sx, sorry for being so direct.. just at the heat of the moment, i just asked.. lol! i think i might have scared you guys.. sorry! i know my eyes were filled with water cause of my yawns.. ya.. very tired.. haha! luckily today don need to wake up early and exercise.. LOL! haniel must be cursing now.. some other time k? i think i am gg to talk abt that thing to some close friends.. realli it is a bad thing la.. if it is so, how do i make myself known to that guy? ok.. fullstop..

woke up early in the morning at 10.30 which is not early.. went to the station and agreed to wait for ruiwen so ya.. met on the train and i caused her to run for the train so ya.. zhen bu hao yi si.. :D and i am realli realli slow.. haha! my cousin boarded the train too at the same cabin at the same time but i didn't see her and onli when i let her friend take the seat then i realised and she said i was slow.. LOL!! ok.. then we met with yap on the train too.. childish.. LOL!!!! both rw and i had the same idea so ya.. don even know whether u even come here.. :D met up with the guys and we left for the arcade.. guys were namely, yongjie, weihao, jiahao, weirong, teng, rw, yap, myself, biondi, mingjie i think that's all.. ya.. cant rmb. the whole arcade was dark.. :D after a while we left for the theatre and all of them were there.. total i think arnd 15 to 20 ppl? plus, yq, three PPG, terence tay and foo, zhiyi, shixiang, and somemore? lol! cant rmb.. just a lot of ppl.. spiderman 3 movie was touching.. cried during the ending.. for sandman.. goblin jr. a bit bah? haha! nice story but too much effects? the camera was shaking badly but story was great.. cast was better.. harry looks good when he smiles.. haha! sweet.. after movie, with pop corn on the floor and everyone going to toilet, the guys left for ecp.. went to get smth from my mum and went and bought lots of fastfood.. LOL!!! binging.. bought subway and long john silver.. my fav. is.. erm.. for fries, long john's and food, erm.. subway.. healthy la.. their sub-meal(?) are good. i am so gg to have one during family chalet.. yeah! haha! cant wait.. maybe tmrw? gg to escape tmrw.. for some carnival.. mayday carnival.. free entry to WWW and escape.. go win their toys.. haha... wu liao rite? nephew's birthday tmrw.. sun cousins coming.. haha! great! monday, results.. fast? ok.. i cant wait for it too?

tasks to fulfil:
1. prepare myself for the upcoming D&T requirements..
2. help haniel with blog
3. talk to sarah
4. get back my bear
5. know more between us
6. complete jog with haniel
7. get on with my life.. LOL!
8. watch harry potter OOP
9. POC III
10. SIMPSONS MOVIE. will be one hella lame show.. haha! cant wait!
11. wild hogs? kinda too late
12. family chalet!! haha! will be a different one this year.. :D

that's all.. and ya.. thanks for letting me know yq! :D
ppl go hear girls aloud: i'll stand by you.. maybe u guys have heard of it.. LOL!

my lips are so torn now.. ARH!! it realli hurts.. haiz.. haven finish studying and i am here blogging.. i gotta get out.. haha!

back after one jam packed week.. jam packed with tests of course.. we've finally finished all humans, pure chem and all languages! and half of each math which is super super good.. the tests are like hard la... haiz.. today's emath was a killer.. i did qn 3 and spent like 30 mins on it? and eventually didn;t write anything.. that pathethic.. haha! then i just flipped the page and realise i have no mood to do any more.. realli realli sian.. and suay suay, RUNNY NOSE! haha! sinus rite? lol.. must be because of this morning.. grandma on the fan claiming that my room is very stuffy when it is super cold.. and then, here i am now, attacked with flu.. why oh why.. haha! chem was ok.. MCQ did it very carefully.. no room for mistakes.. but some questions i have doubts.. like realli tikam tikam.. haha! but onli for two to three questions.. the others realli focused on solving.. 1hr then passed by..

paper 2.. haiz. i was so sick la.. now my nose is like red.. so i placed my head on my arm and continued writing... then mr tan walked passed me and looked at me.. lol.. i am in deep trouble.. haha! so i just continued writing.. i was realli awake and writing.. cldn't sleep anyway.. haha! then i 'woke' up and like speed through the paper like crazy.. still not enough time for some questions.. lost 14 marks.. and counting.. haiz... sad... nex paper physics.. hope to do well! :D nex week is kinda a slow week which is better.. phew.. haha! with onli physics on monday, no test on tues, amath on wed and emath plus dnt on thurs.. it is kinda fast.. :D cant wait for thurs!!! watch spidey! yeah!!! cant wait la!!! haha!

went out with yong jie and yap after sch... went to get glow-in-the-dark guitar picks.. thanks rod for the good recommendation! haha! 50cent for one pick.. and yongjie bought me two. haha! gg to learn from him.. :P after which went to the hawker centre to eat curry rice.. yap recommended.. was so full after that.. cldn't finish.. ya.. then yongjie left and we went to PP walked arnd.. bought beans... nice broad beans.. :D and yeah.. went to his tuition centre.. 7th storey.. super high.. haha! now just wanna sleep.. so tired!!! :( good luck to all for the last week!! NOTE! LAST WEEK! haha! thurs watch spidey... yeah! how cool will that be!?!? :-P cant wait!

P.S. HAPPY BIRTHDAY to my COUSINS, vanessa and natsha and also haniel's sis... LOL! ok.. yeah... yesterday was myeong wen and wei hao aka ah hao's birthday! so ya.. then sit just beside each other in the hall.. as in beside natasha.. haha! ~ciao...

so in love with songs of bon jovi! idol rocked this week! this ain't a love song by lakisha is great, blake's version is superb and bonjovi's new song making the memories are super super nice.. good check them out!

back for a short short while before hitting the books again.. anyway, today's chinese was ok.. do-able.. must be the onli chinese paper 1 i've ever put a lot of effort in since sec 1.. haha! sad huh? lol! anyway, bumped into this and just wanted to post it.. LOL! cant wait!! oh ya.. they even have an IMAX poster for it.. so does that mean there's gg to be an IMAX screening of the show????? OMG! that wld be so cool.. yet so far from the east.. lol!!

today's the start of MYE... english paper was hard.. the compo.. i think i totally wrote out of point.. for compre have a little confidence if i managed to apply the skills learnt properly... SPA... both sciences were ok... now watching spider man 2 on AXN and whoa.. it is so cool... cant wait for the thrid instalment.. :D haiz.. cant wait for MYE to be over!!!! ARH!! why!! haha!! ok.. i am like breaking down on the first day of the exams... good luck to everyone again.. i don know wat to talk abt now.. haiz...

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everything's looking good for both of us
and we are talking again...

however, i am falling for another person,
whom i fell for before...

i don know wat to do,
and i don know wat to say.

i onli know that he looks adorable,
and i must resists the temptation to look into his eyes...

i've nvr experienced it before.
but i think u wld find it obvious that i cant look into ur eyes when we talk

and then u wld know it is u i am refering to..
why of all times now... haiz....
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note to self and readers.. lol! i am not gg to post from today till the end of MYEs... unless i come on under different circumstances.. yeah.. anyway, my mum, under personal instructions, is responsible in confiscating my com.. so ya.. i am proud of myself but i end up blogging now.. it was confiscated since yesterday.. but well.. mum wanted to use but didn;t know how to use it so here i am.. she's watching tv now... cant wait for the end of MYE!! :D i love the english enrichment course!! haha! mrs benjamin is just a great lady and teacher.. i will never get bored in her lessons.. haha!

to everyone in tk, good luck for MYEs!!!! it is stressful but it is certainly a good benchmark for our Os...

my dislike for her is getting deeper... <:-<

BIG F.Y.I TO YOU!

you don know wat actualli happened so just keep ur mouth to yourself! u r responsible for stirring up and causing this problem and you can still go arnd insulting others.. wat's the problem with you!?!? OMG! i am realli appalled by ur actions.. our class ain't like you, so wat if we are facing no.1 in the whole world? so wat if we know we r gg to have our butts kicked? as long as we did our best who cares abt the result? so wat's exactly ur prob?!?!? i am so pissed off now.. ARHZ!!!!! PLAIN NONSENSE! we aren't ppl like you who wld give up the moment u think u don stand a chance! we have a choice and we have chosen to do our best not like u, to give up..

no offence to you, but this doesn't even concern you... PFT! so stop ur unneccessary actions.. u r just creating trouble...

here to post that i finally got my guitar!! LOL! and it is 4 days to MYE! the irony! shall make this short.. need to do hmw.. sian!

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finally everything has come to an end
and i am pleased that it is so.
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i have my reservations for you,
yet i still wish you the best.
i don wanna lose a friend like you,
and i hope everything will come to a rest.

when i need to talk to someone,
the first person i think of is u.
but it is different from before,
and it will be the same in the future too.

i cant bring myself to communicate with you no more,
and even if i tried,
either of us will just can mad with the other,
before we could say the word ''bye''.

i cant take this no more,
and i want it to end.
could everything return to normal,
can we still be friends?
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i am so stress now... haha! ok.. relaxing now though... i am pleased with the test today... studied the right thing even though i slept throughout the whole revision part.. ask fafa and she knows.. ask me and i know better.. haha! was smsing today in chem... chem was boring.. was busy irritating sarah agn.. and she got fed up that i got scared.. haha! later she angry with me.. bad news if that happens.. :( there's a lot of hmw this week!!!! AH!!! math.. both math.. then.. DNT! WHY!?!?! plus chem too... :( this is so sad.. don even have the time to revise for mid years... i am so scared.. ok.. i need to start my hmw before my mum comes home.. cant wait though.. :D

today's a super tiring day.. screwed up my oral but just for haniel soh, not as worse as mr soh... he totally screwed his.. lol.. ok.. not funny... oral was totally screwed la.... shift one's convo qn is easy... but when u take some time now to think abt the question, it is not that difficult.. ARH!! i am so fed up la.. and i was sleeping while waiting for my turn to come.. i was that tired... our question was abt teenagers gg online and searched on how to make bombs and hence made them and use them in singapore... read smth abt this before.. i think it happened in the western or southern part of singapore.. some field.. i think it is woodlands or smth.. but i didn't include that and my points were very confusing.. i lost my ability to speak in chinese properly and the oral was just a horrible nightmare la!! ms low seemed to have given me a mark before i started talking.. haha! in conclusion, screwed everything up... managed to say the points but everything was everywhere.. she even commented abt it... :( and ms low told me to conclude that internet is dangerous and how to solve it like planet crush and smth... i do listen to her.. :D haha! was depressed after that la.. everyone was la... bad experience... and ya haniel, urs worse than mine.. :D happy? haha!

tmrw's SS test and chem supplementary after that... i hate saturdays.. wat for saturdays when there's sch every week? why must everything be on saturdays!?!?!!? ruin my day la.. pft..

smth happened in class and it was realli serious... just hope that he will go see the doctor tmrw.. haiz.. everyone's getting sick now.. pls like take care of urself la!

smth that happened a few days ago has finally subsided... yes... sleepless nights might be due to this matter... :( don know why but this few days very very tired... tmrw somemore must wake up so early.. things will be better tmrw.. :)

mum's coming back from philippines tmrw!!! :D with a wet, spoilt handphone and hopefulli a guitar!! haha! i am such a materialistic girl... lol! i wonder how water went into my mum's phone anyway.. toilet bowl? boat ride? bath? rain? cup? weird..

tmrw will also be a long day.. SS mock exams tmrw.. after that, chem supplementary and then going to airport for my mum.. time for hmw?? mins? 2 hrs? haha! time to study? i don know! i am afraid.. chinese o lvls in one more month, mid years nex week, prelims- less than 5 months.. o lvls, less than 6 months? i think.. i don know...

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i am so tired now that i wanna shut my eyes and get away from this stressful world...
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good luck to all for tmrw test and also for midyears.. :D
need to chiong for ss now...

things have progressed to the extent i don wanna think abt it... it has been under the sea bed for a week and now it is stirred up to the surface and now including myself, 4 people are affected by it... can we just compromise, take a step back and forget abt it?
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it all started with different perspective from different ppl
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i realli hope that we all cld just compromise.. i don wanna face this anymore.. the last time this happened, my family is in a wreck now.. pls... just take it easy guys...

today's a... erm... disturbing day.. something happened in class today and i don wanna talk it anymore... it has been stirred up today after one week and i don wanna carry on with the problem.. hope everything's ok now.. and another disturbing thing is that ms SARAH THOMAS didn't come to sch today!!!! omg.. i totally miss irritating her.. haha!!! warning.. sarah thomas said 'someone needs a slap and it ain't me' twice and guess who she meant.. haha!! ok.. she's very nice to irritate but often we get distracted.. so i shld stop my silly actions now.. :D promise... try very hard to.. when i keep quiet she will think i am being emo and stuff.. lol.. ok.. bind me up or tape my mouth.. just so i don irritate both of us... i totally miss sarah.. :(

i am ok with him now but there's a difference when i talk to him in the past and now.. i cant describe it but it is restricting me..

anyway, just ran arnd the park twice and whoa.. i must say i am proud of myself.. :D must prepare myself for smth.. haha! cant wait?

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i didn't want this to happen but it did,
i wanted to put a stop to it but i couldn't.
sorry...
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learn to forgive and forget... :D

oh ya.. welcome back natasha and pon to sch? LOL! one day without them seemed to be different la.. the class ain't whole.. including the choir peeps.. :D

just talked to my grandma and it got me mad when i told her abt my stuff...

one, to this person.. when i said it is enough it is enough... when i say i will get mad, i don care how much u smile at me, give me an innocent look, or stupid puppy look, i am realli mad.. and when i scold i really scold.. u and ur bf maybe big shots, but hey i don care.. i don care even if u r the president's daughter.. if u don show respect, don expect me to treat u with it.. u r just stuck up.. i know that u are competing with me in everything but hey guess wat? i don bother abt u.. go ahead and compete for all i care.. there's always a mountain higher... u r always badmouthing abt her but know wat? u r no better.. at least she knows her limits unlike u.. grow up... that's one point that i prefer abt her than to u.. u think ur bf is all that and excepts everyone to treat him as royalty.. but hey! we aren't u..

two, to this other person, i understand ur pediacrement and honestly i have a part to play to how u r now... and truthfully i am sorry... there's some things that ppl tend to see differently and i hope that all of us involved cld compromise.. the purpose of the game was to have fun but we are affected by competitveness.. and that's most probably the reason why we are in this plight now.. i am affected by the competitiveness too.. and hence... led to this.. can i help in anyway? and i am sorry...

three, smth that happened to my friend... as i told u, i have personal limitations with ppl like u.. do blame me if this limitations are causing problems.. hope u forgive me... we need to talk though...

four, thanks to this particular someone to hear me out abt the things that happened just recently... and i think u know wat a person i am...

there's a lot in my mind.. and i don know who to talk to... my grandma will be interrupting me halfway, mum's out in philippines.. his status has changed and he's her good friend.. life's unfair? haha... i think so... i hate being middleman...

to a new friend, thanks for ur advice today and he wasn't angry with u.. :D all the best for midyear! let's break the failing record of comb humans.. haha!

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gratz to choir for getting gold with honours and band silver!! everyone's a winner when u have fun don critizise anyone for wateva reason.. they did their best and the sch is proud no matter wat... some ppl just love to critizise...
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i have experienced this twice
and each time, my heart breaks.

for wat reason?
namely, losing a friend...

i hate this but i cant fight this feeling...
help? i think i ran into big trouble again
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it is a wonder that u write a lot abt the person u dislike and so little for the ppl u love... why? haha....

i remember the days when there were 3 of us,
but now there's none.

one of whom i had a crush on,
the other, a good friend.
and you, my best friend.

we had fun together
but it all changed
i plotted against you,
all in the name of greed.

and now, today, i saw you on the bus,
Reminiscing wat i had i done before,
and it hit me.

how immature i was, how dumb i was.
and today i didn't acknowledge you.
i didn't have the right to...
sorry..

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today's an okay day... started off with tkh coming to our class.. don wanna talk abt it.. it does make sense anyway... nex was 2.4km run.. i am rather pleased with myself for running non-stop for 6 laps and i thought it was impossible.. but still my timing's slow.. haha! was practically walking i think? haha! from the run i sort of learnt smth.. don wanna talk abt it too.. grad nite will be fun as a lot of ppl are gg.. currently, onli diniy, sohail and paula haven pay but they r gg.. ppl not gg are onli 3... rod, wr and chris.. so ya... all girls gg!! haha! that will be fun!

10 more days to MYE and i seriously think i am slacking... i have too much in my mind.. studies will definitely divert my attention away.. i have major problems... MAJOR! regarding everything.. i need to talk but to who? i don know..

congrats to a friend on smth but hey balance ur life k? haha!

mum's at philippines now... yeah.. lol.. she's getting me a guitar from there which i heard from my cousin's philipino maid that the best brand is super cheap.. haha! cant wait.. i might just break the thing... lol.. ok.. must pay attention to studies liao.. time is flying by realli quickly.. don bother throwing the clock out the window.. it ain't as fast.. lame.

no more movies, gg out, hanging out with him.. i shall live by it.. it is my own restrictions... this is smth new, but it is my restriction when being friends with someone who's attached.. :] good luck friend.. i don deserve to be in ur list but if u need to talk, i am here for u..

i hope to be ur first and ur last.. when will you come?

the most respected industrial designer and mentor

thanks rod for the onli pic we have of mr jackson :) i am crying, while typing this post and i am sure many of us will feel the same sorrow..

i've made an exception to blog today abt my most respected industrial designer and mentor- mr jackson kong.. i rmb the first day we met him, we greeted him as mr kong but he said, "just call me jackson.. " he was very friendly and warm to everyone of us. and likewise we love him so. but just yesterday, he was taken away to a much better place, somewhere far and tranquil and to mr jackson, rest in peace. you will be missed.

4 of us went to his wake right after amath lecture and it was a coincidence. he stays at the same block as where my ah ma is staying... so close yet so far.. pon cldn't join us but hey the sincerity counts.. he knows... during the bus trip, we discussed how are we gg to react when we see him, in his coffin? how are we going to face it... and the answer that came to all of us was i don know.. we cldn't accept the reality that someone of age 32 wld die just like that.. and he was in sch yesterday too... we were all very nervous went we reached the venue, mr jackson's goddaughter was standing beside him crying.. his relatives greeted us with their bloodshot eyes and it made me cry inside... we took a look at him and what we saw was a cold, dry mr jackson... and that hit us.. telling us he's dead... a rush of emotions just come to you.. do u cry with the family? or do u stay strong?

we stayed strong.. eventually we went back to the table.. reflecting abt this incident... mr jackson's friends, i assume, came later and they went to his coffin and when they return, they were crying.. i mean male adults crying and this is wat i call real tears.. as the saying goes, man shed blood not tears.. do i agree to that? i don know for sure.. but looking at two grown men crying, it shows a lot.. it shows how much they love this person and hence cry the teardrops of love.. and that i respect most..

to mr jackson's family, our condolences, and to mr jackson rest in peace...

moral of this: treasure the ppl arnd you.. death is unpredictable.. don regret for your whole life..